Well i guess the first place is that i got onto the scales today and have officially lost 100lbs :-) Sure this isnt an easy journey and for the first 5 mths just had that many complications and such regret. Today i still have a small amount of regret but its getting better, i cant wait for my sleeve to relax so i can eat just a little more than a bird!! I have been very lucky in that i can eat what ever i want and do, dont want to live my life telling my self what i cant have. Sure i am not perfect some days especially the weekends very rarely get in my Protein or liquids but will keep trying....

For those who are having a miserable time i feel for you, i too have been there and its not fun but it does get better, sure i still have days were i feel ordinary and tired but they arent as often as they were.

Moral of my story, take each day as it is and realise you can only move forward cause you cant turn back :-)

Thank you so much for talking about those bad days. I am approx 3 weeks post op. The surgery itself i was miserable the first 48 hrs. Ive been doing pretty good since -27lbs on my post op appt. Still on semi solids. The hardest thing at times is people feeling bad and not wanting to ear in front of me. Actually makes me feel like ita goong against the point if me doing the surgery so that i would not be the one singled out. Did you go through this all?

@@4JesusFit there is only 2 people who know about my surgery - my mum and aunty. I didnt feel that what i was doing had anything to do with anyone. My reason for my lack of eating if anyone asks is that i have digestive issues and better to eat a little at a time more often rather than alot - the truth kind of!!. Dont feel singled out just brush it off and know you did is for you and only you..... this is your life and you want to be happy with who you are :-)

Edited September 25, 201411 yr by Unhappysleever

thank you for kind words. oddly enough i just went through a situation at the beginning of the week where i shared my good news about preop visit and weight loss 1 sister was very supportive the other two kind of blew it off. I was pretty hurt especially that i have been the "big" sister all of their lives i am the oldest. I waited a day and actually spoke to them and ething is ok. But for anyone else reading this there are many changes we will see besides physical hang in there you are not alone.

@@Unhappysleever Congratulations on your amazing weight loss! I know the road is long and bumpy - it sounds like in your case it has been very bumpy - but 100 pound weight loss is an amazing accomplishment, one that most of us here strive for. Thanks for your honesty, I have read your posts and always appreciated your candor. It sounds like things might start getting easier for you, I hope so, you deserve it!

first of all i do not know how you can possibly be regretful if you have lost 100 lbs! hell yes this is hard work, but as for me, after being grossly overweight for most of my life I was estatic that I could actually GET this surgery in the at all.

Also why would you even think that you "can never have...." again? where did you get that from? I mean I know right now (im 3 weeks out from surgery) there are some things I just cant have and Lawd knows i can only eat a half cup of anything at a time but thats what so great! Try to be creative with your food, you may be a lot less un-happy!

I never had any self control and I always knew it was my portion sizes that were killing me, making me fatter by the day, NOW I just cant eat alot, this surgery fixed that 1 problem all fat people in the world have, no self control with portion sizes!

Do not think for a second that I do not crave some of the stuff i used to eat, pizza, chinese food, mexican, but you know what? Its a small price to pay for extending the quality of my life, to live another year or two, to not have limbs fall off from diabetes, or have a heart attack or stroke because of my weight.

Just think if this, how unhappy and regretful would you be in a coffin?