I had beyond a stressful day today. Usually I would want to eat to make my nerves calm down, distract myself, or I would be so out of it that I would just mindlessly eat more than I should.

Instead I found that I had to remind myself to eat, and I just didn't feel like eating much. I was too busy.

I'm so glad that I'm seeing these major changes. It seems like my whole relationship with food has changed. But also I think I handle stress in general much better now.

I don't know if it's the confidence? I know now that I'm worth it. I'm worth protecting, I'm worth defending. I am worth it.

I also see how sometimes when you don't get exactly the answer you wanted, you still win. You still went through the process and showed people that you are going to stand up for yourself and not back down.

And I think for many of us the decision to have the surgery and to get the insurance approval and jump through all the hoops is like that. It's a battle of constantly rethinking whether you are worth going to so much trouble and spending the money and time.

If anyone is still trying to decide I just have to tell them that they are worth it!

Edited July 15, 201412 yr by greensleeve

That is fabulous! Figuring out the emotional side of all of this and our relationship with food is by far the hardest part of this journey in my opinion. It sounds like you are doing pretty great in that area! :-)

Thanks!

I'm just enjoying this process so much. I feel like I should do a commercial for the sleeve.