Tomorrow is my surgery day. I can't sleep because I'm finally getting a little anxious. Don't get me wrong, I'm eager too... But anxiety is creeping in a bit.

It's odd, the range of emotions. I have many. Anger and resentment towards myself for letting my weight creep up so high, for not making healthier choices, for not doing this sooner. Lol

Sadness for not being able to consider food my comfort and friend. For not being able to hide behind my weight. For my kids, whose mother isn't able to keep up with them.

Terror of the IV, of not waking up. Both mine and my BF's mother went in for surgery and never made it back out. Mine had lung cancer and was in the middle of a surgical procedure and didn't make it. His was in the middle of a heart procedure and didn't make it. This scares me. I know that their circumstances were different and I have the utmost confidence in my surgeon... But I'm still scared.

Excitement that there really is an opportunity to restart my metabolism and, by making the right nutritional choices, I can lose weight and actually keep it off. Oh, the changes in life will be phenomenal.

Thankful that I've received so much support here and built great friendships with people that are able to understand my struggles. (You know who you all are and I feel blessed to have met you)

I know emotions run rampant right before surgery and being bipolar sure doesn't help, but it would sure be nice to know I'm not the only one who feels this way.

Thank you for taking the time to read this long post, April

Hey super fab. I too have some of these same feelings. My biggest fears are not waking up and getting dehydrated and blood clots. But I know without a shadow of doubt that we have all made a great decision for ourselves to be healthy

Good luck to everyone going in tomorrow. I too go in at 5am. Surgery time is 7:30

Superfab I didn't see ur post until after I asked in the other board how ur feeling. I truly understand all ur concerns and will be praying for u.

Thank you!!!

I almost passed out when they put the IV in I was so scared and before you know it your waking up I can't recall much of it lol. Your going to be fine they move so fast Good luck

Thanks. I appreciate the support

April you are phenomenal. I'm really excited for you. We were to be sleeved around the same time and alas it was not in the cards for you in 2012. This is your year, baby! I'm just really excited for you to get mobility back and to face your fears and come through in all the glory that is you. I love your humor. Sometimes I think we have the same gene pool. Lol. Be well. Breathe.

Yup! But it's finally happening and I'm just a bundle of nerves. Thank you so much for the compliments and support, it really means a lot to me. It's definitely been a long time coming but it's finally time!!!!

Hey super fab. I too have some of these same feelings. My biggest fears are not waking up and getting dehydrated and blood clots. But I know without a shadow of doubt that we have all made a great decision for ourselves to be healthy Good luck to everyone going in tomorrow. I too go in at 5am. Surgery time is 7:30

Hey sleeve sister! I have to be there at 6 so I'll be around the same time as you. (((Hugs)))

Good luck. I'll meet you on the other side!!

Nope definately not alone, now or after, that's why we're all here for everyone :-) I hope you and all the other sleeve to be's have a speedy recovery!

Nope definately not alone, now or after, that's why we're all here for everyone :-) I hope you and all the other sleeve to be's have a speedy recovery!

Thank you!!!!

Being nervous before surgery is totally normal. If you didnt feel those concerns then it may be time to worry.

Wishing you the vey best surgery and recovery!

I am sleeved everyone ... Most pain I feel is from gas. I get very dizzy all the time. When if decide to walk I was very sick to my stomach. So far it's been really good

Hey ladies how is everything going?

Hey ladies how is everything going?

It gets better day by day

Everyone, I am on soft foods and the pain is so horrible it makes me not want to eat.

Everyone, I am on soft foods and the pain is so horrible it makes me not want to eat.

Maybe you should do a puréed stage? I have 3 weeks of puréed food to prepare my tummy for soft foods

I almost passed out when they put the IV in I was so scared and before you know it your waking up I can't recall much of it lol. Your going to be fine they move so fast Good luck

The IV was like the worst part for me! Lol minus the pain I felt 2-3 days afterwards of course lol but I'm 9 days out and already down 8 lbs, 37 lbs total.

Everyone, I am on soft foods and the pain is so horrible it makes me not want to eat.

My date was feb 17...I am in full liquids until 3/5. Then I can start pureed foods.