Nevermind. I think I was just having a bad day. Things are looking better as the week goes on, so I'm going to stay positive and keep my eye on the ball. And I'll start running again! Thanks to those who responded for not being judgmental.

Edited October 23, 201312 yr by JennieDK

I need an answer to that question as well. I keep thinking, is this all there is to life? Shouldn't I be doing something more with my life? But what am I supposed to be doing? The older I get, the more I realize the authority figures I thought knew how things were supposed to run, actually turned out to be making it up as they went along.

Wow. it does sound a bit like a mid-life crisis. Really fun, but a little unnerving, I imagine. Have you seen a therapist about what you are going through now? Has your husband been supportive? Have you shared your thoughts with him?

I always find therapy a safe space to work out what seems to go around and around in my head. It sounds like it could help you too.

On a side note, many congratulations on your success and your new hotness!

Im super glad you are having fun but you might want to watch out on all that going out and need for attention- you will ruin your relationship at some point if you keep it up. I say this lovingly.

Maybe you should see someone if you feel it's anxiety related. I agree with teczin

Well, as I said, I've dealt with anxiety issues in the past, and so I can recognize some red flags. I made an appointment to go and talk to someone later this week, so that's probably going to be helpful. It's just such a huge change in self-image over such a short people of time.

Maybe you just need to find an outlet to burn off some energy. If you're happily married and don't want to jeopardize that then I agree that going out without him is a slippery slope. Are you still working out? Cross fit clubs do competitions on weekends...or could your kids' PTAs, sports clubs appreciate a highly educated board member as yourself? Good luck. I've only lost half of what you have but I find myself looking for fun things to get involved in often. I can empathize with having ants in your pants.