In my workshop last week they discussed body image, how we perceive ourselves. They said many people who lose weight cannot get used to the idea of being smaller. In their mind they are always big. I am the opposite. In my mind I am small.

I didn't become heavy until the birth of my twins 27 yrs ago, when I was 26 yrs old. Before that my weight ranged from 110-120. Afterward, my weight went from 175 all the way up to 230. (I'm 5ft tall) In my mind I picture myself the way I used to be. It's always a total shock to catch a glimpse of my reflection in a window or mirror. I think 'Oh my God! That is NOT ME!' I am horrified! It really HURTS my mind to see me like that. And there have not been any photos taken of me in YEARS. I simply have not allowed it. If anything ever happens to me my family will have no photos of me at all. Losing weight for me will make my outside match my inside again. I look forward to welcoming 'me' back.

I saw myself as "not that fat" for many years. I'm thinking from puberty I had this mind set and then over the years my weight has gradually increased and I still thought the same way. It wasn't until my recently that I have accepted the fact that I am morbidly obese and need to do something and fast. I dread taking full body pics. When you see my avatar I don't look that bad there right? lol. I met my husband online and only had a head shot on my profile and when he met me he admitted that he thought I was much smaller.....well surprise surprise lol. He still loves me and has been with me and supported through the weight gain and even the small successes that I have had with diet and working out. But like I said I finally accepted the fact that I'm obese and I'm not ashamed to take pictures...mainly because I know that I'm not going to look this way for long and I want to invite people to view my journey to encourage those who may come after me.

I saw myself as "not that fat" for many years. I'm thinking from puberty I had this mind set and then over the years my weight has gradually increased and I still thought the same way. It wasn't until my recently that I have accepted the fact that I am morbidly obese and need to do something and fast. I dread taking full body pics. When you see my avatar I don't look that bad there right? lol. I met my husband online and only had a head shot on my profile and when he met me he admitted that he thought I was much smaller.....well surprise surprise lol. He still loves me and has been with me and supported through the weight gain and even the small successes that I have had with diet and working out. But like I said I finally accepted the fact that I'm obese and I'm not ashamed to take pictures...mainly because I know that I'm not going to look this way for long and I want to invite people to view my journey to encourage those who may come after me.

I'm glad you are able to help others. That's a positive way if seeing it. I do the same but some ppl want a quick fix & it's not a quick fix. I got lazy with exercise but I lost it fast cuz when I started I was non stop exercise & did it the right way. Now I'm pretty thin & I don't need so much exercise & I need to hold on to the tiny body fat to get surgery done. Smh fat is bad but try too thin & needing more fat. I wish they can transfer someone body fat to me seriously.

I saw myself as "not that fat" for many years. I'm thinking from puberty I had this mind set and then over the years my weight has gradually increased and I still thought the same way. It wasn't until my recently that I have accepted the fact that I am morbidly obese and need to do something and fast. I dread taking full body pics. When you see my avatar I don't look that bad there right? lol. I met my husband online and only had a head shot on my profile and when he met me he admitted that he thought I was much smaller.....well surprise surprise lol. He still loves me and has been with me and supported through the weight gain and even the small successes that I have had with diet and working out. But like I said I finally accepted the fact that I'm obese and I'm not ashamed to take pictures...mainly because I know that I'm not going to look this way for long and I want to invite people to view my journey to encourage those who may come after me.

This sounds like me. Years I said I'm not fat. But in 2012 I seen what everyone else was seeing. My dad took a full shot of me. Omg, I was fat. I had a shot at new life March 11,2013. I was 246 I'm now 191. I can't wait to lose 51 more.

I'm glad you are able to help others. That's a positive way if seeing it. I do the same but some ppl want a quick fix & it's not a quick fix. I got lazy with exercise but I lost it fast cuz when I started I was non stop exercise & did it the right way. Now I'm pretty thin & I don't need so much exercise & I need to hold on to the tiny body fat to get surgery done. Smh fat is bad but try too thin & needing more fat. I wish they can transfer someone body fat to me seriously.

Well since you put it like that.....I'm donating. lol That must be interested to go from losing the weight to wanting to stop and that being difficult.

I also always saw myself as not being as big as I am. I always thought I looked better till I saw myself in a reflection. I was mortified when I took my pre op pics. At my pre op appointment though there was a lady that definitely looked bigger than me. She just openly asked how much weight did I need to lose. I said about 100lbs. She didn't believe me. She asked me to stand so she could see. I was embarrassed but did it anyway. I told her I weighed 260lbs. She was in complete disbelief. That made me feel good. I feel I have been well built for my weight because I am thick but don't have any rolls. I'm worried about what I will look like thin because I have 42ddd boobs and no butt.

I also always saw myself as not being as big as I am. I always thought I looked better till I saw myself in a reflection. I was mortified when I took my pre op pics. At my pre op appointment though there was a lady that definitely looked bigger than me. She just openly asked how much weight did I need to lose. I said about 100lbs. She didn't believe me. She asked me to stand so she could see. I was embarrassed but did it anyway. I told her I weighed 260lbs. She was in complete disbelief. That made me feel good. I feel I have been well built for my weight because I am thick but don't have any rolls. I'm worried about what I will look like thin because I have 42ddd boobs and no butt.

We are similar in size and starting weight.

My boobs were a 42F. They are currently a 34D, but they look like Water balloons. I am waiting to have plastic surgery to put them in the right spot.

We are similar in size and starting weight.

My boobs were a 42F. They are currently a 34D' date=' but they look like Water balloons. I am waiting to have plastic surgery to put them in the right spot.[/quote']

That's what I'm worried about...

I also always saw myself as not being as big as I am. I always thought I looked better till I saw myself in a reflection. I was mortified when I took my pre op pics. At my pre op appointment though there was a lady that definitely looked bigger than me. She just openly asked how much weight did I need to lose. I said about 100lbs. She didn't believe me. She asked me to stand so she could see. I was embarrassed but did it anyway. I told her I weighed 260lbs. She was in complete disbelief. That made me feel good. I feel I have been well built for my weight because I am thick but don't have any rolls. I'm worried about what I will look like thin because I have 42ddd boobs and no butt.

I need some boob donation also lmbo

If mine are still a d after weightloss I will likely get a reduction and lift that way insurance will pay for it. If you have back pain and are willing to get a reduction with your lift your insurance may pay for it also.

If mine are still a d after weightloss I will likely get a reduction and lift that way insurance will pay for it. If you have back pain and are willing to get a reduction with your lift your insurance may pay for it also.

That is my plan. A reduction and lift. I have carried these heavy things long enough! Hubby has had 13 years to play with then and I will not be having a child. Time to downsize!

That is my plan. A reduction and lift. I have carried these heavy things long enough! Hubby has had 13 years to play with then and I will not be having a child. Time to downsize!

13 years of play time is more then enough lmbo