In my workshop last week they discussed body image, how we perceive ourselves. They said many people who lose weight cannot get used to the idea of being smaller. In their mind they are always big. I am the opposite. In my mind I am small.

I didn't become heavy until the birth of my twins 27 yrs ago, when I was 26 yrs old. Before that my weight ranged from 110-120. Afterward, my weight went from 175 all the way up to 230. (I'm 5ft tall) In my mind I picture myself the way I used to be. It's always a total shock to catch a glimpse of my reflection in a window or mirror. I think 'Oh my God! That is NOT ME!' I am horrified! It really HURTS my mind to see me like that. And there have not been any photos taken of me in YEARS. I simply have not allowed it. If anything ever happens to me my family will have no photos of me at all. Losing weight for me will make my outside match my inside again. I look forward to welcoming 'me' back.

If you think your not losing enough weight. You wanna see bones. I'm not afraid to show you. I have till next year 3 months before surgery to gain weight if not surgeon will not operate on me.

Being slim is cute if your looking at my bones that's not cute. This is what 5 foot 113 pounds looks like

I think you look darn good Mami !!! Don't let anyone else tell you different !!!

I think you look darn good Mami !!! Don't let anyone else tell you different !!!

Thanks you don't think I'm too thin?

Thanks you don't think I'm too thin?

I don't think you're too thin. You look perfect, nice & petite at that size.

HW:358 DOS:338 CW:278 SD:1/28/13

Thanks you don't think I'm too thin?

No you look fantastic! BUT I do understand the need for personal satisfaction with yourself. If you feel you need the plastic surgery, go for it! You will still look amazing.

I think you look amazing... Having Sao that I do understand as a women who is shaped like you were that you want for "coke bottle" frame back ! I enjoy having a vaa vaa voom figure! I don't wanna be super skinny either, I love my boobs and butt !! Lol !!!

Thanks ladies that's why I love it here. You make me feel great about my self. Yes I want that coke figure again. Curves boobs and butt. Flat belly & all I deserve it housewife 3 kids its me time.

Thanks ladies that's why I love it here. You make me feel great about my self. Yes I want that coke figure again. Curves boobs and butt. Flat belly & all I deserve it housewife 3 kids its me time.

I just want to inflate the Water balloon look of my boobs. At my age they should not touch my belly button!

I just want to inflate the Water balloon look of my boobs. At my age they should not touch my belly button!

True it's like waiting for Xmas waiting for WLS now waiting for plastic surgery everything is a waiting period lolz

I just want to inflate the Water balloon look of my boobs. At my age they should not touch my belly button!

That's where I expect mine to end up! Lol

True it's like waiting for Xmas waiting for WLS now waiting for plastic surgery everything is a waiting period lolz

Have you had any other work done?? I could only hope to loose weight and have nice looking skin like yours. Skin is my BIGGEST hang up

Have you had any other work done?? I could only hope to loose weight and have nice looking skin like yours. Skin is my BIGGEST hang up <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/sad.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

Do you mean hang up as far as not having the surgery?

Yes. I've seen a lot of before and after pictures and for some people there excess skin makes it look like they didn't lose very much weight. I won't have an option of plastic surgery so if my excess skin is bad ill have a body image issue with that too

Yes. I've seen a lot of before and after pictures and for some people there excess skin makes it look like they didn't lose very much weight. I won't have an option of plastic surgery so if my excess skin is bad ill have a body image issue with that too

Ok so ask your self this question. Don't you alread have a body image issue? Also would you rather lose 100 pounds and have 20 extra that you need surgery to take care of.. Everyone is different. Last month I was convinced that I need the surgery I my stomach area and well my body still had some surprise and it still loosing inches. Her I the gym a soon as you can and take up a sport. May train for a marathon.

Have you had any other work done?? I could only hope to loose weight and have nice looking skin like yours. Skin is my BIGGEST hang up

I never had plastic surgery. My only surgeries are 3 cesarean and gastric bypass.

Thanks for the compliment according to my surgeon I don't look so bad for a person that lost 98 pounds in 11 months.

The more I look at my self the more I actually love my self just not the skin. I look pass that and focus on wow! I can now wear a size 1 I don't look so nasty like I was thinking before. I just want to look & feel better. I honestly can't live my life with saggy skin flat butt & saggy boobs. I'm very sexual & if I can get a job off the books as a waitress making top dollar cuz I look good alright!!