New, humbled, and embarrassed....
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This is hard to write, but I think it might be just what I need to get it out.
I was banded two and a half years ago. I lost 50 lbs, then stalled. I slowly let at least 25 lbs come back on. :cry I haven't had a fill in a year and a half. The last time I saw my surgeon's assistant who does the fills she proclaimed that it was obvious that I'd found my sweet spot and was doing well. I have 3cc's I believe in my 4cc band.
I'm an emotional/boredom eater, and we all know that if you want to eat around the band, you will...and I have. chocolate goes right through! So does ice cream, Pringles chips, soft cheese, and for some reason...cookies. I know that I still have a band there, because I can't eat cake, can't eat scrambled eggs, or anything resembling fresh bread. I get 'stuck' occasionally, but I don't have as much restriction as I used to have. I'm able to eat way more food than I should. Frankly, I think I gave up. It kills me to say that, but it's reality.
In 2.5 years I think I've vomited maybe 4 times. I NEVER PB, until about a month ago at a restaurant and I didn't chew a piece of chicken well enough and up it came. It was a strange feeling, 'cause I never, ever PB or throw up.
Two days ago I was eating a few tortilla chips and salsa. (Don't ask...!) and after two chips I got a heavy weight sensation right between my breasts. WAY heavy. Every five minutes or so it hurt, like something wasn't going down the way it should. Ever since then, for at least an hour after I eat I feel that weight, and I feel discomfort while food is 'digesting' but the discomfort is high up, under the breastbone. I don't have any acid reflux, never have!
I have no heartburn. All I've eaten in the last 48 hours since this incident was potato Soup, a bit of lean turkey, and some soft cheese with lunch. I haven't had anything really solid, and the turkey I chewed to death! But after that small lunch today at work of turkey and cheese, I had the pain every 5-10 minutes for about an hour, hour and a half. Now I'm scared. I bought yogurt and a few cans of soup to eat for a few days, I'm hoping that I just irritated something...but considering how bad I've been the last year or so, I wonder if I've done something else?
The worst part of this is that I'm embarrassed to call my surgeon's office. I was doing so well, walked out a superstar, and then I'll walk in almost as heavy as I was with possible problems. :cry My surgeon moved their office and now it's about 40 miles from me, and I would have to take an entire day off work to go, and that could be tricky to accomplish right now. Plus, my 'warranty' expired so all fills/appointments I have to pay for and I have to take that into consideration as well.
Any thoughts? I know for a fact that I've stretched my pouch, I can eat way more than I should be able to...but I still can't eat the things that I'm not supposed to eat, like breads, cakes, eggs, etc. One bite of hubby's waffle over the weekend caused bad stuckage, so I know that band is there!! I just can't figure out what this pain could be. I'm not experiencing the usual slippage symptoms, but what about erosion? Would I know that was happening? Any thoughts would be appreciated. I want to get back on track, but I simply don't know if I can considering what I might have done. Thanks anyone!
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