I've been second guessing myself lately and getting scared cause it will be a life changer and I can't see myself thin and it's taking a toll on me mentally. I've gotten all my doctor appointments out of the way and have just been waiting for break in between semesters at school.

But now, last month I had to have a surgery because I kept having pain in my lower abdomen and my doctor says I have atypical endometriosis and it couldn't be taken out because it was on a blood vessel and have to have 6 month treatment of Lupron to put me through menopause (I'm only 22!!) and I'm not sure how this will effect my surgery :/ I just want this to happen already!!!!!!! Any one else have this or know anything on the topic and how it will effect my surgery or having future children??

Get a second opinion...

Sorry to hear, but did u ask ur doc how this will all affect u. He/she is the best person to ask. If they give u a go go thru with it. Ur mind is ur worst enemy. Just because u get the surgery doesn't mean u have to be thin. Currently I'm a 24 and I just wanna get back to a 12 lowest 10..... so I'm gonna still have some meat and my curves....

Sorry to hear' date=' but did u ask ur doc how this will all affect u. He/she is the best person to ask. If they give u a go go thru with it. Ur mind is ur worst enemy. Just because u get the surgery doesn't mean u have to be thin. Currently I'm a 24 and I just wanna get back to a 12 lowest 10..... so I'm gonna still have some meat and my curves....[/quote']

Yeah I don't think I'll ever be like a 2 or anything I'm going for a 12 as well. I'm at a 28 right now, and I need to contact my dr for surgery again and make an appt or something to ask about the endo and such. I'm in the middle of insurance changing (dropping state aid just gonna have united health care but that's better anyways lol) I guess I'm just procrastinating but I want the change to happen but I'm scared things will change too much I guess or my bf will leave or something idk

Things will change and people will changers well as u.... whoever doesn't stay in ur life means they weren't meant to..... if ur bc is the one he will otherwise God will bring one even better.