So I am self-pay and I am afraid I am not going to make it to September/October. I am supposed to be on a doctor monitor diet because of my high triglyceride levels and my cholesterol being up a little. I have a lot of weight to lose..But still...I feel like I am never going to get to surgery for one reason or another: either my passport won't arrive on time or I won't end up having enough money or I will die of sudden death one day before I even have a chance to live a new life in a healthy body. I am so sick of dealing with all these health issues. I am sick of being morbidly obese and having Fibromyalgia and being too exhausted...oh and the sweating..dont get me started on that... It is no fun being hot and sweaty all day every day...

Why does waiting have to be so hard and take so long and seem so impossible...? (Sigh)

Is it time to sit back and learn a little bit of patience? It's frustrating as all hell not knowing when the surgery will be but you will...You have come this far so now it's time to practice living today and learning new habits of eating slowly, drinking tiny sips, walking and exercising as much as you can. After the surgery your health issues will get much better and easier to handle and you most likely won't have the sweating all day problem. That would be a hughe relief..You really don't know what your future holds for you at this moment, but as long as your worried about the future, you are losing these precious moments today. This is the time to start learning about you and the triggers you have to foods. Look at you food addiction and start to make some positive changes today. A little bit at a time.

I too am tired of waiting. It's been six months for me and hope to be sleeved next month. I also have the fear it somehow wont work out. I'm not yet approved by the insurance. I'm tired of the exhaustion, the sweating, the general misery with my appearance, etc. Let's just do this already!