My surgery is scheduled for 3/14. That's tof*ckingmorrow. And I feel like absolute ****. I'm not even talking about all the cheating I did on my clear liquid diet. I'm talking asthma attacks (which manifest for me as coughing fits), low grade fever, and muscle aches that sort of resemble the flu. I don't have the flu; they're not as severe as that, but they're enough to keep me up and writhing.

I don't even know. Even if they don't cancel surgery, I'm absolutely petrified of how my recovery will be feeling like this. Double edged sword.

Oh! And my friggin intestines hurt! I've been known to have little colitis flare ups now and again. But now? NOW?

Stress? Nerves? Body going into shock from lack of carbs? Too much dog meat?

Relax...you're gonna do great. When you come out of surgery all these little troubles are going to disappear. You're going to have all new troubles that will make these pale in comparison.

Uh...I mean....everything will be rainbows and unicorns.

Lol!!! You're so funny.

I do feel a little better today.

I wish you nothing but success. I hope that you will make the commitment to follow the path to health and life. The next few days are going to suck, and the next few months won't be great either, but if you are truly committed to real change, you have a decent chance of making it through okay. If you think otherwise, you might have not made the best decision to have this surgery. Again - good luck to you.