I just woke up in a panic. What if I do not make it and die on the table? I have this extreme fear and I do not know where it comes from because I use to take gobs of painkillers just for fun and couldve died thousands of times. I think that is just the problem, I have always had anxiety but I covered it up while using and its just been there at times pretty raw in the last 7 years but I talk myself through it. I had 2 major hip surgeries in 2002/03 and I was out on the table for prob 5 hours.

But this is elective, I am choosing to do this. I keep trying to talk myself out ofthe surgery by saying Oh I am not that bad ( big) yes I am. I am 5'5 andprob 245 since I have not weighed in lately.

I do not have any co morbidities ( legs hurt, back pains etc) this is me trying totalk myself out of it.

I just read up on the surgery and made me feel better, it said it is realativly safe and fatalities are rare.

I do feel better but how do I shake this? I have been praying and praying. I know some one you all have little kids and mine are 28 and 13. I want to be here for my 13 yr old but If I keep at this weight in 5 years , as I am healthy now it could turn and I could have other issues. Damn I hate anxiety.

I couldve slept another hour but due tomy stupid roving thoughts I am up now.

Anyone else go through severe pre op anxiety?

How do you talk yourself down?

Thanks for letting me vent.

I think you keep doing what you are doing.

Keep reading up, get all the reliable information you can. Talk with your surgeon. Build trust in your doctors and the process. Vent when you need to, this forum is chock full of successful sleevers. Yes, you will come across those that had complications, but that is the reality or any surgical procedure. It is just as important to know the possible risks involved. Only you will know when you are comfortable enough to move forward.

Good luck!

I understand your fear completely!! I've been watching the actual surgery on YouTube. That seems to help with those nerves.

My fear is getting out of surgery and never changing.....

Everyone goes through the anxiety on some level before the surgery. What got me through it was knowing that continuing to be obese was going to shorten my life and at least the surgery while having some risks at least I was doing something to fix my problem not just waiting got it to overtake me. Good luck