Ok, I was just sleeved 12/17. I am completely aware of the head games involved in being a food addict and thought I had prepared myself for that. However, I'm now freaking out a little. Last night, my daughter was eating pizza rolls. I am still on the full liquid phase of my diet and have no problems with my family eating all around me, I've even cooked for them. But, I was driving myself nuts watching her eat those. Longing for the taste, dreaming of the consistency to chew. I ended up having 3 pizza rolls, I chewed them to mush and then spit them out. Let me be honest, holy moly that felt good! Anyway, this morning, the guilt and fear have set in. What if I don't have a full grasp on the mental aspect? What am I going to do when I can actually eat solids? OMG! I'm going to fail! Can someone share their experience with this? Surely I'm not the only one that has 'chewed and spit', lol

Ok' date=' I was just sleeved 12/17. I am completely aware of the head games involved in being a food addict and thought I had prepared myself for that. However, I'm now freaking out a little. Last night, my daughter was eating pizza rolls. I am still on the full liquid phase of my diet and have no problems with my family eating all around me, I've even cooked for them. But, I was driving myself nuts watching her eat those. Longing for the taste, dreaming of the consistency to chew. I ended up having 3 pizza rolls, I chewed them to mush and then spit them out. Let me be honest, holy moly that felt good! Anyway, this morning, the guilt and fear have set in. What if I don't have a full grasp on the mental aspect? What am I going to do when I can actually eat solids? OMG! I'm going to fail! Can someone share their experience with this? Surely I'm not the only one that has 'chewed and spit', lol[/quote']

It happens...to almost everyone. I don't think there is anyway to ever get over the mental aspect of this. I equate like an alcoholic or drug addict, even if you're clean, you are still an addict. You just dust your self off and get on the right track again. You're not gonna be, or anyone else, perfect.

I have tried to changed my eating habits since surgery, I do indulge on some things sometimes. And if something I've been craving (such as your pizza rolls) don't taste as good as I remember while chewing, I do spit it out.

I think you'll get the hang of it don't be hard on yourself.

Thank you! So true, once an addict, always an addict. Have to re-focus now

I did that in week two as well. The best thing is, if you accidentally swallow some of that, you regret it and realize that you will never want to do that again. lol-that was my experience, anyhow! But I had to do some xmas baking two weeks back and was chewing cookies and spitting them out as well. That does go away...you will get through this

You may also want to consider some professional counseling to gain some tools to deal with the head hunger. I went to quite a bit before the surgery, and I am so thankful I took that step.

Desert19, I did the counseling also and found it very helpful, that's why I know whats going on and I know it will pass but it's still a mental game. Thank goodness for counseling and this forum!