I think I just need to post this to anyone who might understand.

I don't know anyone else who has had this surgery. I'm totally full on freaking out!!!

Getting vsg May 15 with Dr Roslin in NYC.

I'm freaking out that my whole life will change. And that I'm having major surgery. And I can't imagine what those first 30 days will be like. And will I ever be able to eat food again. And will I ever feel like myself again. And what if....what if....what if...

I feel a bit alone and crazy and worried. And I know I do this for my health but what if is a big mistake??

And most of all, I feel like a junkie about to lose her drugs.

Yeah...

Thanks for the space.

Cinemagirl....

I told the doctor today before I see him on Monday at 8:30 am that I do not want to die. He said he has a problem with death' date=' too. I hope that is true. I will let you know on Tuesday.[/quote']

Keep your head up homie.If they kill us it will be bad for business

You've got a point there, Biggiesmallz. That would be the end of the surgeries!

When I was freaking out at my doctor last week, he predicted (rightly) that I was also scared to fly. That the truth is...once we make this choice and enter the OR, we have no control. So just trust your doctor and the good folks at the hospital and know the incidence of problems with the sleeve are minimal. 1% get a leak. And there have been no deaths associated with the sleeve.

Focus on my words:

1. You will be fine

2. You will no longer be a fat chick

3. The new way of eating will become like you have always done it that way withing 6 months

Questions?

One more question, MammaBear...

Can you put that into an audio file and send it to me so I can listen to it on repeat???

Oh and for those of you worried about croaking on the table....

Think of it this way... the reason your Doctor has agreed to do your surgery is because you aren't a high risk to die because his insurance premiums would go through the roof. You have to trust that your pilot wants to land your plane as badly as you want it to land safely. Your Doctor has a lot of skin in the game.

I have been around LOTS of Bariatric patients (used to do help groups and seminars) and the only person who ever died was a 38 year old guy 575 pounds who drank a HUGE bottle of coke and a 26 of rum with it every day and lied about it. He died. If he hadn't lied, the surgeon would never have done the procedure on somebody like that. IF you aren't that big, or that dumb you will be fine.

SIgned, your on line Mom.

Keep your head up homie.If they kill us it will be bad for business

Hahahahahaha. You got that right!!

It is scary. It's surgery. But it's something you have to know you want. A week before we are all questioning our decision. Do I really want to give up food? Is this really the right decision? The answer is yes. I have dreamed about this for years. I finally jumped with eyes wide open. I can honestly say as they wheeled me back, I was as cool as a cucumber and it Was my husband who was crying as I consoled him. You'll do great, be fine, and all the other things you'll hear over and over till you wake up and you're fine. I'm almost 4 weeks out and not one problem. Think positive. No regrets :-D

It is scary. It's surgery. But it's something you have to know you want. A week before we are all questioning our decision. Do I really want to give up food? Is this really the right decision? The answer is yes. I have dreamed about this for years. I finally jumped with eyes wide open. I can honestly say as they wheeled me back' date=' I was as cool as a cucumber and it Was my husband who was crying as I consoled him. You'll do great, be fine, and all the other things you'll hear over and over till you wake up and you're fine. I'm almost 4 weeks out and not one problem. Think positive. No regrets :-D[/quote']

I worry my husband will react the same...he is pretty tender when it comes to me!!

I would have this surgery once a year if I had to.

I told my husband.....If I die during surgery, KNOW that I died happy attempting to give myself a new and better life. One way or the other, I would get it!!

I told my husband.....If I die during surgery' date=' KNOW that I died happy attempting to give myself a new and better life. One way or the other, I would get it!! <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/biggrin.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />[/quote']

NancyJerry, this is exactly what I did. By the time I got to the hospital Tuesday I was serene and confident. I'm here in my hospital bed awaiting release and really looking forward to the challenges of the upcoming 3 weeks.

I told my husband.....If I die during surgery' date=' KNOW that I died happy attempting to give myself a new and better life. One way or the other, I would get it!! [/quote']

This message helped me. I walked in there like trooper and just left my body in their hands. The funny part is that there were at least three other people waiting for surgery that day. One guy was all by himself. So at least I had support.