Hello everyone,

I found this wonderful forum during my research on WLS. A bit about me, my name is Tracy and I'm a stay at home mom to 3 kidlets, a 20 y.o boy, a 4 y.o. boy and a 3 y.o girl. I'm also in school at night taking prerequisites for nursing.

I've been overweight all my life, except for five minutes after my first semester of college where I lose about 20 pounds. I hit my all time high of 339 while pregnant with my 4 year old. Like most of you I've been on every diet under the sun twice.finally I got up the nerve to pursue surgery after being diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and battling up and down blood pressure and highish cholesterol. I got my husband on board and submitted my first stage of paperwork.

Now, I'm getting scared....what if I don't lose weight? What if I actually do lose weight? Arrrgh, I guess I just need stuff to worry about.

I hope y'all don't mind if I hang out and pick your brains?

Thanks for listening,

Tracy

I think we all suffer from the same doubts and fears, Tracy. For me, it's that I've become too comfortable hiding behind this layer of fat. No one can see the real me, and frankly, I'm afraid to let her out. What if no one likes her? What if she doesn't look the way I want her to? What if I don't lose ENOUGH? What if it's too hard to do?

In the end, all the "what ifs" are just another excuse for me to hide. And frankly, I'm tired of hiding. I want to be the person I was meant to be, no matter what it takes. I'm sick and tired of failing at every diet under the sun! This surgery is my last ditch effort to shine and to be healthy and to be proud of who I am and what I look like.

With the support of the people on this board, my surgeon and staff, family and selected friends, I believe I can do this. And I believe you can, too!

Boy this whole thing is really scary. I guess we all have this huge worry that we wont lose weight or that we will lose and gain it all back(as I have done so many times). I am hoping this will be just the spark I need to get me on the right track to leading a healthy, happy and LONG life! Good luck.