Scared, frustrated and excited
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What is wrong with me? First, I'm frustrated. Frustrated for a multitude of reasons, not all related to this weight loss journey but certainly impacting it and my lack of progress. Just indicates more work that I need to do internally which makes me a little more afraid. But my frustration is with the fact that I was referred to and chose to go with a doctor in Baltimore though I live in Gaithersburg and a closer center/doctor would have been right near me in Rockville, MD at Shady Grove but that's incidental I suppose. The real frustration is that now I only need to get the upper endoscopy then submit all the information to my insurance company...finally the surgery date which excites me. I am having a hard time getting anyone to take time off their job to drive me to and from this appointment which is rather out of the way for me and anyone I know. Their rules dictate I can't possibly use a cab so I HAVE to find someone to do this for me and it's hard asking folks to take time off their job for me.
At any rate, if I have to reschedule this, the next available appointment at this moment will be 7/22 and as a single parent, I'm going to most definitely need this surgery performed before school starts and hopefully while he's visiting with his father for a week. I'm just so frustrated about this because it seems so small but added to the other major life stressers I have right now, makes me almost feel like this might be the straw that broke the camel's back. I wish I could just conveniently switch to a closer doc rather than this one that was referred to me. Yeah, right like that'll ever happen seamlessly even if it made sense. *sigh*
I guess I had to vent. Pray for me, send up positive thoughts because I'm so scared about where I am right now emotionally just given some other major life stressers which I pray won't set me up for messing up even after the surgery. *trying to remain as optimistic as I was a month ago*