I feel happier these days, even more confident then I have in years?
Not afraid to be who I am? excited to think of who I will become?
food Funeral
For as long as I can remember you were there.
You comforted me when I was sad, lonely, bored, depressed.
You held my hand when I was happy;
you were by my side when I was in love.
You laid next to me when I was heartbroken.
You saw me through my worse,
You rewarded me through my best.
But now its time to let you go, and put my dependency for you to rest.
I don?t need you as much as you think I do.
I will not be weak, I will not give into your temptation
The only cravings I will desire is to love myself
The only hungry I will feel is the hunger for success and self assurance
I will no longer look at you as a temporary solution to a complicated emotion
Rather a tool that gives me energy to live a productive life full of devotion
I say farewell to the lonely days that I filled my mouth with meaningless garbage
The evenings where I embraced that second or third helping.
To those nights where I tossed and turned uncomfortably extended
looking at the ceiling emotionally suspended.
I don?t hate you, but I cant count on you to feed my emotions.
I cant count on you to fill the voids that should be filled with motivation, and determination The cracks and crevices that should flow with desire and inspiration.
I don?t want to WANT you I want to NEED you
To give me the energy I need to persevere to enjoy life with out this addiction, And to finally see clear?.
1 day before I start my PreOp liquid Diet
7 days Until my Trip
10 days Until my Surgery
9-5-09
Life has a funny way of working?.
People unexpectedly pop into your life
that you never thought you would see again?
I feel happier these days, even more confident then I have in years?
Not afraid to be who I am? excited to think of who I will become?
food Funeral
For as long as I can remember you were there.
You comforted me when I was sad, lonely, bored, depressed.
You held my hand when I was happy;
you were by my side when I was in love.
You laid next to me when I was heartbroken.
You saw me through my worse,
You rewarded me through my best.
But now its time to let you go, and put my dependency for you to rest.
I don?t need you as much as you think I do.
I will not be weak, I will not give into your temptation
The only cravings I will desire is to love myself
The only hungry I will feel is the hunger for success and self assurance
I will no longer look at you as a temporary solution to a complicated emotion
Rather a tool that gives me energy to live a productive life full of devotion
I say farewell to the lonely days that I filled my mouth with meaningless garbage
The evenings where I embraced that second or third helping.
To those nights where I tossed and turned uncomfortably extended
looking at the ceiling emotionally suspended.
I don?t hate you, but I cant count on you to feed my emotions.
I cant count on you to fill the voids that should be filled with motivation, and determination The cracks and crevices that should flow with desire and inspiration.
I don?t want to WANT you I want to NEED you
To give me the energy I need to persevere to enjoy life with out this addiction, And to finally see clear?.