After all of the going back and forth about why I'm having the surgery, if it's the right thing to do, will I end up worse off...I am now at the "I can't wait for you to see me in a few months" stage. I'm single and have a strange relationship with a guy - I guess the term is "friends with benefits" he's an electrical genius and can fix anything that breaks around my house and doesn't expect anything in return. Well, he ticked me off so badly this weekend that all I can think about is "you're not going to treat me this way 50lbs from now, but it's going to be too late." I know that's really immature and I've never approached this journey from a standpoint of vanity, it's been about my health all along. But this weekend has shown me that I need a satisfying relationship with someone who deserves me as much as I deserve him. I have so much to offer.

With the same token, I know I'll wonder if the guys I meet in the future would like me as I am today - not as they will meet me after my success with the band. Inquiring minds want to know, but it's in God's hands and I trust him more than I trust myself that He will send the man that will fulfill His desires for our lives.

Amen.

I hope you find that person, everyone deserves to be happy...a week from now you will be on your way to making yourself healthier and that's amazing! Best Wishes

I know exactly how you feel but we can't blame others if they are not attracted to overweight people. I'm overweight and only been with skinny guys. As long as people we care about respect that people they think are fat... Are in fact people. I say use that man for all he's good for lol and move on when ur ready!