I don't know how to eloquently word this, as I do not want anyone to think that I am unhappy with my Lapland decision, with the weight loss that I have worked for or that I have self esteem issues. I am fairly comfortable in my skin, am happily married, have a phenomenal child and amazing friends. I have never been made to feel bad about myself or my appearance by anyone in my life, even at my heaviest when I hated to look in the mirror. Here is the issue, I find the more weight I lose, the more critical of myself I become. I have never been crazy about being in a bathing suit in public, but have always done it as we travel a lot with friends and friends are over every summer weekend in our pool. However, we leave for a vacation on Saturday, where we will spend a week pretty much in bathing suits. My goal for this vacation was to fit into a size 14 J Crew bathing suit that I bought as my goal. It fits!!!! BUT I find myself now disgusted by how my legs look in a bathing suit, 55+ pounds ago, I had zero problem with how my legs looked!!! I find myself zeroing in on "problem areas" such as my legs or the area between your arm and armpits that I never thought twice about when I was heavier. I am terrified that after hitting my long sought after goal, that I have become too critical of myself to even enjoy it! Has anyone else experienced this? I mean, shouldn't I be ecstatic going on my first vacation in years in Onederland! Shouldn't I be amazed that all of the things that I couldn't do on vacations in years past due to being overweight, I can do with no problem now? Did anyone else find themselves getting MORE self conscious with weight loss, or am I nuts? Any words of wisdom are greatly appreciated!

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I totally understand. I live in a condo and the pool opens Friday for the summer. I need a new swim suit and don't know what size yet. I plan on buying a 2 piece with shorts and a blouse type top.

:rolleyes:Just wear your new suit and enjoy and tough cookies for what others think. You lost a lot of weight and it's their problem not yours!

That's happened to me with every weight loss campaign ever (and likely will with this one). For me it makes sense...any kind of weight loss requires me to pay attention/be conscious about food and it's effects, self-consciousness is just another facet of it. For most of my life, I wasn't actually miserable about my weight, I just completely ignored it! Once a year or so, usually after seeing a particularly unflattering photograph, I resolved to "do something", with varying successes but it wouldn't be too long until I got distracted by life. You, of course, know on your head that you look better in a swimsuit than all those pounds ago...your heart just needs to catch up. When in doubt fake it 'til you make it!