I was reading some post the other day and it got me to thinking. Several people were disappointed in there weight loss and were afraid they would slide back into old habits . There were also comments like I can not believe I let myself get this big!!

This got me to thinking about myself what did I do to get up to 275 lbs? Obviously I ate , and I obviously knew what it was doing to me. But somehow it was still okay? WHY? What did I tell myself that made it okay to eat like that.

I think you have to know the answer to the question ,How did I get so FAT? So you can learn not to believe the old self talk that got you there . Also what tactics did you use to sabatoge yourself. Once you know these things about yourself you have one more tool to use with the Lap Band . The band will help your stomach, knowing yourself and your eating or failure patterns will help you avoid them. You will know how you got FAT and how not to go there again. It really is that simple , I didn't say EASY..I think the biggest portion of weight loss successful folks will tell you the hardest battle is the one you have with your head and that is where you fail or succeed.

When you know better... you do better ..... I didn't just wake up fat one morning it was a long process and I let it happen and finding out the answer to how it happened for me was the key to my keeping my weight off.

I was always home alone as a child from like 10 years old and up after school my parents both worked till after 5. I always snuck in the cookies and sweets that I knew I wasn't going to be able to eat when they got home. On top of being bored I was always kind of upset that I was always home alone. About 6 years ago I lost some weight, about 30lbs, and was really happy the way I was looking and feeling. Then I got pregnant. I gained 100lbs. Doubled the 30 I lost so 60lbs and about 40 from the actual pregnancy. At least that is what the doctor said that looks like what happened. Even after a strict diet and with the help of diabetes while I was pregnant nothing helped. After being in the hospital for 5 days I had lost the 40lbs. But slowly I gained it right back and 5 years later the date I weighed in for surgery I was the same weight I was the morning I gave birth. After my son was born I tried a few diet pills and gym and all that. But on top of nothing really working I just stopped caring. I didn't want to be fat but I also didn't want to be miserable and not live my life not eat good food. I wish back then I could have done it on my own but I know now that this was the best choice. I have lost 45lbs. It has been a struggle but not as much if I did it alone

starting weight 287.6 current weight 245.2