Hey All,

I'm new here. I've been reading for a few days but haven't posted anything yet. It's been so encouraging and to be honest...also discouraging. It's amazing how impatient I am. I've been looking into this surgery for almost 4 years now. I finally took all the steps, did all the research and was banded 7/9/2010. I've lost 30 pounds so far. 16 before surgery in the pre-op diet. I stopped losing for about 3 weeks - got my first fill, and lost another 5. It's going well! According to everything I've been reading, I'm on track and losing at a healthy rate.

...BUT.

There's always a but. Here comes the complaining. My least favorite thing about myself - my lack of confidence. I want to date. I want to meet a man who will love me for me...not what I look like. But how do you do that when you don't love who you are? I'm young...I know. But I'm so impatient. Impatient to lose the weight, meet a man, start a family, and love me for who I am.

So there it is. The opposite of how I'd introduce myself in any situation...but it's how I feel RIGHT now...and for some reason, writing it out makes me feel better.

You should definitely start a blog on here... it will help you alot... i used to have those feelings, some of them still exist, especially the man part, but you have to love yourself before you can love someone else you know? otherwise in the relationship you keep wondering why that person love you... i had to learn that myself... I have always like me, but i didn't know i didn't love me... so i learned to love me... it feels so much better to be loved by urself... fat or not, love every inch of yourself...