anxiety is building up I have my first fill tommorow. All of a sudden I feel like I must make huge changes in my life. I'm not talking about just my eating habits either. Like getting rid of my van and getting a car. I don't know if its fear of loosing weight, my husband is even acting weird too. Did any of you go through this?:smile:

A few days after I was banded I went to the grocery store. I saw all of these people buying things and just got this thought like "What did I do?!!". Even though I had thought about it a lot and knew that I was going to make major changes in my eating habits, it was like I was really facing it for the first time.

I was really scared for my first fill too. It wasn't my best experience, but I know that my experience is not something everyone goes through. I know that it will help me though, so I try to think of it like going to the dentist. I don't like that either, but I go every 6 months anyway because I want to keep my teeth. :smile:

I know that the benefits of the surgery, how I feel and how I look, are worth the anxiety I have and the worry. I know I made a good decision.

I don't know if that helps at all, but try to focus on your goal and how you'll feel when you accomplish it.

Hope your enjoying your new car. Changes sure can produce anxiety. If it's really bad you might want to see a doc. about medication for anxiety. Hope you feel better soon. Just think of how much healthier and probably happier you will be as the weight comes off.

My experience has been that, in spite of bandster hell, the fill process is kind of a blessing because it has eased me into the band lifestyle slowly, over time.

After recovering from surgery, I could still eat just about anything. After my first fill, I could eat most things but started to run into a bit of trouble if I ate too much bread or something like that.

Now, having just had my second fill, I have pretty good restriction. My band is tight in the morning, a bit less midday, a bit less by dinner time.

Over the course of the last three months, I've gotten used to what I can and can't eat. And it's okay. It's definitely worth it. I've lost just over 20 pounds and I'm feeling better and better all the time.

And my husband has expressed fears that I'm going to "get thin and leave" him. I just wrap my arms around him, and tell him that I want to be lighter and healthier so we can go hiking and have fun together. (It's an adjustment, but we'll both get used to it!)

Hang in there and good luck to you!

Thanks guys for your input. As for the new car my husband said no. oh well I'm sure another will come along. In the mean time I'm going to put all my effort into staying on track.