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I am monday too. I think I have been doing things right so far, moderation and good drugs for anxiety have been a key factor for me. I am not anxious about the surgery, just about having to abandon my former best friend. food has been a crutch for me for as long as I can remember. I am never alone as long as I have food right? Ironically, foid has also been destroying my quality of life, it is time for the real me to work through whatever it is I have to work through. 3 more sleeps till I leave. Good luck everyone!

Had a great sleep, no tears. I have a relatively easy day today. I took the afternoon off to get my 'hair-did'. So, I just have to work this morning and this evening. My DH put up the tree and decorated it last night. I nearly had a heart attack! I am very proud of him, he usually just sits around and lets me do everything. I came down on him a little hard on sunday. Told him he always ruins christmas for me becuase he doesn't participate, doesn't want to go shopping, play carols, etc...he just opens presents. No wonder he loves christmas! I guess he must have listened becuase I was in for a shock when I came home last night. I felt guilty for 'blaming' him for my christmas stress, but now I feel better about it. Maybe it was something that needed to be said. He is so sweet to me, I am all mushy in love. Pre op diet is going pretty good. I am going to try to stick to just fluids come friday. Just want to be as prepared as I can for post op. Have a super fabulous day everyone..TTYL. Thanks again.

Good advice about the protien. That way we cover all the food groups and are still merry.

Unbelievable. It makes you wonder how much of a scam insurance companies are. I live in Canada, and my Dr doesn't want to work on me because he won't have done my band. It is a 3-4 year wait where I am. Does he care about my health or the paycheck....hmmm let me see... I am just going to make it work even if I have to apply a little pressure to do so.

I would rather someone I love have lap band surgery than a heart attack. And frankly, that is where we were all headed. Not to mention diabetes, high blood pressure,cholesteral issues, depression, lack of energy etc... We are doing the right thing. I haven't told my family yet, and yesterday my sister said to me 'you better not be on a diet at christmas'. Hehehe, if only she knew!!

Beversman, I hope you are feeling better today. There is nothing worse than a trip to emergency. offerrocker....yeah! I am so glad everything went well for you. Baby got back...50/50 is still a good chance of going. Do you have to wire the money? Can't you get a draft and bring it with you? That is what I am doing, I just faxed them a copy of the bank draft so they know it exists. I want you to be able to do this now, but if you can't, remember that just gives you more time to be more successful on your preop diet. Take care and let us know as soon as you know...I am sending you all my happy thoughts today! I am doing well today. Trying to convince myself I should go on the treadmill but I think I will just clean my house before the cleaning lady gets here. Why do we do that? It dirives me crazy but I just can't stop. I have a hair appointment today. I only get it done a few times a year because it is so expensive and there are other things I would rather have. I am really looking forward to the pick me up it always gives me. Have a great day everyone!

You guessed it Argon, I think I will take one tonight before the crying freaking out stage instead of after. Had a few more calories today than I should have but no big deal. It is windy and raining cats and dogs here...hope the ferries are fine on Saturday or I may try swimming over...have to take advantage of my bouyancy right now cause it won't be that way for long! G' night everyone...happy thoughts.

Hi. I start feeling anxious about Christmas around September. This year I am not too bad because we are actually going to do what I want. Hmmm. AngelaT is one smart sugar-free cookie.

My surgery is on the 18th as well. I am not worried about it at all. Just remember this is another routine day for them and no big dea. You will be in and out before you know it. I would prefer to go alone, but my husband is insiting that I have someone there, so my mother in law is coming. That is all I am going to say about that!

Baby got back- Is there any other avenues for funding that you can look into, just in case this one doesn't work out?

Thanks Lovatofish. That really helps me. 5 more sleeps till I leave. I will arrive Sat night. Thought I would just hand out on Sunday, and surgery on Monday. Thanks again.

You all are absolutely right, the emotions are a mess. I am fine all day at work, but at bedtime I seem to fall apart. The dr gave me some pills for anxiety...it appears he knew what he was doing. I took one last night, after having a big huge ugly cry, and fell asleep quickly. I think I am just going to take one every night this week. Apparently I am more anxious than I realized. It is great having the support here. I have learned so much. I can't imagine going through this without this lifeline...Thanks again. I am down another pound today. Have a long day at work today, we are doing a spa party tonight for a group of massage therapy students. Should be really fun and positive. (Its the bridal party ones that stress me out.) I nested on Sunday, cleaned closets, went grocery shopping etc. All in all, I am pretty much ready to go. Well off to another skinny day. I have lost 12 pounds so far...2 more to go before surgery. Big hug everyone.

Lovatofish - I am having my surgery Dec 18 with Dr. Ortiz. I am also self pay. I am glad you asked a million questions because it means I am not the only one. Can I ask you a couple of questions? Do they stich the band in place? Did you get your records when you left? Do I have to take off my wedding ring for the procedure? Do you go back there for your fills, if so, how much do they charge you? Sorry to grill you, but if you have any of these answers it would be a great help. Thanks.

Hi Sunsreturn. Hope everything is going well for you. I am looking forward to hearing from you again. Let me know how you are doing and that you are OK. I hear we are in for some major wind and rain...just what we needed....mre of that...lol. As long as the ferries are running on Sat, I am happy.

Thanks Yoda. You are right it is kinda funny, although I didn't think so. I am really trying hard to let go and quit trying to make everything perfect in my kids world. It is quite a process. I was never very good at the whole patience thing. Was quite emotional when I came home tonight...ie...dirty kitchen etc. What really happened is this. My family (parents and siblings) are not affectionate people and I am. This has been a problem my whole life when I wanted to hug them etc. I know it is just the way they are, just like I am the way I am. (On a side note, I am adopted so we could analyze that from the whole nature nurture side of things) Anyways, I called my dad today for his birthday and I thougtht it would be nice if I told him that I loved him. This has only happened a few times in my life. So I say 'bye Dad, I love you' and he say's 'Ya. OK.' and hangs up. Now I adore my dad and he is very sweet and gentle but I want to jump up and down screaming why can't you guys just say that you love me!!! Actually, now that I have visualized that it is kinda funny. They would be horrified and not have a clue what to do. This is normally where I would go and eat, but tonight I will stay strong even if it means I have to lock myself in my room. I think I have some work to do about my food issues....hmmm. I will save that for a few months down the road. Maybe I can do that instead of obsessing about every decision my kids make! I need to remember to breathe. Everything always works out just the way it is suposed to.

Baby got back...it went good. I am a little irratable tonight. If you don't believe me you could ask my husband. I watched that surgery. Wish I hadn't. Gross. It scared me a little. I don't know what I thought they were going to put into the incisions...maybe itty bitty straws. Congrats on day one of your preop. I am eating 1 protien shake, 1 salad, 1 lean cuisine on most days. I am very excited. Have lost 11 pounds since around the beginning of the month. Goodbye fatty liver!! TTYS.

Hi Nathalie. Man does that suck! You have every right to have a pity party, just remember that parties only last a few hours. I have often found that when I am trying to make positive changes, I have huge obstacles appear out of nowhere...(and some of them have a strong resemblance to the ex.) Just remember, you WILL find another day care provider...maybe even someone that you will be happier with. You may look back and say, am I ever glad that happened otherwise I would have never met ________. I went through hell with my boys dad for about 10 years. They know exactly which buttons to push and how to manipulate you. I finally started taking the time to do some emotional healing. I stoped having contact directly with him. If I had to speak with him I killed him with kindness but let him know that if I became uncomfortable with the conversation I would have no choice but to hang up. I figure I left him for a reason, so I certianly don't need to maintain a friendly relationship with him. I just needed to take really good care of my boys and provide access. Some wise person told me I don't have to try to be everything to everyone. I felt that took some pressure off me. Your surgery is one really positive thing you have going for you right now. You are taking back control of your life. You deserve to do this for yourself. I am really proud of you. I can tell you are a very strong person. And one more thing, quit making the rest of us look bad by the amount of time and effort you are putting into the elliptical trainer. Jeez, I got tired reading it! Hang in there....this too shall pass. Big Hug.

Well, one more week left for me. I have booked myself heavily so I hope this week flies by. I woke up this morning and my teenager is still awake, has been playing video games all night. When I reminded him he has to work at 2 pm he says ' its not like I have a physical job....' Grrrrr Anyways, today is going to be a great day. I will work hard and eat well! I still need to lose about another 4 pounds before my surgery to make my Dr.'s goal of 5% of my body weight so I need to stay focussed. Hope everyone has a great day today and that your teenagers don't drive you crazy too.

I am spending Christmas eve here with my hubby, boys, and hubby's relatives. Then Christmas morning I am flying home (Grande Prairie) to have Christmas dinner (ya right) with my family. My mom and dad don't know I am coming so I am very excited. I fly back to my Victoria home on the 29th.

Miss Chrissy 67- Thanks for asking, I couldn't figure it out, so I was just assuming it was a local freezing. lol. I really am a natural blonde!

Cloe, you do not sound like a bitch. It sounds to me like a healthy dose of self esteem. I am usually a very private person, but I have been telling my clients about my upcoming surgery...I tell the ones who I believe will be happy for me. Still haven't told my family tho, just because I don't want them to worry. Congrats on telling people, maybe they will be even more supportive now! Yeah for you!

You guys are awsome thanks. Had another big cry for breakfast and now I think I am over it, atleast for now. I love that you have given me permission to mourn...I never thought of it that way. Thank you.

Hermosa #1 - Here is my two cents, for whatever it is worth. Sometimes our husbands / family etc. actually think they are encouraging/ helping / motivating us when they say stuff like that. I know that when I got down to a 14 it was..'well I bet you would like to be wearing a 8' or if I say 'I did 1/2 on the treadmill today' I would hear 'When did you go on it last?'. I don't know if this is the way it is with your DH or not, but sometimes they think by challenging us, they are helping us. They don't realize they are putting more pressure on us. OR Maybe his comments have come after the surgery becuase he is feeling a little jealous or insecure. I went through that last time too. I am hoing me and hubby have worked the bugs out of that one. I hope you are feeling better soon, and you are right things do turn around. That is the joy of marriage right, if you stick around long enough you will see, hear and go through almost anything! I am sure he doesn't realize he is hurting you but that still doesn't make your pain go away. I hope my 2 cents worth helps.

Mandi, you look fantastic. Dan looks great too. You both look so much healthier and vibrant. I hope you have a great Christmas. Naked pothole thing...My mom is from Leader. We used to go there when I was a kid, but I havent seen my mom's side of the family in about 20 years. I have this idea in my head that they are all perfect, so until I am I stay away...crazy thinking eh? Anyways, I hope it is not any of my perfect relatives in that calender...then I would really need therapy. By the way, get a bed! I have heard it is much getting a good sleep is important for weight loss. When I moved to Victoria I splurged on an awesome bed. I love it, however I have trouble turning my brain off as well. I also wake up ridiculously early. I take my Wellbutrin at bed time, I wonder if that has anything to do with it. It is a slow release tablet. I may have to try taking it in the morning and see it that helps. Thanks everyone for the idea.

Hello Maria, my name is Victoria. Congrats on your 67 pounds. That is FANTASTIC. You must feel great! Awesome stuff!