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wow you had to do all that - i only have to get blood taken next month. mind you by the looks of the sheet and the number of things they are testing for it looks like they'll be going to be collecting at least half my blood lol

hi linda. thanks for the confidence booster. what book did you read. there are so many to choose from i want to get a good one.

i woke up this morning with this HUGE headach. i know it's lack of food or moreover lack of protine. my brain has finally calmed down and gotten over this "OH MY GOD YOU"RE GONNA KILL ME" phase. last week all i was doing was craving sugar. chocolate and bread. i gained about 8lbs in a week but it seems that it's over and i'm feeling back to normal. my brain has wrapped around the information and i'm now starting to look at the future in a different light. i bought mickey d's for dd's lunch and shared med fries with her and didn't finish mine. my old habbit of ordering 2 cheeseburgers was present but my stomache and brain wouldn't let me eat the second one. waste of money but at least i didn't eat it. i missed breakfast today because i usually have it after dd has gone to school but i had an appointment so i didn't help my headach until dd came home for lunch. i'm actually glad i'm not getting banded until August because it will give me time to process all this information and really understand what's going to happen before i go in for surgery. that's always been a problem for me - as soon as i say i'm going to "go on a diet" i gain 10lbs because my brain takes over and starts the cravings all over again. on the plus side we'll be gone all of July and doing a lot of walking. that should help me lose the 10lbs i gained plus keep my mind off eating and then i'm only back a week and before surgery and i'll start the high protein liquid diet and be all set.

no no - i was being funny - or trying to i do know how buy this thread gets. it can stay empty all day then i come back at night and theres 3 pages to read i'm just happy to be able to have so much support by so many who know exactly what i'm feeling and going through. it's very hard to say that in real day to day life there is often little support becasue not many know what we're going through

Thank you - glad to see i can slip in somewhere unnoticed

i'm finding myslef chewing gum way more then i used to. it's keeping my mouth busy without actually eating. do you chew gum more then you used to?

wow - good to know. that's gonna be a hard one for me to give up. thanks for the tip about the ice. i can see myself watching it out of the corner of my eye until the last cube is melted LOL

agrrrr - dh just doesn't get it. he asked me this morning (via test message) who i've told about getting the band and i said my mom, my aunt and my younger brother. - thats it. he asked if i was going to tell his mother and when i said no he got upset. i told him i haven't told my older brother, father or other aunts and uncles and don't see why he's upset that i'm not telling his mother after all it's MY surgery MY body and MY decision who i tell and who i don't. it's not a quick fix, its a tool like changing my eating habits and exercising more. it's not like i'm going to drop 150lbs by October and she's gonna wonder how the hell i did that. i love my mil but she can't keep a secret. we told her before dh's brother and sister that we were getting married and when we told them it wasn't a surprise which it should have been. same when we got pg. again no surprise there because mil had already told them OUR news we actually had a falling out with dh's brother and sister and haven't spoken with or to them for over 3 years now so this definitely is something i have no intention of sharing with them and if i tell mil they'll know by tonight. plus IT"S MY BUSINESS WHO I TELL why isn't he getting that??????? he thinks because my mum and aunt (who is darn near my second mother) know that his mom should know too. agrrrrrrr i'm a little ticked off right now

what is the reason behind the no drinking? and is it for ever or like the liquid and mushy stage only for a few weeks?

wait - you can't drink while eating your meal??? ohhhhhhhhh that's gonna kill me - i usually drink 2 -3 glasses of Water during dinner. never had a problem getting my 8 x 8oz in - i pretty much double it

IndioGirl i know exactly what your saying about your granddaughter. thank gaud my daughter has her body type from dh's side and not mine - she's almost 5 tall and only 38 lbs. my gf's grand daughter is 2 (ya she was only 17 when she had her child and that child was 22 when she had this baby) and she's already almost 50lbs. i was shocked when i heard that. i've tried very hard to make sure my dd doesn't eat the same crap i did. even still i say no all the time to her having chocolate bars, gum, sweets. on occasion i'll say yes but it's a treat and she knows it. she likes yogurt, fruit, carrots (ya she's strange LOL) cucumbers, shrimp, crab the list goes on. all things i hate. dh is a chef and LOVES food - so does dd and she loves healthy foods she just doesn't know it i'm really really hoping that she'll continue and that i'll start eating better in front of her. i told her the other day that i wasn't going to be this big for much longer because i was going to start getting healthy and thinner. she took hold of my belly fat and said nooo mummy i love you i love your belly it's squishy. gotta love her eh. i couldn't even think of leading her down the horrible fat path i have found myself and can't for the life of me understand why my friend is doing that to her grandchild (she is raising her granddaughter) and she's no skinny minny so she knows what it's like to be over weight and get called names.

humm that i can understand but i haven't swallowed gum since i was a kid

why is it a no no?

i'm so glad i found this thread. i have to wait until aug 12 to get banded and every day i wish i was going in that week but we're going away in july so aug is the soonest i could get it. it makes me confident that so many are happy with the results

ocotillo - that's a very nice pic of you in front of the waterfall. i had a slightly better food day today. i had a small (usually large) bowl of raisin bran for breakfast then at lunch i shared 1 appy (i know we'll soon forget all about them) with dh and dd instead of one each and shared a chicken sandwich with dd with tomato soup instead of fries. it may not have been the most nutritious meal but the portions are so much smaller then they used to be.

i'm not doing it on purpose but i'm finding that my portions sizes have gotten smaller. i'm still reaching for the carbs and sugar but on the plus side it's not as large a portion as it used to be. i guess this is going to take time to retrain the brain.

It seems like my brain or at least my subconscious is working overtime to make my cravings clear and present. Whenever I make a decision to go on a diet or change my routine or whatever my subconscious jumps in and puts up walls up. The past few nights I have found myself in the kitchen making toast or a Peanut Butter sandwich sometime after 9pm. I also find I'm craving my favourite Cookies 'n cream chocolate bars. I do hope this is a temporary thing because I just made my decision but gees I need to retrain by brain to crave Water more On the plus side we're going away for the entire month of July so I'll get a hell of a lot of walking done and lots to see that will help keep my mind off food then I'm only back a week before my surgery date. We've also just opened our pool so we can get out after dinner for an hour swim which will help tire both Cassie and myself out for a good sleep.

we're back on the 10th then we're off again on the 16th to the end of the month

I'm booked in for my Slimband on August 12 at 11am i think i'm going to be sick. i hate change - at least instant ones but i know this is whats best for me. i'll be nervous as anything the week before and scared to death the day of but i do know i'll be fine. it's going to be a long 2 months until my surgery date but at least i'll be on vacation the entire month of july to keep my mind off it.

i just finished filling out my paperwork - such the dunce that i can be i even signed the pages that said don't sign until surgery day ;P i know i'm going to be very nervous the week before and a complete basket case the day off. i watch way too many medical shows like House, Private Practice and Greys - i know stuff happens and i'm terrified even though i KNOW it will be fine i kind of wish i had sucked it up and gotten it this month but i would have still been in pain and on liquids when our vacations starts. I'll be in Quebec when you go in but i'll be back on the 10th and will be looking for your note to say your ok and just resting.

for the port and can you request it be placed there or do they just put it wherever they want?

ya - i was telling my mother that it was a concern of mine that i do get headaches but she thought it was because i don't eat enough Protein and that after being banded if i eat enough i should be ok. guess we'll see i havent told my family dr that i'm getting the band. she's just a bit younger then me but has the "just get out and exercise" mindset. i've been on all kinds of depression meds and had all kinds of blood work and tests that show there's nothing wrong so then it must be that i'm fat because i don't exercise. she once told me if she stranded me on an island for 35 days (al la survivor) i'd lose weight. ya ok cause that's doable. sometimes i think dr's are very narrow minded and don't really understand their patients.

do YOU think you're too old??? i'd say no. it's your live and for however many more years or decades you have left you want to live it isn't it better to live another 20 odd years healthy rather then unhealthy? whenever you choose is the right time - it means that you're ready. good for you for making the choice to get healthy

I'm in Toronto so getting it done at Slimband. 15 and 13 - perfect age for boarding school LOL my daughter is 4 1/2 acts sometimes 2 and sometimes 40 - :thumbup: my mornings were rough - afternoons and evenings i loved being pregnant. dh makes fun of me sometimes because i spent a lot of time on the cold bathroom floor kinda like when i was in my early 20's minus the parting the night before HAHAHAHA