Cindysmom (Ilene)

Hello gals. I have not rec any bariatric emails in a while. I might have clicked the wrong tab. I had a fill and was so tight that I was throwing up all week. Then I went back and she took out about .3. I lost 5 lbs from that week. I am going to check on the other posts have a great day.

Well now I will try typing! This tablet is something that I need to learn. Lol. Thanks for your patience with me. Oh nice emotion here.♈B-) B-) B-) . Hmmm. This part is better than the iPad! It is me....lol. I think that I will delete pal from iPad and use this Tablet. I might have to change my email address! Just talking out loud here. I really want to get the benefits of this forum. Alex is so nice and I wished that I could have met him in NY but I can't. Well ...how about if we change our ways! ? Snacking. would you be willing to not snack on junk? Or limit the snacks daily? How about the time it is done? I would write down every time I snacked, how much, what was it? What was my mood? Could I have been satisfied with less???? please let me know!. I thought that the website would help! Yes yes! Have not heard from the other gals! Hope all is fine. I will keep u abreast of my changes! Re iPad vs tablet! My email is lizybird@aol.com if you want to email. And I am on Skype also Hugs ilene

I on a different pad tablet, space and am ok to dictate what I want to say. I am hoping that my new feel bill backspace will be working better for me than 2 days ago. Bass I attempted to send this tablet back but it is too late now it is very difficult for me to use my ipad wiz bariatric pal. Bass the word bass is have the ipad the pad here types face

Hi, sorry about the missing letter in the website. Not surprised. Lol. Have a great time in Disney sorry how the prices went up. I live about 5 hours from it. I will be staying with this group. I did chk out the accountability one, but. I don't to want to change. Had a fill $100.00 on Tues. found out that I had 5.7??? And now it is 6.5. I felt a pain in my upper area towards the shoulder right then. Vargas nerve I think. Well the jury is is out about it. Having some thoughts that it is too full. But $100.00 is not what I want to pay to have some out. Maybe today, , with me having some control with my bad habits, and eating less as I should, I will not be throwng up. ;&)&$&. I have dropped 3 lbs. . This I pad acting up

Good thoughts. good luck. hugs. I have been walking more. The stress that I am under is holding me back. *i think. But Tuesday I am getting a small fill. I hope that it works for me.

Not quite sure how to get to accountability site. Can u guide me please?

Thank you, I will chk it out. Tonight I have turkey slices, green beens and cheese. That is the way I ate when I was strict.

It is great that we can confess if we ate the wrong foods. After all, it is our responsibility to do and eat what we know we should have. A. It is our choice every day. When I was a team leader, I got very upset when others cheated. But I am not one and I only will be responsible for what I eat and do. How about we talk about what we know is the right kind of food to eat ? That will help me for sure. I count carbs and eat good protein.

hi friends. It is 7:10 am, I am at the computer so I can write more. I have this website in my favorites. I hope that you can get to it. If not and you want to please email me at Lizybird@aol.com. if you send your email name to me I can email it to you. It is about our desire for more fills. It is a great site. It can explain why we want more fills, but we really dont need them. I am going for a fill on Tuesday. it will be $100.00. and as you can read, I am like a hypocrit cause I do exactly the opposite of what I read this morning and suggesting you to read. Oh well, its not the first mistake I made this year, this week, this day. etc. . http://drsimpson.net/fills/lap-bandeating/lap-band-not-restriction/lap-band-and-restriction.html hopefully it wrote this out.right.----- I see that my sleep is less than 5 hours each night with constant restlessness. Going to the bathrrom 3 times a night. I am taking some azo pills for the bladder control. This was my first few days and I have to build it up to have it work, If it will. I am going to a dr very soon (gyn) regarding the biopsy for my cells etc. in my uterous. very nervous. i really never had any surgeries. so I am scared. . I am up to my second cup of coffee already. then I wait and drink some Water. all this time I go and go and I think my uterus has a dropped on my bladder. also I am older. almost 67. I dont know if I told you that I also contacted my original doc. And he first said that he would do fill for $150. but I got him down to $100.00. He could really give it to me for free. Since I am even on his web sit as before and after. but I do rember how he just put water in and his personality was not as supportive or educated as I am reading from others on other sites. This one I am going to on Tues is a beautiful, thin kind pa/who is also a nutritionest. So if I am paying as I have to, I want the best. Also the other office is south towards Miami, and his phone and who ever answers the phone speak broken english and I cant understand them. I am imagiing that his office looks like the people in the office. I do admit that I am assuming. Sometimes a a bargin is not a bargin. Not sure if I would have chosen him if he went down to $75.00,,which is really all that a fill should be. (I think) so if you want me to send the email let me know... what do you think about us admitting to each other the wrong things that we are doing. ?? Ill start: I had some Cookies this past week. i ate too many pistachious in the bed.1/2 cup would be my prescribed limit. bad me. I dont measure my food. I am feeling ashamed of myself. I need more good and kind people in my life. gotta go since it is 7:38 and we have to go to the shrink. Thats another story. hugs Ilene

Ps, re fitbit. I like mine, it is the one. Go to fitbit.com . I would rather have the new one that cost $129.00. But on my vacation I visited both the coach and dooney and Burke outlet stores so I cant. But that's the one I like. Also if you NEED to check your sleep , it would be good for you.

Hello and thanks for the welcome back. Welcome to our new partner on our struggle. I am just doing the best I can. Yesterday, I got a phone call stating that my apt for a small fill would be canceled. The drs off said that they do not accept my ins. I am now faced with finding another doc. . I agree with one step at a time, we have been walking at 5:am. And I still sleep poorly. But I honestly do the best that I can. Ok ok, I ate a whole bunch of pistachios yesterday. I'm the bed room while watching tv. Bad me. And at 8:00 pm, I was eating yogurt with a nice scoop of peanut butter on it. Luckily my weight is just at a stand still now. I don't have any advise to give right now. But am happy to be part of you all. I will be going to New York for my 67 bday, on my bday. Just for a week. I do have some winter clothes and a jacket. I will be seeing my son and daughter in law who live in Taiwan. Maybe for 1 day. My stress has been escalating everyday, with the help of my 45 year old daughter. I need some people in my life that are kind and less of her. .....any idea how I can find a dr to help with with fills. ? One wanted $500.00 just be go there. Well let's keep up a possitive attitude to each other. And ourselves . Hugs and have a fantastic day.

We are back. Had a great time. Got stuck the last night. Didn't have any desert from the Buffett all week.. Last cruise I pigged out. Lost 2 lbs from before I left. Hope all are fine.

I am doing well and will be away on a cruise. We will be back. March 1'

Have a great time.

good Morning. I dont live in NY anymore. I live where the sun shines most of the time. Florida. We are having a little cold wave here. 71 degrees for me is cold. So I am able to wear my long sleeves and pants. We usually have about 12 cold days and thats it. I also was eating candy but it is gone now. (chocolate from Hersheys) and no way would I buy the Twizlers. I would eat all of them. My name on fitbit is Momagrok. Before I had friends on fitbit. I was a leader with my steps. Now I am not. lol. While i was first on my program, from day one. I was very strict. for me I feel that letting those carbs or sugars in to my life has truly messed me up. Even on a cruise ship, while I would not eat bread or potatoes or white flours stuff. I made excuses and ate sugar free deserts. I was a bad Momagrok. But by the time I started to eat wrong I really didnt care about myself. I do now and the peanuts have been tossed out and I ate the last of the pisstacios last night. Since we will be going to the cruise on Saturday. I will not be pushing myself for exercise. I am anxious to return and start my old routine with Jazersize and water class. Also I plan to do my Gazelle. I know that I am using the older person card here. But I truly am hurting from the cold and the statins that the dr is giving me for my Cholestrol. We got some free sugar free cookies but I will try my best not to eat them. . I made some eggs for egg salad. I just had some. The less I eat the better I will do. hugs to all. ps I am finally learning my makiing of hearts on u tube. I crochet to keep busy. away from the fridge

Hey Miss NY. What part of NY are you in? Thanks for your thoughts...Sorry about your Grandma. I am happy to hear that a food fest is not planned for you. This is a place to vent. it is safe. I usually have a safe place 1x a week at my social workers office. I noticed tht when I ate very little yesterday, I lost some ounces on the scale. I am trying to eat much less. I am eating a turkey meat loaf. I had some eggs this am. I feel quite full right now. I did slim on the meat loaf. which makes me wonder if having a slight fill is the right thing to do. I have maintained a sleep pattern of between 4hrs30 min to 5 hours, many times i am restless. I don't like the ambien. I feel very confused from it. I am on facebook if anyone wants to see me. Ilene Falley-Harrell. I will be going to be in Brooklyn ny for Passover from 4/1/ to 4/8. Take care everyone.

ps. i hate this way to reply.

Oh dear me. I made the mistake of being on the ipad and writing stuff. Then i went to post. good luck with that. Welcome to Miss NY. I am from Brooklyn NY. I have been sabatauging myself. Last night we had a nice chocolate bar. Today I had a small bag of chips. The power crunch bars that I used to eat every night are gone. I bought them by the box. The healthy choice bars are almost over. I tossed the peanuts out. but binged on the pistacio nuts in the bed room. I am going for a weigh in and a fill next week. good luck with the fill... I am on an increased dosage of antidepresent now but we do walk alot. Also yesterday I went water aerobics. I wear a fitbit on my bra and it measures all the steps I take, including up the stairs. It also records my lack of sleep. which is very poor. stress, lack of sleep and other bad stuff dont help us lose weight. So I myself make answers to why i am not losing. I certainly know better. as a team leader on Sparkpeople.com, I witnessed all the gals gaining weight and I heard their reasons. However, I was on the losing or maintaining streak and didn't understand what they were going through. I am ashamed right now. I bought size 14 average jeans and they fiut great and I still can wear my size m's. I am in morning for my brother for a year now and it is the anniversary of his death. I took it very hard and gain the weight cause I didnt care to live with out him. I miss him and his love and kindness. we were so close. He was my best friend. I actually have no one to talk to now. I have faith in myself to lose this weight. we did it before. I could never have told any of this truth to my team. I value you all for the opportunity to be honest with myself. with out judgement...thanks hugs. Ilene

Happy Monday. I wish I had the fortitude to follow all the rules as I did 5 years ago. It makes me very scared that I am having problems doing it. I tend to want to finish what I started. Like the box of healthy choice pops. Fudge bars. just got up and took one to have. hmm tastes refreshing - lol. ..I have a great big job here. even though I am retired, this is a job. Tuesday, I want to go to Water aerobics. and then on Sat. WE are heading for a nice 7 day cruise on Feb 21 -Feb 28. But I still see that scale where I don't want it to be. We have been taking our walk as much as possible. Being in South Florida, we tend to get used to warm weather and because of that even 72 degrees is cold for us. Dr Quack, upped my anti depressants and might be messing up my weight going down. oh crap. I will continue not eating the white flour junk that I abstained from from the start. I will be going for a slight fill in a few days. so have a nice day take care.

i am having problems with the log in and passwork

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Hey Gals. Sounds great. I have been drinking more water and not eating my crackers. I have an apt to have a small fill. Hope that this will be a good choice. My days change so much and I have gastritis, so I have to watch my thoughts of pain or is it hunger. How can I be hungry? The lapband does its trick. The chocolate that Ray and bought half price are almost gone. But I have been walking over 10,000 steps per day, I will be going to the water aerobics as soon as I can. Even though we live in warm Florida, when it cools down, I don't like to come out of the pool and into the weather. The chief tells me to do this. I bought some turkey today. Going back to my original way of eating. Little Cindy helps me be full. Full of frustration when she begs for table food. It turns me off completely. Both you gals are doing great.

YA know what? This sounds like a great idea. Especially if we really want to achieve our goal. How about if we write down our original way that we ate when we got our band? And then write down what we are doing now. We are in different parts of the USA. Va, Arkansas, and me in South Florida. In Alec's lapband book, I am Ilene from ny and florida.

I am in a similar situation. Today is my bands anniversary 5 years. I am a bit older than you, I have a feeling that your year of birth is 1970. I will be 67 years old. Are you interested in me? I am married. I don't think that we need to kick any one butt at all. I think we need friendship, love, caring, support. I myself eould never want anyone to kick my butt. I myself have done that. Esp over the past year. I gained 30 lbs. I lost my brother a year ago and have been very sad since. But I do need to go back and exercise. It's all up to Ourselves. But yea I need help too.

Congrats, now lie down and relax. Heal, get ready to think about good things. Including a focus on what you will eat, drink and your choice of exercise. Forget about the fattening food that you ate that added weight on you.