Nathalie

Just had a conversation with my nutritionist. She said it sounds like I need a fill. She also has me keeping a food journal for the week. She said "Back to Basics" just like we did! (We're so smart!) I'm aiming to keep calories around 1,000 (no more than 1200), fat grams under 30 and protein over 60. That's it. I almost cried when I was talking to her. I swear I almost got teary eyed. I'm such a pushy. She said don't go from one extreme to another. So I'm feeling much better. I forgive me, I love me and I do what's right. I'm going to get my boy and we're going for a walk. I also see why ppl regain their weight when they unband. Cuz it's so easy to fall into old eating habits. So so so very easy.

Don't be ridiculous. Oh man, please don't do that to yourself, or put us in that position. Of course, I can't speak for everyone, but Annie no one is feeling spiteful or hateful toward you for your success. I'm amazed and proud that you have been so single minded in your workouts and so focused on your eating. You have gotten out of your band what you've put into it - and you should be equally as proud of your results. Don't do that fat girl thing where you feel shame for your accomplishments. (I know I'm guilty of fearing I'll make others feel bad in light of my good work. Pish posh! If you believe we're begrudging you your success makes me feel really bad, cuz AnnieBanannie, I thought we were better friends than that! Seriously girl, put your ticker back up there! You are fuggin AWESOME! I love to see your progress. You see who I came to when I needed a kick in the ass. No shame in it, nothing but love. And I've written down my meals for the day. I've planned my exercise, too. When I get home I'll do it for the week. I am also working on my affirmations. I join WW tomorrow morning at 8am. I'm rekindling that single minded focus that made me so successful and feeling good a few months ago. AND my sister is going to keep my son for a few weeks this summer, so those weeks I can really kick up my workouts! Love ya, girl!

LBT is tripping lately. I really really needed to spend some time here. I am craving food. I mean, all I want to do is eat. My eye is twitching again. It's stress eating. I don't even know what I'm stressed about. Probably losing this weight. Or NOT losing this weight. I want cookies. I want chips and dip. I want chocolate. I want meaty cheesy. I want apple pie with vanilla bean ice cream and caramel sauce. And I don't need any of it. I've been eating out of control part of the week, but the salt from the margaritas has me bloated. I'm struggling to get back on track. I'm really struggling to get my eating under control. I don't know what's wrong! It may be the p-rot (yeah, that was mine) but I'm still a week away (or more). I am too tired to exercise. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm going to get back to basics though. I feel like I've said all this before, but man - I am STRESSING that I am failing. I need to join the gym, but I need to make sure I'm going to go. How can I get back to my good place? THIS SUCKS! I need to just shut up, quit my fat bitch belly aching and just do it. HELP!

LBT is tripping lately. I really really needed to spend some time here. I am craving food. I mean, all I want to do is eat. My eye is twitching again. It's stress eating. I don't even know what I'm stressed about. Probably losing this weight. Or NOT losing this weight. I want cookies. I want chips and dip. I want chocolate. I want meaty cheesy. I want apple pie with vanilla bean ice cream and caramel sauce. And I don't need any of it. I've been eating out of control part of the week, but the salt from the margaritas has me bloated. I'm struggling to get back on track. I'm really struggling to get my eating under control. I don't know what's wrong! It may be the p-rot (yeah, that was mine) but I'm still a week away (or more). I am too tired to exercise. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm going to get back to basics though. I feel like I've said all this before, but man - I am STRESSING that I am failing. I need to join the gym, but I need to make sure I'm going to go. How can I get back to my good place? THIS SUCKS! I need to just shut up, quit my fat bitch belly aching and just do it. HELP!

bk - I know the feeling you're talking about! You need to find something to do with your hands. Write, knit, paint your nails, or something else. You can also try doing something like 5 push ups. Or balance on one foot. Water load, too. Fill up your belly so you won't want to eat. Or you can do like me and just say "Don't even try it, sugar tits" to yourself. And if you MUST have a snack while you watch tv, then make it a good one. Eat a protein bar or something that works WITH your lifestyle. One day at a time, girlfriend!

I love you ladies so much! Okay. I was at the gym tonight working out like mother fuggin ROCKY. Do you hear me? I did 30 hard minutes on the elliptical and burned 361 calories. THEN I did another circuit training on the machines. I'm still a bit confused, but I did enough arms and legs to feel the burn. My fat ass is beat, do you hear me? I picked up DS, then came home. He ate calzone from last night. I ate canned chicken and cottage cheese with hot sauce. I didn't even whip that sucker. I just drank some water. I am in bed already, and am going to sleep soon. My plan is to get up in the morning and do 45 minutes on the elliptical while I watch Rescue Me. I am so proud of me today. I mean I am really, really proud. And I guarantee I'm going to sleep like an angel tonight. I think I'm going to join the gym next week. No reason not to, truth be told! "Gym rat" is my new hobby! Tomorrow should be a great day of eating really well. I just need to take some snacks with me so I can avoid getting ravenous like I did yesterday. B'man - if you get an itch, don't be afraid to scratch it. I did. Annie - I'm going to send you a PM. I need some info from ya chica! Hope everyone else is having a super day. Miss you guys! Nathalie

I'm so shamed. I didn't make it to the gym yesterday. DS and I went to Old Chicago for dinner. I ate 1/4 of a calzone. and 2 margaritas. (heh) I got some of that B'man approved exercise last night though. I'm still feeling the burn this morning. HA! I'm going to the gym today after therapy though. And then I start my UltraFit diet tomorrow. lean protein and complex carbs. Water. That's it. For 2 weeks. I need to lose about 10# before I see my surgeon again. And I need to be 224 by my b'day. I'm still up and down - I go from 238 to 242 or so. *Sigh* Okay - have great days. Happy Birthday, Sweethot! Love you guys, N.

Brandi - You're forever Beversman/B'man to me. Screw the brit. (you know what i mean) Sweethot - maybe you're not eating enough at one time? 4oz of chicken wouldn't keep me full, though it would keep me full longer than 45 minutes. When do you come back to the US? I'm sick of your German doctors! VaB - I didn't join yet. I just have a free pass for the week. And yes, when I do join I think I get 5 hours of training with my membership. Still at work. Of course it is only 2:10. I'm looking to leave in 50 minutes. Going to Target, then to pick up the baby, and we're going to the gym together. (I may rethink that schedule...) At any rate, I'm doing more weights than cardio, and tonight we're going for a walk, I think, instead. Up to the playground. I didn't make it up at 5am either. My body was zonked OUT from my workout yesterday! My eating is good, too. I had an Isopure drink, a micellar milk and a granola bar. 450 calories so far. And I should burn a good amount at the gym tonight. I'm back in touch with my friend Sonja from Atlanta. She was my training partner at my last gym. Later, Kids! N.

Okay. I need some help. I went to the gym today. I am incredibly proud of myself for doing that. I put on some leggings and a relatively large shirt, and put my ass on the elliptical for 30 minutes, then did an quick all over weight routine. When you guys go to the gym what kind of weight routine do you do? I'd like to plan mine out a little better. Tonight I alternated between upper and lower body machines and did 3 sets of 10 reps each. I want to go back tomorrow and have a better idea of what I want to do. I'd like to plan it out before I get there. You know what I mean? I'm also going to start tracking my weight, measurements, and daily food intake on a weekly basis. You know what I mean. Food/water daily, the others weekly. No alcohol. Only water to drink (unless it's a protein shake). And the damn scale better cooperate. I need to lose 4 pounds by next Friday. I can do that. I guess this is all. It's 8pm and I'm trying to get up at 5am to do 30 minutes on the elliptical. My plan is to do 30 minutes in the morning. Then when I get to the gym tomorrow I can do a 15 minute warm up and hit the weights. And if I have time left over, I can do more cardio before I leave. I can work gym/fitness into my daily routine, but man it is going to take some time management! Anyhow, have a great night ladies. And NO ONE is crazy. Our minds are powerful tools - either working for us or against us. We just have to convince that crazy bitch to work FOR us. I'm proud of us all - we've come SUCH a long way in the past 6 months! Love, Nathalie

You lovely ladies have been gone all weekend! WHERE ARE YOU!? Enjoying the weather and your skinnified bodies, I hope! So I'm still in bed. Planning to go to the gym today. I didn't join, but I did get a free pass. The gym is nice, the membership is $88/month. That's a lot. I am going to go this week 5 days, and then get a free pass at the OTHER nice gym and compare the two. I'm fat, but hoping that joining the gym motivates me to eat better and drink more Water. I would love to be 10 pounds down by 6/25. I'm going hard core this week and next week! Hope everyone had a fabulous weekend! Nat

Hi Friends! Just a quickie. I decided to join a gym. I am looking into membership right now. Next week I take the plunge! A lot of you have encouraged me to do it, but Annie, you are a real motivator. If you can do it, I can do it! Joining a gym (and going) will help me to lose weight faster. I am anxious to get into the swing of things again. Do any of you wear a pedometer? Just curious. Have any of you done the Body For Life program? N.

And P.S. Once again I am cute den shit in the office. I have my hair pulled back into a saucy lil ponytail, and I'm wearing my favorite cocoa brown slacks with a cream colored top. Men in the cafeteria were smiling at me and speaking. Old white married men, but men nonetheless. And last night in the car I was flirting with a guy in an open top jeep. He was HAWT! Hard to flirt with DS in the back seat cock blocking. ((rolling)) Have great days, ladies!

Claudia - Hey pretty girl! I think this is the 1st time I've seen your picture. What a stunner you are! Size 8? You skinny whore. ((laughing)) CONGRATULATIONS! Amazing, chica! I'm so proud of you! I have been a fan of the Isopure drinks for a while. They have fruit juice drinks, too, that have 40g protein and only like 160 calories. It's a nice change from the thick creamy milky protein shakes. Another one you may like is Micellar Milk. It's made by the same company - and it's pre-mixed chocolate/vanilla/strawberry milk. They are creamy and good. 170 calories, 40g protein. It is made for gastric patients. The chocolate is nassy to me, but I love the vanilla and strawberry. So my sister was over last night and kept calling me "Tyra" and telling me how cute i am. She also said "You don't need to lose any more weight!" And at that point I started wondering what was going on in her mind. Does she think 240 pounds is healthy? Does she just not want me skinnier than her? We ate dinner - she fixed my plate to match hers - HUGE portions of everything. I ate half and put my plate in the kitchen. She ate hers, went in for seconds and ate my left overs. (HA!) She is about a size.... 8 on top and 14 on the bottom, I'd guess. We're proportioned the same, except she has mo' booty and less thighs. I just laughed and decided that I am gonig to get myself skinnier than her if it kills me. We knew it was coming, I just didn't think it would be so soon. Eventualy that will turn into "you look sick, you shouldn't lose anymore weight." Whatever hater; I'm riding this band into skinny-bitch glory! (laugh) Not much else to tell you guys. I am trying to lose this last 4 pounds by 6/14. I go in for my 6 month check up on 6/25. I'm really pushing to be closer to 230 by then. More later.

I was grossed out until I read "The Process." They gather the carbon from a lock of hair. If it was from a piece of dead flesh, an inner organ or like... a tooth or something, I'd be gross. But it's from hair. Not toooo creepy, but I'll still pass on the Life Gem.

Hi tink I saw the show advertised during the INSIDE THE BROOKHAVEN OBESITY CLINIC marathon I watched on Sunday. I think it's an interesting concept. I worry about the people being objectified and perhaps used for rating purposes. I think it just depends on how the information and subjects are presented. Of course, just my two cents. Nathalie

Ooooh wee you dirty lil hooka! Who you exercising with nowadays? Sheesh, now I have TWO reasons to be jealous of your hot to trot hiney! Is this the "I need a friend" guy or are you out there spreading your wings girlfriend? GOOD FOR YOU! AnnieBee - I think about you every time I wash my hands in the kitchen. (seriously) I so love that soap - thanks again. Yes, we need to see some pictures. And way to fuggin go on the weight loss! 90 pounds off? GIRLFRIEND! I need your secret to success. I'm stalled at 58, and really want to get over that 60 pound hump. (HA) Have you all ever seen the show INSIDE THE BROOKHAVEN OBESITY CLINIC on TLC? Man, I watched 6 episodes of that on Sunday. I'm so grateful to be me - in size, shape and girth. Some of those people were just... WHEW! Made my fat ass not want to eat any more boolsheet. One woman had gastric bypass and was still ordering fast food and eating pizza. I wanted to slap that hoe. bk - the water pills are safe as long as you're not heart medicine. I take them when I have swelling, or if I'm bloaty. I don't take a bunch everyday though. They just make you pee. Even more if you drink lots of water. I was on the elliptical trainer for 30 minutes yesterday. After 30 minutes of work I hadn't busted a sweat and my heartrate was still low (116/120). I can't tell if that's a good thing or a bad thing... NSV!!! My sister came over for a little while yesterday and the first thing she gushed about how much weight i've lost and how good I look. She said "You look like you've lost at least 40 pounds!" (I was sketchy on the details.) And she remarked that I am now about the size I was when I had the baby. (which I am - 10 - 15 pounds away) She made me feel really great, especially since I saw my Mom over the weekend and she didn't remark on my weight loss at all. WTF? My sister reminded me that my Mom is "a hater." (which she is) I need to lose that 15 pounds by my 7 month anniversary. That puts me at a 75 pound loss in 7 months. Not bad at all. I am really praying to hit 199 by 12/14 (1 year). I'm definitely joining a gym for my b'day. I'm going to splurge and join the more expensive gym simply because they have the children's area and I can go after work. My goal is to be in there 4x per week minimum. I'm going to start lifting weights (Body for Life anyone?) bbk - take care of yourself, get your rest and heal your body. We're all thinking about you. maurdan - how's it going with the fill? Steph? Kaydoll? sweethot? sassy? Where my girls at? Check in, please! Back to the grind... :think Nat

Hi Chickadees - I was out of town last week, eating out every night and drinking too much wine. The scale moved, but in the WRONG DIRECTION! I hope it's water I'm retaining and not fat I'm regaining. (((hahaha)) This week I'm on my 2-a-day exercise plan, and one meal per day (grilled chicken, grilled fish only) and the rest is liquid calories (protein drinks, protein bullets and lots of water to flush out the fat). I'm also taking a water pill to flush flush flush out the fat. I have exciting news to share, but can't share until things come into being. I don't want to jinx myself. This news is only serving to bolster my self confidence and refocus my weight loss efforts. I feel I am "normal sized" (at a size 18) which is a NSV in and of itself. I'm shooting for 224 by my b'day and to be under 200 by December 14, my 1 year bandiversary. Just be happy for me girlfriends (as I am sure you will be). Continued weight loss will only push me further forward in this arena. I wholeheartedly believe it. Anyhow, I'm off to a meeting. I missed y'all while I was gone! BIG LOVE!!!!! Nathalie

I weighed this morning. 244.0. That's 4 pounds heavier! AAAAARGH! I'm still holding onto the belief that it is all period weight. LOL Brandi you sexy thang you! No matter what you feel like on the OUTSIDE, your insides must be radiating confidence and beauty! I'm so happy for you! I can't wait to get there. I predict that in another 30 pounds I'll be one sexy mama! Nikki - I don't know what to tell you about the nausea. I'd just track what makes me sick and not eat those foods. I'm taking a lot of protein drinks with me to Cincinnati, first of all. I'm also taking my work out gear and my iPod. My goal is to lose 5 pounds this week. When I hit 225, I join a gym. I only have 15 pounds to go. Okay, 19 pounds. Love you guys! Check in when I can!

Just popping in to wish everyone a happy holiday. I am a little disappointed that I put off my trip to Costco for today and they're closed. :drum: I didn't go out at all yesterday. Today I'm going to spend the day cleaning and packing for my trip. Just BTW I have eaten SO MUCH JUNK this weekend, I swear I have gained like 10 pounds. part of it is the p'rot, but beyond that is pure greed. I'm really hoping to regain control during the week, and come back with my weight back where it was before my latest binge. Glad to hear everyone is A-ok! Nat

I actually feel pretty good about me today, ladies. I didn't mean to sound so down on myself. I was just saying, in spite of how far I've come and in spite of how much I've lost (almost 60 pounds) I'm still well over 200 pounds and have a whole lotta more to lose. It's just... discouraging sometimes. That's all. Even in light of my accomplishments, I feel like I'm not doing enough to get where I want to be. I feel like I should be thinner by now. I know - insane. And yes, bk, I am hard on myself. I love you for helping me recognize that. maurdan, I didn't sign up for notifications when a new post is made. This is the only thread I check on LBT anymore. VaB - *HUGS* Night ladies! N.

Brandi - Your friend sounds like mine. He's interested, but unstable, as he has a lot going on in his life. Keep your perspective or his flakiness will drive you bonkers. Keep believing it's not you, it's totally him. bk - congrats on the loss! I'm so jealous! What product are you using? Brandi - I bet it's the sodium from the that has your body whacked out. I was another 0.5 down today, and I'm amazed, cuz I killed a HUGE amount of food at dinner lastr night. And 2 glasses of wine. We ate at a tapas restaurant. I'm going to go home and exercise after work today, as I have another business dinner tonight. Not much else going on. I look cute today, but not as cute as I was yesterday. (laugh) It's funny though, cuz I feel skinny some days, and then when I try on certain clothes, I look like lumpy sausage stuffed in a casing. Just absolutely fat, bloated and disgusting. By the end of May I want to be at least 236. That's 4 pounds away. That would also move me down a point on the BMI scale. *sigh* I'm so sick of being a fucking fat ass.... Later gals. N.

StephC - I hope your Tuesday is better. I took a sanity day off work yesterday. Today I have pulled out my fuggit buggit and am at work with a grin on my face and not a care in the world. Matter of fact, I am determined not to let these crazy people at this job get an emotional rise out of me. I am gorgeous today in a pair of cocoa brown slacks and a pink/cream/brown shirt and tan safari jacket. The pants are 18w, and the top is an XL. I've lost another 0.5 lbs as of this morning. I am walking around here like my name is Angelina Jolie. LOL Yes, affected craziness. We're about to go to lunch, but I don't know where. I've had 2 Protein drinks this morning, and am looking for some kind of thin Soup for lunch, or maybe a grilled chicken salad. We're having Tapas for dinner, so I'm saving up my calories. It's all good, so long as I get my fat butt on that elliptical tonight. 30 minutes. Hope everyone else is doing well. My cold is a wee bit better today, I'm still coughing like a chain smoker though. Have a great day, mamacitas! Nathalie

I didn't go to see Mom. I stayed here and slept most of the day. I swear the ppl at my job are insane. I called out today because of an email I read this morning. EFF that job. I tried on smaller clothes last night and it dawned on me that I am still one fat bitch. *sigh* I just need to stop eating junk and work out a little harder. Time to get DS up and take him to daycare. B'man - we need to talk. In case you still don't know it, that bitch is not your "friend." I'm talking about the band chick who was dogging you out. She is not your friend. You look fabulous - don't you dare let some jealous c*nt detract from your success. We all have problem areas - my body is the reverse of yours - and so. what. Don't let her steal your sunshine. VaB - I can't wait to hear what happens on your wine thingy. Two suitors? WOO WOO! Steph - how's your back? sweethot - your German doctors get me so mad! Sassy - how are you doing? bkwalling - glad you've found an exercise that you like! Dancing away the pounds, eh? Claudia - how's the new fill treating you? Any word on your move to the US? Kaydoll - hope all is well with you! Time to start my day. Take my DS to daycare, and then coming back home for a day of rest. Later, Ladies! Nathalie maurdan - did you decide to get filled? How are you doing?

Just checking in. I feel like hot buttered crap. My head and chest are all clogged up, and DS won't STFU. I think we're going to the drug store, then going to see my Mom. Hopefully that's not a mistake. I'm wearing jeans and a fitted t-shirt, so she'll either notice I look thinner and be supportive (fat chance) or she'll be snide and negative. I look in the mirror and finally see that I am thinner. I need to measure and take pictures. Haven't done that in a while. BMan I'll be back in Cin from 5/29 - 6/1. I think I'll have more time to hang out this time. Maybe... Later, girls!

I took DS to see it on Friday and he enjoyed it. I didn't think it was as good as the first one, but it was worth the price of admission. I love the ending credits of the Shrek movies.