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julie, water lilly and Indian light, thank you all very much first of all for thking the time to post your menus, that took thoguht ans time and I appreciate your caring that you would do that for me. I don't know if I can deal with being abandster until I have a fill. I am hungry and I don't think it is head hunger. I ate early tonight cuz I was starving two potaoes and two lamb chops and you know what happened. I felt like something wasn't moving or maybe the stuck feeling i hear about and within a few mins ( uncomfortable) it popped out in the toilet..eww, so I giess i have some restriction????? I mean I am supposed to be pureed now but i feel better and have chewed pretty well and this is th first time i experienced that. I was hungry again around 7-7:30 ish so I grabbed a bunch of greens and put oil/vinegar dresing on it. It is now 9:17 and I am hungry again......GEEZE, this may sound stupid but I don't think I can tell the difference between head hunger and real hunger. I think I will try to hang in and start drinking. I have to say though that for the first time today I went to the gym....I had tried my own treadmill this week three times but i slip off that one. and I thought, what the heck am I doing? I bought a membership but because of my weight and how i look I haven' t gone. I mean the people there are buff and looking amazing and then I thought who cares, I am going for me, and its not like I want to pick anyone up there anyway since they could be my kids. So I went and did the treadmill and then I did the bike and then a couple of weights, so I was happy with that and I will try to go tomorrow too and start from there. As for going to the shrink with my mom, lol no, don't worry that was just that time. She was staying with me a couple days last week and I picked her up on the way since the distance is better that way , and then she went in my docs as my doc wanted to meet her. So that won't happen again. besides my mother has never had weight issues ( to me anyway) although she talks about food, weight, diets ad nauseaum for as long as I can remember. Funny huh,. all the things she was great at, like sewing, cooking, gardening, I stayed away from with a vengenence.

cloe I wilk stop the spell check after all I do more typos than ...well stars in the sky. As for dips. man no taste you guys, it's hellava anyday of the week hands down!

Hey cloe, it is speled testosterone, and I am not even looking at the scale since I am hungry and eating. The good thing I can say is I started my treadmill a feww days ago, but today I went to the gym, yup, I did it and I am proud of that and did a good first major workout Mandi great news and Yoda you too, wow, super and Ilove chips and dip lol especially from Costco "Hell of a Dip" amazing!

Julie. Oh God, I hope your right as I just came back from another movie and big popcorn and then two hamburger patties for dinner. I f I can be like you in any way I would feel lucky. So when you had a big restriction, would you be kind enough to give me an idea of a typical day for you with food and fluids cuz i honestly do not have a clue? Can I swallow pills? Can i drink lots of water at a time? thanks julie, I appreciate it.

mandi,if anyone can do it,, it's YOU!

Dear water lillyand anyone else who is here . Please help me, I feel out of control and yet I am banded now and just finsihed full fluids( cheated and i can now eat solid foods, i just chew better or gag) but I have now seenmovies for the past three days and loaded up with popcorn,................what the hell is happening to me? I mean I borrowed this money to do it, I have to say I have at least excersized for the past three days but I am eating AND hungry...I am sick of yogurt, sick of cottage cheese,sick of fluids, I want something REAL , somethignmeaty......I am blowing this big time. I am not evengoing toget weighted today and feel more depressedI mean i went to the movie last night and ate a whopper with cheese and then popcorn...almosta large one, I have to say i can't eat as much but even that makes no difference on scale. First fill comes later sept then 2nd and 3rd Oct. Am I the only failure here? Please help me!

hey there dezado I actaully attended a few overeaters anon meetings and honestly I was soo hoping it would be helpful and for a bit it was , but after a bit, I noticed that I couldn't speak in the group. they folowed a ceratin doctrin all the time and took turns and I couldn't vent/cry/ sek help whatever so I stil felt very much alone. I also couldn't understand it as I lived in a small town and there weren't many poepl at the meeting so I thought it would be a bit more open and time to discuss. So , no, that didn't help. I heard that book by geneen rothman ( roth) ?? is a good one when food is love..has anyone read it and what did you think? thanks Kim

HI No the 23 lbs and it is now just 20 was since I started the preop diet. I am really feeling disinhearted, I actually worked out today but then sai..screw it and after fighting with my significant other I went to a movie ate a whopper with cheese and popcorn, so I only have myself to blame, but I ma hungry and the pureed stuff puts weight on me , the full fluid and I was eating way less then I usually do. If it is this slow since i started, what's the point? the doc was not my surgeaon, but a shrink I went to, to deal with food issues and she told me about the lap band.

I love lamb although at 5.99 a lb for canuck lamb i don't buy it!

hI guys yes Nykee I feel frustrated too and of course today didn't help. i had my mother and my doc pretty well tel me "well you must be doing something wrong" "soup can have lots of calories too". I am hungry. I am tired of the full fluids which end today but since I ahven't lost weight on that i feel that once I eat pureed iwill gain again. Idon't get it. I did start excersing cuz I am a couch potato and it was not fun, nor pretty but damn I did 30 mins on my treadmill at not a huge fast pace but I did it. My first fill is not til sept 15th or so, but honestly I don;t get how I am eating so much less than the garbage can i was before and now so little, if at all.Pretty discouraging considering I am really just started and it is sooo slow already. sorry for the griping ..but here is the only place i can. thanks Kim

Edie, thanks for your message. I don't think I am trying to hurt myself. Why do I eat or anyone here who go to this place? I dunno, But all I know is that I have eaten for celebrations, grief, just about everything and even numbness and continued well after i wasn't hungry. I am seeing a shrink right now as I know I needed help with the eating thing and it was she who suggested the lapband, I didn't know anything about it before. AS far as why I eat....I still do not know or how I got here. I have taken wellbutrin and as you know many antidepressants have side effects that are worse than what they are for and the one big one is weight gain, so I had little alternative. Thankyou for your concern. This has been hard for me...I have stumbled and fell a few times and this is the only place I feel safe and accepted to discuss my fears and hopefully success. I am inspired by the many folks here who are there for each other and me too, so I tell all, and do not worry about judgement and that alone is very freeing. I must say I had a non weight victory today if that is what they call it. This was the first day I actually did some excercise and was able to do half an hour on my tread mill. I may not have been able to get with it in the aug challenge that Cloe started but hopefully I can get with it for Sept. I thank you for your care and concern.:hug: Kim

I love costco...so I will try it!!! I love their pesto sauce...unbelievable!

this sounds dumb, but what is antipesto?????

molly, wheetsin, dezado, julie wow congrats I hope to get on the same page with you one day with the weight thing, Iamstill hovering around 300 and the damn thing doesn't want to move argh!

Dezado I don't think we have that kind of cottage cheese here inCanada?? but it sounds good and Ilike your idea of the baked potato..getting hungry just thinking about it. I ate pea soup tonight, and added cheese..mm good and I ate the whole can, felt full after and now hungry again.

wheezy I am just over two weeks post op and HUNGRY big time, even cheated, hated myself, but i am soo hungry so I can relate...big time.

oh neenagh, lmao..okay so your like the witch in Hansel and Gretal? lol

okay I am lost....neenagh..are you pregnant?man you are so small compoared to me already, and you haven't even had surgery yet???

thanks, so chives with cottage cheese? that is somethign you can buy? maybe a baked a potaoo sounds good, I could mush that up right? put natural yogurt on it???? Imean I am finished full fluids technically thursday but Ima hungry and have to eat something and I know as I ate already and no problem with it. so Iam trying today but man I am getting soo tempted...... if any of you left the diet early,,what could/did you eat with no problems. I do not get my first fill til sept ( later) then in oct for second and third.

lap bandit thanks, and wow, 100 lbs in 7 months is amazing. I am failing already and have soo much to lose and am hungry all the time. Starting again, yes will try but with messing up so soon I am very worried I can't do this.

Dear Tired Old man..I wish you would change you addy to old guy who is upbeat and incredibly supportive. Want to hear something funny? I am a mental health professional........isnt this like physician heal thyself??? I am also seeing a shrink and have since sept ......seems like so many isssues coming up and food is not a big deal to her, I don't think she gets it. I have worked with her and respect her immensly, infact she was the one who told me about this surgery that one of her patients had already had.

No cloe, I didn't. I mean then I look like an idiot . Everyone else seems to be doing great and I just can't do it so early in the game.

does anyone know if this can be covered in canada, I don't think so in ontario?? And you look terrific by the way. I guess I think I will lose my boobs when Ilose the weight,but wow, yours still look good, I can only pray lol!

hEy guys thanks BUt I do feel like I am failing and messingup badly and don't know if I can do this. I almost wish I was living with someone going through the same thing for moral support. I can't satnd the smells inthe kitchen when they cook and I take off to the computer in the basement. The popcorn went down easy although I could only eat half the large bag I usually get and I ate two hamburger patties, the ones from presidents choice that you nuke and have cheese in them. They were interesting, it felt kinda stuck a little when I think the piece was too large but not painful, so I chewed it up. I hate this full Fluid thing and being hungry is awful I swear. I literally am thinking about food more than ever and craving everyting I can't have. I hate to sound weak but boy I guess this is IT for me as far as my weakness in this world and sometimes I feel it has me beat. I used to think alcoholics etc. man are they weak poeple , "just stop drinking" but that they realy don't wan to, but I know I am addicted to food, it seems to have run my life for so long ad look at the prices I / perhaps you have paid..with health, for me a job and relationships , being reclusive all because of food. I dunno, I am finding this really tough. I am eating yogurt again and going to try to get back onthe wagon...but boy I would love a night at the MANDARIN in Barrie! I read about people living in the same communtiy who get together and meet or go walking and I wishI was closer to some of you here. I mean YOU guys in the canadian group are my support system and I tried the other band the canadian one that sends threads all day, but I just don't feel the same connection there and so far I cannot relate to folks talking about plastic surgery etc... Yoda, Cloe, Argon, wheezy, jude et all, Ifeel weak to say this but I do need your support right now and I am sorry to be a oain but I am finding this really tough.

your doctor may recommend a tummy tuck etc and send pics to OHIP, but for the most part they deny them. For some reason, they approve breast reductions etc after losing weight. ( guess OHIP is male dominated) so for the most part, save your pennies.