I know how scary it can be. You have gone through all the preparation wanting this and at the same time, it's utterly terrifying when it is upon you! SO many of us can relate! Honestly, I agree with one of the pps about telling your doctor how freaked out you are. They do this all the time so it's "old hat" to them, but there are patients that are petrified of having any type of surgery and being put under anesthesia. I am sure once you tell them, they will be very sensitive to how you feel. Honestly, they prepped me and gave me something when I didn't even realize it, next thing I knew I was chatting away and giggling with my husband, even teasing the doctor about singing AC DC when they wheeled me in LOL! Next thing I know.....well there wasn't a "next thing I know" LOL I woke up in recovery to a nurse rubbing my head telling me how great I did. I don't remember a thing. And I don't know about you, but I rather feel pain after and not knowing what the heck they did !
In the end, it's only YOU that can make the decision. It depends on how badly you want the surgery. Me? I would have walked through burning broken glass to have the surgery so nothing was stopping me, and while I'm scared of pain, I'm cool with you doing whatever you have to do as long as I'm not awake LOL. You have many people on here that can speak to the good, the not-so-good and the bad that can answer all your questions to try to prepare you as much as possible.
This is a life changing thing and it's WONDERFUL that you are taking it so seriously. Believe me, it will be okay no matter what you decide.
(For the record, I am now 154 and can feel the port from the outside to the touch, but never, EVER have I felt my band from the inside or outside--I couldn't even tell you where it is LOL!)
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