TracyinKS

I am holding strong for day 2....... we are going out for Mexican tonight...... my goal is to ONLY eat some chicken and a few bites of beans. Meat and cheese roll ups, crystal light and 1 biggest loser protein water..... and 1/2 pot of coffee.

Good morning V's................... Yesterday.. the first step in my On the road again adventure....... Yesterday scale 211.2, Today 209.4.......... Yesterday I managed to NOT eat any ice cream.... I had 1 pot of coffee w/creamer 3/4 of a protien bar hunks of cheese when I got hungry 3 big glasses of CL (liveactive) After work I took the boys to Sonic........ I GOT NOTHING......... not even Dt. Dr. Pepper. Dropped Cody at scouts and went to the store to stock up on "healthy" Tracy stuff......... It was 9pm by the time I got home and I was starving........ I ended up having a frozen Calorie countdown (I had put some in the freezer) and then about 1/2 cup of cottage cheese w/pepper......... it was enough to settle my tummy for sleeping. So far today...... coffee w/SUGAR FREE creamer the last of the left over Protein bar (about 1/4) I brought in thin sliced deli meat and plan to make wraps with the cheese.... (dipped in ranch) the key will be slow slow slow........ Also, I stocked up on Crystal Light due to the sale at the store and the coupons I had...... so I'm set on that route............ My first goal is to get back into ONEderland...... I have a band meeting tonight......... I guess I better go... I just hate feeling like a failure to all those NEWBIES...... OH and you should see my mom!!!!!! She is rocking the band! She showed up at my neices graduation party in a form fitting blouse and WOW!!!!!!! her loss was really noticable! (she has always had small arms and a beautiful face......she is somewhat dark complected due to our cuban heritage from her dad,,, she practically glows with a little sun. I will post her pics soon as I download them. I will TRY to join Tracy's challenge....... but more so... I am desparately trying to climb back aboard the losing train.

Good afternoon.... I'm on day 3 with no ice cream....... and last night was HARD because we went out and they brought a big ol hand dipped sundae to the table with 4 spoons!!!!!! I RESISTED..... today however I did have a bag of popcorn w/real butter for lunch...... My neice is graduating tonight..... and now my tummy is growling.

Laura: I ran home at lunch and tried doing it... I already have malwarebytes on the one at home but now I can't get it to scan...... I might take you up on the offer of remote link .... tonight is ball practice and tomorrow my niece is graduating..... and BECOME ONE WITH THE PUKE

LOL Judy! So today I've had Calorie Countdown milk the innards of 6 hb eggs mixed with mayo and honey mustard.. (I can NOT do boiled whites) two frozen no bake cookies.... uhmmmm protein and fiber right???? BUT.... I made it through another lunch hour without a frosty...... YAY ME

Terry: I'm at a loss for what to say...... I can't even imagine

Good morning...... YAY day ONE with no ice cream.... going for TWO. I made some deviled egg filling for me to eat today..... also I've had a glass of Calorie Countdown and a pc of string cheese........ so far off to a good start. Thank you Laura for the help! I printed off your directions and will be trying it out tonight. 205 today

Kat I FREAKING LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!... that is all.. go jerry

my puter has the virus that acts as an anti virus... I can't uninstall....... and it ticks me off.......... I boiled eggs tonight for a deviled egg thingy......I am trying...... cause I suck...... I suck I suck.... but I'm trying to pull myself out of this self loathing hell....... sometimes I think I deserve it.... and you know that is deep... let the hackers in on that~!........... I'm a freak.

Laura: Im all weepy........... I;m so happy for you and carson... I can't believe he's here...... omg you are a mom... I love you all! you know that right...... I can't believe I was gone for so long....... guilt sucks... I love my V's!!!!!!!!!! Robby is so skinny these days............. and I have 20 boxes of cereal in the pantry that I've paid no more than .98 for......... I AM acoupon queen....carl is my paper hook up...... I met him at the grocery......... LOL.. he's the paper guy that I pay in pepsi for coupons.......... another obession........ I am a freakazoid..... damn I've missed my v's!!!!!!!!!!

watching bL finale right now!!!!!!!! go to jennyo.com and register and you will get a coupon for $5.00 off (free product).. I am a coupon queen these days!!!! KRISTEN LOOKS GREAT! NO ICE CREAM TODAY@@ score.. (BIG SCORE) I love yo9u guys!!!!!!!!!

Terry: Keep up the good fight......

thank you tracy for the fb chat and helping me to decide what to eat for lunch......... I laughed OUT LOUD at your txt warning me of the Frosty recall!!!!!!!!! I was afraid to leave the office for lunch in fear of getting a frosty, malt or dq so I decided to make the best of what was in my office stash..... 1st I tried a can of tuna doctored up with whatever I could find in the breakroom fridge....... BLECH..... two bites and I dumped it out....... 2nd try a little thingy of plain cream cheese that I had in my office.. you know the kind you pick up at a hotel or gas station...... well I was into my second bite when I read the label to keep it refridgerated! YIKES!! so I threw it out too..... 3rd Jar of Honey Roasted Peanut butter....... (DID NOT even crack the lid on that puppy!!!) 4th Progresso Low Sodium Chicken Noodle soup....... well I heated it up and slurped the hot broth, ate a few of the curly noodles and the 6 or 7 cubes of chicken it contained..... dumped the rest out and now that my stomach quite growling I think I can be ok for an hour or so until I can finish the rest of my Calorie Countdown protien shake....

Today... dang it.. just one day....... its 9:45 and I'm starting to get hungry!!!! Today.... I AM playing by the rules.

TODAY........ I play by the rules

Terry: HUGS FOR YOU and Evan! Michelle: WHEW.. I'm so glad our PTO is not like yours! GEESH......... as it is...... I showed up for all the meetings this year and now I'm the VP!!!!! Luckily, next year will be a slow slow year due to the school being closed for remodel. All our kids are getting split up over the rest of the district..... The principal didn't want to lose the parent group so we will continue with a loose knit effort.......... Well as soon as I type that Robby is doing better the school calls!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHHHHHHHH

Good Morning........ Thanks everyone.. really! I am starting the day with my coffee and I brought in a big water bottle full of Calorie countdown as my breakfast and lunch..... (think LC protein shake) Today is the day.... NO ice cream.. Robby has been doing much better in school, we are set to have him advance to 1st grade with Para support. I have him signed up for T-ball, and cub scout day camp... Busy busy busy....... I don't think I need a fill...... I just need to play by the rules... no nachos or icecream.... Wish me luck..... Last night at practice they put me on first... boy boy did I get a workout... my thigh muscles are KILLING ME! 207 today....... a new HIGH...... blech!

I am so far out of touch.. do you even remember me??? LOL.. Thank you Jane for the card! I am trying desparately to get my head back in the game........... I busted out a zipper yesterday and I about bawled...... why do I do this to myself... but if you've read my facebook... I joined my company softball team and it is kicking my butt... it is the most exercise I've had in about two years! My mom is doing great and looking great.. she is nearing the 230's and started in the 280's.... she is blessed with a very thin face and thin arms... its her butt that that is the problem.... tonight at practice I had an ephiphany.. I need to do better........ I'm weighing in from 200 to 206 on any given day...... it is the slippery slope I tell ya......... a long long long way from 174.... but really if I'd get my head out of my ass it is not that far...... I've been eating ice cream 1-2 times a day...... tonight it was my dinner......... have I hit the bottom of this whatever?? I don't know.. I sure hope so..... this mind gaME I play it just sucks.... my personal hell.... I'm sorry I've been MIA for so long..... I'm guessing you've given up on me........ as another one that bit the dust... but know that I think of each and every one of you often... the texts from Tracy the card from Jane........ the I'm thinking of you....... all touch my heart.... I feel guilt, shame.. all the same bull shit i've done to myself time and time again........... I am sitting here sore thighs from softball practice........ crystal light and muscle relaxer... in hand and make a vow that I will show up because two years have come and gone............ slippery slope be damned (sorry Judy) I am going to fight my demons and get back ... Much love always.......... Tracy

Good morning..... I have to go drop my truck off this morning and pick up a rental.....all from a month ago when I got into that wreck... the girls insurance finally accepted liability... and they pay for the rental.

Hello all!!! Well... I was freaking out and she called me telling me to get my butt in there pronto.... I did. She felt I needed an unfill but was hesitant to take too much since I lost 5 lbs on their scale. Now here is the funny part...... When she inserted the needle she didn't even need to draw back the syringe.. it PULLED/Popped fill out on its own.. and she said WOW you WERE tight! She took .25 and I am much better today.. Most likely is the stress and my cycle that really tightened me up....... ALSO............ I think Robby has ODD..... Oppositional Defiant Disorder mixed with some form of ADHD. The Vyvanse he is on helps his focus but this hard head of his.. is way over the top. He expects EVERYONE to do things HIS way.. Im talking EXTREME..... I don't think the 1.2.3. Magic technique is enough for him....... He was suspended from daycare for 1 day this week... I have found summer care for him NOT school affiliated. I hope she is a good fit. (she has a special ed background, and keeps them busy busy busy) 202 today

OK... thanks Terry

Morning all........ I am freaking out right now, and I need some advice. I got a fill last week and I definately had restriction. The NP told me to watch it like a hawk incase I lost this fill too......... Well last night I think I overdid it....... I was really full and uncomfortable when I went to bed, but it wasn't a "stuck" feeling..... it was lower. (sorry this next part is gross) About 11:30 I woke up needed to puke....... ACID puke for the next hour... little bits at a time, but it wouldn't stop..... made my back hurt even so I took a shower trying to work it all out. I took two tums and was able to sleep. I was freaking out all night...... scared straight so to speak. I was planning to have water and broth all day today and give it a rest. (and no icecream or LC white russians) This morning all I've had is about 1/2 cup of coffee and I keep burping it up........ SHOULD I go back to the doc, or should I just try to rest it and quit freaking out.

I'm watching the CMA's too! I put Robby down for the night...... I HAVE restriction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.. I've lost 2 of the 30 lbs.. I just sigh at my size 10's that are just a dream again for me...... but I know I will get there... knowing that I have a possible leak is at least a REASON why I had such a bad backslide. We had a busy weekend....... we actually split the room that Robby shares with Josh when he is here...... now they both have their own albeit smaller room with custom built Loft beds and we put all the combinded resue heros out and they took turns picking ...... Resue Heros are MAJOR in this house! LOL Cody was scout camping which made things go more smooth........ It is so nice to have restriction back....... a safety net for me........

Come join us!

Michelle..... I got armwrestled into taking PTO Vice Prez last night..... Luckily my transition year will be easy because our school will be closed for remodeling. However before elections I volunteered to take over the Cambells Soup Labels.... (our Kroger has the online program) so even next year we can earn points just by people using their shopper cards.