NewMechelle

I am so frustrated. I am going to the doctor today. To get what I hope is my last fill. I am up a few pounds 204.5 this morning. HELLO how can I be up I am not eating enought to be "up". So much for the under 200 for saturdays reunion. I too am terrified I will lose the wt or get close just to pack it back on. That is why I freak out when I put a few back on even if i should be starting my period this week and try to take into consderation water wt. It still makes me crazy with worry. I guess like any other addiction it is a life time battle. I just need to try and be patient and God knows that has never been one of my strong suits. Mechelle