NewMechelle

I have been keeping up with you as well. Sound like you are doing well. It is unbelievable to me that it has been almost a year. honestly, it has absolutely flown by I cant wrap my brain around it. If i wasnt so computer retarted I would show you before and after pictures. I took some Easter and I was so proud I almost cried. I NEVER allow pics because I hated who I was. I dont have any pics of me with my beautiful kids and now it kinda makes me sad. If something were to happen to me, they wont remember me then. There is no record of me. I did find a few and my God it looks like my head is gonna explode. Not where I wanna be but Praise Him I am so much closer than I was. Please know you have support in me any time. This journey is not always easy. God bless and keep you!!!!!Mechelle

We cant give up girl. Just because we have bad days doe not give us permission to throw in the towel and eat a buckett of chicken and gallon of ice cream(trust me I am tempted at times) I have been there over and over and it is just not worth it. I have been fat and I have been thinner. I like thinner better. I feel so much better, physically mentally just all around. NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS SKINNY WILL FEEL.

Hey thanks for the support. I hope we can get the rest of this weight off together. I have realized this is not a marathon but my life here. I just need to do it and if i dont get to my 100 pounds by 12 months so what? We need to be healtheir that is the main thing right? we can do this girl. I am with you, I wish I had done this sooner. I am 43, wish I had done this ten years ago. Good luck and God bless.

Hey Denise, That is my Midlde Name!Hope you are doing well. This will be an incredible journey for you, There will be good days and bad. There will be fluctuations in your weight (especially as a woman) that there seems to be no ryme or reason for from hour to hour. I promise you this will be worth it. YOU ARE WORTH IT! looking great is just an added benefit. your health your family, all worth it. If you ever need support I am here. I can be really whinny so dont ever feel too whinny to contact me. No one is more so than me, just ask my husband. lol. Yes I miss my old best friend (food) however NOTHING tastes as good as skinny feels. Good luck and God bless you in your jouney. Mechelle Denise!!!!!!!

Hey girl as always thanks for the ancouragement over the last eight months. I try to realize this is my life, not a marathon, it is just a little hard now that the loss is slower. I am just thankful to be where I am and not where I was.

Hey when I first started it was all about how fast I could get the weight off then I realized how dumb that was. this is not a marathon, this is my life. This will take the rest of my life to do and keep off. As long as I am healtheir now that I was before, as long as I am working towards my goals and not going backwards, that is what is important. You said you have not been perfect no one is you never will be no one can be daily, the big thing is the big picture. Keep pushing towards your goals of being happier and healthier for you and your family. you are so worth it. You looking good is just an awesome added bonus, Truely it is about he health. I was borderline diabetic and about to be treated for heart disease. Now I have had my blood pressure meds cut inhalf twice and I am no where close to being a diabetic. God is so good. I could not have done this on my own. Dont get down when this doesnt happen over night. God Bless

I am so frustrated. I am going to the doctor today. To get what I hope is my last fill. I am up a few pounds 204.5 this morning. HELLO how can I be up I am not eating enought to be "up". So much for the under 200 for saturdays reunion. I too am terrified I will lose the wt or get close just to pack it back on. That is why I freak out when I put a few back on even if i should be starting my period this week and try to take into consderation water wt. It still makes me crazy with worry. I guess like any other addiction it is a life time battle. I just need to try and be patient and God knows that has never been one of my strong suits. Mechelle

Thanks for the encouragement. I dont know what my problem is, I have had two really bad days eating wise, This is the first time it has been an issue, maybe I am inpatient, maybe I am a little freaked out over my 25 year reunion this weekend and wanted to be much lighter, maybe freaking out over the holidays I honestly dont know. I have vowed, once I get under 200 again, I will NEVER NEVER go there again. I just wanna reach my goal. I just wanna wake up and be 155 you know. Now each time I hover at a weight for weeks and weeks I kinda freak out going "this is it, this is all I am going to lose I am never getting to goal" then when its off, can I keep it off or will I start packing it on little by littel like many times before? Just feel overwhelmed with self doubt. Seems like I dont have to eat hardly anything at all and either stall wt loss or even gain. I cant wait to be where you are. Thanks again as always. Mechelle

Hey good to hear from you. I am a little frustrated. I got the flu and didnt eat for a few days and actually got down to about 204 I think, Now I am back to 209. I also pulled a muscle in my calf. The doc was afraid it was a blood clot and wouldnt let me walk till yesterday when I did a dopplet study to rule out a clot. Just a pulled muscle but I have just over a month for my 25th reunion and I wanted to be MUCH smaller. Oh well I just need to be grateful I am not 50 pounds heavier like I was. I also had a fill recently and I am getting everything stuck except soup and mashed potato kinda stuff. You would think my weight would drop but NO I have actually picked up some YUCK. God Bless and great to hear from you.

What the heck is the difference between a blog and a post? the longer i fool with this stuff, the dumber i feel

Hey just wanted to say hi and it's done. I am nine days post op and feeling wonderful. I was scared to death and over all it has been a breeze. There were a few days where I was really sore and layed around alot but 9 days out and I feel great. Still have staples in. will get those out thursday. I am 20.5 pounds down. So pleased. God is good. Let me know how you are

I will also lift you up in prayer. You can NEVER have too much prayer. Good luck with your approval. I never did get approved, I am private pay so this is painful in more than one way. lol. I will keep you posted and you do the same.