I can really relate with you on this one. People, like my husband, just can't understand why I am still unhappy with the way I look in the mirror. Sure, it is fun to shop for new smaller size clothes (now a 10, before a 18)- but to be honest, the second I take my clothes off to get in the shower & I see my self in the mirror, all is see is fat! I am 144lbs and you would think by loosing 75lbs, I would be ecstatic. However, I really was happier fat- as bad as that sounds. I never thought I looked fat when I was fat- it was everyone else who thought I was overweight. Now... everyone thinks I look great & I feel like crap! I know this sounds so ungreatful and maybe it is, but I can't relate to myself anymore. I look in the mirror and pick every little thing appart. Now, don't get me wrong, there are days when I feel on top of the world (normally weightloss days) and the second I gain even a half a pound I feel like crap again! So, I'm going to tell you as an outsider looking in...you look AMAZING and you have done a phenominal job, but I do relate to you and understand where you are coming from. We can only hope with time, we can relate better to ourselves and start to accept our "new" flaws. Great job & congrats on your success.
When will I be happy with my body?
in My Secret Journey
A blog by julie.ann
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I can really relate with you on this one. People, like my husband, just can't understand why I am still unhappy with the way I look in the mirror. Sure, it is fun to shop for new smaller size clothes (now a 10, before a 18)- but to be honest, the second I take my clothes off to get in the shower & I see my self in the mirror, all is see is fat! I am 144lbs and you would think by loosing 75lbs, I would be ecstatic. However, I really was happier fat- as bad as that sounds. I never thought I looked fat when I was fat- it was everyone else who thought I was overweight. Now... everyone thinks I look great & I feel like crap! I know this sounds so ungreatful and maybe it is, but I can't relate to myself anymore. I look in the mirror and pick every little thing appart. Now, don't get me wrong, there are days when I feel on top of the world (normally weightloss days) and the second I gain even a half a pound I feel like crap again! So, I'm going to tell you as an outsider looking in...you look AMAZING and you have done a phenominal job, but I do relate to you and understand where you are coming from. We can only hope with time, we can relate better to ourselves and start to accept our "new" flaws. Great job & congrats on your success.