ALuv82

If I had any other options--which here at home I always would, I would never do it myself. I think it would piss off my surgeon. But say for example I got stuck at the coference I'm going to in November..in St. Kitts, where goats rome around the only open air hospital--and I could not get unstuck, I would do it to myself. I am a doctor after all--if I'm qualified to stick needles in every other member of the animal kingdom, I figure I'm qualfied to do it to myself. I've even cauterized off my own wart before.

Name********Starting weight*****Current*******Goal******To go ********************************:wink:**********:tt1:******* 1RockinMom.........254............220.........145.......75 Alleycia...........255............220.........152.......68 ALuv82.............280.5..........269.........200......69 AmethystJade.......231.8..........212.........150.......62.0 Babe...............308............272.........199.......73 Bellaperdente......196............177.........150.......27 Bklyn1984..........317............235.........165.......70 Bostongurl.........190............186.........133.......53 Brandy.............198............181.........166.......15 Cappy..............240............223.5.......130.......93.5 Chocolate_Snaps....244............219.........175.......44 CubsGirl17.........147............135.........130.......5 Clarebear08........192............166.........160.......6 Donna113...........183............172.5.......126.......46.5 dublingirl.........224............209.........145.......64 Ebonie.............307............298.8.......200.......98.8 EmmaWang...........241............203.........140.......63 FalloutGirl........282............278.........165.......112 FeliciaLevy75......200............194.........140.......54 FlordiaPete........413............364.........300.......64 GratefulHeart......226............187.........135.......52 GuyMontag..........325............276.........200.......76 health4life........279............239.........150.......89 inri09.............287............254.........185.......69 janesays...........225............189.........160.......29 kaninag............210............208.........170.......38 kimaly.............194............183.........160.......23 Lindar172..........246............218.6.......150.......68.4 Linksmom...........234............234.........145.......89 LocomotiveEngineer.311............311.........220.......91 Long2BThin.........216............178.........169........9 lotzasunshine......270............243.5.......180.......63.5 Loveislovely.......216............180.........175.......5 ltgordon...........284.8..........229.4.......185.......44.4 lucyavery..........205............205.........140.......65 Mair...............231............222.........140.......83 Mamanmidwife.......264............260.........200.......60 mdgarcia31665......220............220.........165.......55 MissNilsa..........180............180.........132.......48 nicolerose.........365............288.........258.......30 Pink...............230............152.........145........7 Rhea2d.............283............233.........185.......58 Sandra267..........220............220.........165.......55 Snow...............227............167.........141.......26 stacy73............285............214.........160.......54 Tabithan...........240............240.........200.......40 Tuger..............192............187.5.......130.......57.5 Under200...........242............199.........155.......44 vzghj3.............202............202.........150.......52 Wendy_Wo...........242............218.........142.......76 WOWOX7.............173............147.........125.......22

Interesting-- I do weigh multiple times a day but I haven't tried the before and after pee thing. I never get on before peeing--always after because I expect it to be lower post urination. I might have to check it out and see if the same thing happens to me.

The first time I had wine was abot 3 weeks post op--I was on mushies at the time and only had 1 small glass which I realy nursed. No problems with it at all. I would be wary about drinking 1 week out though because you aren't eating anything remotely solid yet. and drinking on an empty stomach is a no-no.

I've gone out once since the band and had 3 drinks. My only problem was deciding what to drink. I couldn't have deit coke because of the carbs and I didn't want to have all the calories of most other mixers. I wound up having vodka and cranberries despite the cals, but I would love some suggestions on less calroie dense, band friendly options.

12 total for me...34 to go. I'm keeping up with my 3 lb a week goal so far.

Egads, that's a hard one. I went with rich and fat because like people said, I could afford to take care of myself. Besides, other than the weight itself, some very mikld sleep apnea, and some occasional back spasms, I don't suffer from any other health problems at the moment and yesterday was the first time I weighed in not morbidly obese since college. Although, I think it's easier for me to imagine being rich than skinny. If I ever knew what skinny felt like, I might decide differently.

I'm scareed of a lot of the things that the rest of you have already pointed out--I'm afraid of all the loose skin after I lose the weight, I'm afraid of =complications down the line, I'm afraid of failure--but I'm also afraid of success. I just actually wrote a long blog about it. See, I didn't get to be this big for no reason. Being fat is a saftey net for me. I'm afraid of losing all the weight and being skinny and realizing that nothing has changed. I'm afraid of learning that the fat was just the symptom and not the problem. Because if that's the case, then what?

Eh, who needs hair anyway? It just weighs you down and makes the number on the scale that much bigger :thumbup:

How long have you been banded for? A lott of times people gain for a little while after the go back to solid foods because their metabolisms have shut down after being on the super restrictive liquid diet for so long. Don't sweat it..it's hard not to get discouraged, but you're doing the right thing and the results will show eventually.

So another month has passed and I'm back for another weigh-in. I'm down to 269# as of today. That means I officially have double digits until my goal (170) and my BMI is 39.7--I'm not morbidly obese anymore...woohoo!!! I've also made it back to the gym after my unfortunate back spasm-y deal a couple of weeks ago. I ran 30 minutes today starting at a 4.0 and working my way up to a 5.1, then I worked out with my trainer for an hour. I can do ab workouts again. I don't know if I'm excited about that or not. I have a feeling I will have some very sore ab muscles in the morning. Oh well, it's just the price I have to pay to get skinny. I also have an updated album posted with some progreess pictures for anyone interested... 2 months later Anyhoo, with out any further ado, here are my updated stats... Before Weight: 313.4# Chest: 52.5” Waist: 51.5” Hips: 59.5” Thigh: 29.5” Calf: 20” Arm: 21.5” Last month Weight: 281.0# Chest: 51” Waist: 45” Hips: 58” Thigh: 29.25” Calf: 19.75” Arm: 20” Now Weight: 269# Chest: 50" Waist: 45” Hips: 58” Thigh: 28” Calf: 18.25” Arm: 19”

I've still got 6.5# to goal. I think I was too ambitious. I started with a goal of 30# but I upped it to 35. I'll probably make the first goal but not the revised one. Not that 30# is anything to scoff at. I'm pretty happy. 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269 this week. That's 3.5 # lost. And if you look at my weight tracker you will notice that I officially have double digits to goal and my BMI is under 40. Woohoo for not being morbidly obese anymore.

Oh silly teen drivers. We were all there at one point weren't we. It sounds like you're doing the right thing--1st times is an accident, second time is just plain carelessness. I'm glad you had fun at the concert. I heard a story about a Buffet concert in NJ last weekend where some guy got drunk and his friends stuck him in the luggage compartment of a bus load of Parrotheads coming from Lancaster. He was OK, but man, that must be crazy. It's a good thing you had to nurse those Caronas and didn't drink too much or I shudder to think what could have happened, lol. And I have to say that while you may not be looking forward to your trip tomorrow, I am very jealous. I miss the old alma matter. Have fun at PSU. Say hi to the Joe Paterno and Nittany Lion statues for me :thumbup:

Thanks. A major reason I've been keeping this blog is so that I can start learning how to cope with these emotional issues related to losing the weight. I've stuffed my feelings down with food for so long that I don't know how to cope with them--or even what they are. They're so buried down that even I can't find them. I know I'm going to need a forum to deal with those emotions as they start coming back to the surface. I've also been continuing to see my psychologist that cleared me for surgery. The phsyical aspects of this journey aren't the only ones that we need to deal with.

It is common in the beginning to be able to eat more than the recommended portions. You have an empty band right now and while that is enough for a few people, most need to have some fills before they have adequate restriction. Right no the most important thing is letting your band heal properly. That means eating the recommended TYPES of food. That's more important than the portions. Eat the recommended portion slowly and if you're still hungry you can have a little more. However, make sure you're if you eat more it's because you're hungry and not just because you can. You want to eat until you're satisfied--not full.

I had an interesting reaction to something someone said the other day. I saw one of my neighbors and she was complementing me on my weight-loss, which was nice to hear, but then she said something about how I must feel so much better. I just shrugged, but for some reason I felt myself getting defensive, especially when she seemed incredulous at my non-committal reply. I don’t know why it bugged me so much. My first thought was that I was annoyed because everyone just assumes that because you’re fat you must feel like crap all the time. Well the truth is, I don’t and I didn’t. I have an active job and I was working out regularly long before the surgery or the weight-loss. Other than very mild sleep apnea and occasionally getting a muscle spasm thing-y in my lower back (which I suffered from all last week--40 pounds lighter than the last time I had it) I’m healthy. I figured that the assumption that losing 40 pounds should somehow make me feel like new irked me. In hind site, maybe the reason it bugged me so much is because a part of me had similar assumptions. Not so much about how I feel physically, but about how I feel mentally. Losing 40 pounds should feel better. I should feel better--about my weight, about my life…but I don’t. I know I’m not even a third of the way there yet and I know that losing the weight isn’t going to fix my life, but what if I never reach goal? What if I just lose the average 50 something percent of my excess weight? Will I feel any different then? And what if I do reach goal? Will that feel different? Or will I have only gotten rid of the symptom of my unhappiness and not the cause. Will it all be the same only in a different body? That’s a scary thought but a very real possibility. I know that in large part, I use my weight as a defense mechanism. If I go to party or a bar, or any other social situation, and I’m ignored, well then it’s because everyone else is superficial and judgmental, or insert adjective that makes it not my fault here. See, the thing is people can’t reject me if they don’t know me and my fat makes it easy for people to not get to know me. By being overweight, I have an excuse not to get close to people—not to really let anyone in. I hate to be one of those people who blame all their problems on their mother, but I do think she’s a large part of why I feel this way. You see, she’s manic depressive and throughout my life she has suffered through some major suicidal periods. Even when I was still just a kid she would tell me how she wanted to kill herself and how she had nothing in her life worth living for. It was this huge burden to have on my shoulders and in the long run I wound up resenting her for it. Now I think one of my biggest fears is to be like her. I’m afraid to let people get close to me because I’m afraid that I will be a burden to them. I hate to even ask people for favors like picking me up from the auto shop when I have to drop my car off for an oil change, let alone burdening them with the big stuff. So I don’t. I keep people at a distance so that I can’t hurt them like my mother hurt me. I keep them at a distance so that they never wind up resenting me like I resent her. And the thing is, losing weight is not going to change that. It’s not going to make me feel better about opening myself up. It’s not going to suddenly make it easy for me to let people in and cure my loneliness. So when people ask me if I feel better, maybe it just bothers me because a part of me knows that the healing I need to do, isn’t coping with diabetes or hypertension, or any other problem that can be solved by simply losing weight. And since everyone who’s ever tried to lose any substantial amount of weight knows how un-simple it is, it’s hard to imagine what it’s going to take for me to “feel better.” And what if I never do?