Don't feel alone girls. We guys are the same way. It's been 5 or 6 years since the last gf. I am now at the point where people are saying, "don't you want a gf?" Of course I do! How do you admit that you want one, but are not sure that one will want you. So, I just continue the lie of "NO WAY, I don't want anyone holding me back. I want to be able to do what I want when I want. I want to be able to pick up and move at a moment's notice." Hopefully the weight loss will bring me to a point that I can approach girls and put myself out there.