1day at a time

Kimaly - Sorry I didn't see this post. This happen to me,first I was told by my Dr office not to eat 2 hours before going to bed. You could also try Gavascon liquid if you wake up with it again it helps push the acid back down and has a numbing agent. However for me it got so bad I needed to have an unfill ( My Dr also put me on Prilosec for 2 months since my stonach was swollen) which I am so struggling right now since my Dr took out half of my fluid. Not to scare you but I was not prepared mentally and have gain some weight back. I have gone two months with only 3.5cc and it has sucked but I go back the 4th for a fill and to do this right. Remember I am paying for cobra insurance which is 1300 a month but now it has jump to almost 1700 for the new year. We will most likely have to let this go which scares me because of the meds we take and what if something happens. I will not be offered insurance until Dec 2010 if they keep me as a part timer. I home they will need full timers soon cause then I will get insurance in Sept. Which is still to far away. I am diabetic and have HBP which got better when I lost the weight. Sorry to ramble I just feel terrible about gaining the weight. I feel ashamed. But I am trying to deal with it and fake it till I make. Try the gavscon and not eating 2 hrs before bed and also try to sleep elevated a little this should help so you won't have to go nack to the Drs office. (Oh I pay 100 to see my Dr each visit so I do not go that often. I am sorry if I depressed you. That was not my intention. Love you girl keep strong. I hope you have a wonderful and Happy New Year's 2011 will be our year.

Cheri - I 2nd this motion. Okay on to me so I did get a nice shirt for tonight. I have to work 10-6 today then my DH will pick me up I will get ready and we will go to the party. I found out we are not actually spending the night (yeah). However my son with be at my parents for the night. So yesterday was my DH friend's 30 birthday. We met her whole family and some friends at a resturant i got a little panic when I realized I had not seen one girl since my wedding 10 years ago and I remembered I was much smaller then. But then as Apples says " I put on my big girl panties" and had a good time. Last night when we went to Walmart to find a shirt for me I found some waterproof shoes for my job (my feet get soaked everytime I clean the chicken room) I struggled to tie the shoes I felt so bad on the inside. I can't help but to feel fat and ugly but I am going to see the Dr on the 4th and get my much needed feel. I will get better I know it "1 Day at a time right, 1 hour at a time 1 minute at a time. Do what it takes. I am saying it but don't feel it. I am going to fake it till I make it. New question who eats out of small little cup size or smaller bowls or plates. I currently eat on a small salad plate or a small coffee cup but I think I need smaller bowls like kiddie size (correct portion sizes for my LB journey) any suggestions what do you guys use. I saw Alrene mentioned kiddie bowls. In case I can't get back on today I hope everyone has a safe and Happy New Year's

Cheri - Happy Birthday and love the quote Meredith - I am so glad the dog was found Thank you to everyone for the responses on the party. To answer questions the party is for my DH friend so he wants to go. I will know alot of people there and everyone is right I am hiding out cause of my weight. I will go and have a great time. So my DH car is in the show so we are sharing my car. I chose to walk home from work instead of waiting for an hour until he could come get me. It only took 23mins which is pretty good.

Okay I need some help making a decision I am going to a friends Bday dinner tonight no big deal. However we were invited my my DH friends to a big NYE party. Friends, food, Pictures taken against a NYC back drop a really big event. My question is should I go? I feel like crap from gaining all this weight don't want my picture taken, it will take an hour and a half to get there, we have to spend the night, taking my son to my parents which is in a different direction and then have my aunt's surprise 60th party the next day. Oh and I have to get something to where. What whould you do? On my way to work I will check back in later I would love any response

My Dr use some kind of numbing wipe and then sticks the needle right in. It has never hurt me I have only needed a bandaid once.

Tina - I am sorry you are having to deal with this. Just do it for yourself and don't worry what she says. She will eat her words. Some people have spouses that were not supportive in the begining but then became supportive when they saw the changes in there mate. Phyl - sorry that your friend passed from a stroke. Joyce - Take it easy on that knee! Lori - Keep us updated on your DD. Hugs and Prayers going your way. Tx - Why two needles or were you messing with your son?

Tina - This is how I got started on my journey. I did beat myself up before I had my LB. My highest was 283. My I had it moment was when I went to CA. for a vaca and went to an animal park with my Mom. You had to walk everywhere and it was long hilly walks. I had to get a ride back to the front of the park from a guy with a golf cart because I could not walk anymore I felt so ashamed. And I was sweating so much I felt like a pig. Also I was with my sister and my mom and they kept saying I kept them up from snoring so much at night and that was caused by my weight. I came back home and started the process for the LB. I originally wanted to have bypass like my Mom however I had Liver surgery in the past and due to the adhesions it was safer for me to have the LB. I got my band on 07/03/2008 and followed my Drs plans to a T and my lowest weight was 211. Then I guess I got cocky and also got my band to tight and started gaining weight due to me not following my Drs rules. So right now by my posts you can see I am struggling because my Dr took out alot of Fluid out of my band. He did this because I was to tight and had problems with reflux. So I am very open right now and I am having trouble staying on the plan cause I can eat anything I want. So Janet, Apples, Cheri, Charlene and the others are helping me get back on the band wagon.

I am so proud of you and your hard work I love seeing your blog on You Tube. You have come along way from a tough time to start to look at you now WTG Girl!!!

Tina - I don't mind saying. When I started this journey I was 283 the lowest I got was 211 so far. I started to get cocky and my head got in the way. I asked for another fill thinking that would prevent my bad choices (which it did not it only made me tighter and gave me more problems). I also was laid off of work twice within my LB journey and I am an emotional eater so I was eating foods I was not supposed to which as anyone knows makes you feel good for like a second and then you feel horrible. I also got acid reflux from eating too late and eating the wrong things and worst of all being too tight. I tried to deal with it on my own and with the help of my friends here but it got to the point I had to go back to the Dr (just a note my surgeon is an hour and half away and I pay $100 for each visit due to the fact my insurance did not pay for the LB I had too) When I finally saw the Dr he took about half of my saline out (due to he was afraid I might get a slip and he knew my stomach was irratated and swollen) which basically put me back to the begining with the band. Now I can pretty much eat anything including things I could not eat for along time because I was too tight like cold drinks, fruit and salads. So the weight gain is all my fault and not following my surgeons directions. So please follow your surgeons directions. I go back on 01/04/10 to see my Dr and get a fill I hope. I try to do this my self but there is no restriction I am in what they call banster hell. Like what Janet said she mentally could eat more but doesn't. What hurts the most right now is my hubby and son have notice the weight gain and it makes me feel so bad I say I want to get to onderland but my actions have not changed. I actually do take meds for anxiety which help but my head is stuck in a rut. I am trying to force my head to get back in the swing of things by changing my job to a more physical type job which my back is freaking out about. I could walk to work which is 3.2 miles driving distance but my hubby and son are afraid things might happen to me walking not sure why it is not in a bad area and there are sidewalks. Okay I am just gabbing away I hope this answers your questions. Tina you are right I will do this. I just have to get out of the hole I created for myself with all this sugar and carbs I have been eating. Also I have tried to give my problems over to GOD but I have problems letting go. My Best Friend is helping me with my journey towards giving things to GOD I am a work in progress with that.

Tina - Janet is right except I am still working on the I WILL. Okay practice I will take control of my weight and deal with my head issues

Jessica - I am so happy for you. Congratulations on Onederland. I am so proud of you. Like someone else said you shuld read your old posts and see how far you came. You are doing awesome keep it up. WTG!!!! :success1: :waytogo: As for me woke up and my back was acting up but now I am better. I guess it is just being stiff in the morning. Oh and this back thing happen from a car accident a long long time ago but forgot all about it since I sat all day and now I being very physical at work plus I out alot of weight back on, so when that comes off I should be doing better. Janet - I am glad I am still a baby to ya. :iloveuall: :huggie:

Meredith - they used to call Mono the Kissing disease I got it when I was a baby and my Mom was like who have I been kissing LOL Arlene - 2 pounds Yeah !!! Keep up the good work Linda - you are so right So my back feels much better the Dr actually wrote my muscle relaxer script to take up to 4 times a day I did not do it cause I was afraid it was going to make me sleepy. But since I was in so much pain this morning (And my husband was driving me to work since his car is being worked on) I have been taken the muscle relaxer through out the day. I also did not lift anything heavy. Since I am off the next two days I will try and take it easy. I also bought some Soup and Protein drinks to get back on the Protein train. Choo Choo !!!! Tina - by the way I am 34 for a couple more weeks so according to Janet I am a baby as well. I am glad someone still thinks I am a baby LOL

Tina - I can do it again I know it. I just have to keep at it. Eva - When I get in to work I am going to ask for a brace. I pray I can make it through today I have to be there for 5 hours then two days off.

"Remember all those resolutions you made in the past? It's time to recommit to them. All signs indicate that you need to take better care of yourself. You've been so busy working that exercising has begun to feel like a luxury you can't afford. Actually, exercise and proper nutrition are luxuries you can't afford to ignore. You're burning the candle at both ends. Stop before you burn out completely!" This was my Capricorn Horoscope for the day I think it says alot about what some of us are going through right now.

This is my Horoscope for the day I think it applies for some of us. "Remember all those resolutions you made in the past? It's time to recommit to them. All signs indicate that you need to take better care of yourself. You've been so busy working that exercising has begun to feel like a luxury you can't afford. Actually, exercise and proper nutrition are luxuries you can't afford to ignore. You're burning the candle at both ends. Stop before you burn out completely!"

My DH thought the same way however as I lost the weight I became more confident which has helped our marriage. However, with me gaining weight I feel so terrible because he has noticed but he thinks it could be another reason like my Diabetes or my Liver issues. But really it is me and my emotionally eating which I have to work on again. So I can get this weight back off. Only I can fix this no one else is to blame.

Going to work today at 1pm I am going to ask for a back brace that will hopefully help with my back issues. Then i am off for the next 2 day yeah Peaches - Loved the poem as well

Peaches - I needed this. I needed a reminder too put it all in God's hands and he will take care of me. Thank You Tina - can you go to a therapist together seperate from yours? Or do you feel that if you work on you it wil help you both? Just wondering. I don't remember have you been with your partner a long time?

Tina - Sorry about your relationship troubles. You can not live in constant conflict, I tried in my previous marriage it does not work. I have found there is so much more in life even if it is by yourself. Maybe it is a blessing in disguise. Meaning now you will be able to focus on you and your LB journey. Get back to being happy with yourself and someone will come along that is better for you. I truly believe that. Don't be scared we are all here for you. Great - I am glad things are better for your DD. Tell her to take it easy stay off her feet. I am praying for you guys. Keep us posted. Okay my turn so we all know my job is very physical now, which I love however I woke up this morning with shooting pains from my lower back down both my knees I can't bend over and only can sit for a little bit then have to lay flat. I have been given muscle relaxers and anti-inflammatories to take. I was only taking the muscle relaxers at night due to they make me sleepy. However today I can take them as the script was written 3-4 times a day. My DH is driving my car today so I don't have to worry about driving and I do not go to work until 1pm it is 8:30am right now so I am hoping I get better. It could be a mixture of the weight gain and the hard labor at work. I have to lift 50lb boxes of chicken several times a day. I am very aware of how to lift properly maybe I still need a back brace. I can't lose this job and I really need them to make me full time. They just told us yesterday all the part timers will be going to 20 hrs a week ughhh how can I pay my bills with that. It seems I am having terrible luck with my jobs latley.

Peaches - that was too funny

So for the first time since 1880 we had snow in GA on Christmas day. We got 3 inches yesterday (I leave in Northern GA the Gainesville area) with more coming today; actually it is snowing a little right now. I know not a big deal for those of you that live in snowy areas however GA pretty much shuts down when we get this much snow since no one knows how to drive in it I guess. Being from Fl this is a fun a rare event and it is so pretty if I can get a picture posted I will. Janet - that is a cool article to find on Christmas and it was interesting to read as well

Merry Christmas Everyone !!!! I wish you all a wonderful time with your family and friends.

Janet - I think alot of us who are on here love the tough love you and others give that is why many of us feel we need to put it out there what we have been doing that is wrong. Typing it out (or say it out loud to someone) helps me however I may wait a little to long to do so. I don't have the guts to do what Jewel does posting on You tube (which I love to see her posts) but posting here is the best for me.