1day at a time

Thank You to everyone that posted about what I am going through. Cheri I do not take offense to anything people say but you are correct I am rebelling against everyone and everything by putting my own health at risk. It is all I can control. But the good news I have an appointment finally with my shrink I had before I got my lapband. It is Tues. I am so happy. He deals with eating issues and has helped in the past with my anxiety. Alot of work I need to do on myself but at least I already have a connection with him and I know he can help. And yes I need to stand up to my husband and other food pushers in my life. I am supposed to go to my LB Dr Monday but I think I will be wasting $100 cause my issue is my head a fill is not going to help. I mean it will give me restriction but we can eat around our bands if we want. If I go he will just see I gained weight or at least have not lost.

I have talked to him in the past. But I guess because I buy the crap sometimes when I am having a bad day; that I guess he thinks she is not trying and she does not care about her self. I am trying to go see my old shrink that gave me permission to have my LB. I have called twice for an appt still waiting on a call back. Maybe if I can show him I am trying then he will change. That happen to me once when I had my lip waxed. Never had it waxed again. It hurt so bad. I shaved it for a while and then had kaser hair removal. I found an awesome eyebrow waxer I will not go to anyone else. She even did my son's eyebrows and was so careful not to hurt him (someone scared him once) Happy Birthday Arlene!!! Have a wonderful day. Hugs and Love :party::party: :party:

Who was the one that said they had or read the book "Dying to Change" written by Katie Jay?

Found the name of it the book is called Fighting Weight written by Kahliah Ali with the help of that Dr and two others.

Phyl what was the name of the book Fielding co wrote?

Cheri I will look for some funny sayings and jokes to post on FB. I have seen some woman with cancer chose to cut or shave their head before chemo makes it fall out. That way they are chosing it not a drug. Like kind of a cermony type of thing. There was also a movie called "Why I Wore Lipstick to My Mastectomy (2006)" Thank you for all your advice for me and the rest of us. Know we are praying for you and your family. Loves and hugs

Charlene - Not really, trying to fake till I make it. I had a very hard time last night my husband comes in the door with alot of valentine candy that was marked done to 79 cents. If he would have said nothing I would be find. I am so down right now. I feel like I have no friends (except you guys) I mean true friend not just people I know.

Okay saw the post saying to post here So I am posting away LOL

Good Afternoon everyone (Well here on the east coast anyway) LOL I am happy with keeping this thread. Just let me know, but I actually get the notifications so I am good with any thread as long as I get to talk to you all. Love to everyone

I just saw your post. Are you still looking for someone to chat with? I live in Oakwood Ga. Where is N. GA do you live?

So where is everyone. Check in so we know you guys are okay. Miss talking to my fellow 08 banders. Kimaly - R u doing okay? Maggies Mom 1999 - How are you Everyone else what are you up to?

Thanks Charlene I am I am trying to take it one day at a time but I feel like I am drowning. Actaully before I saw your post today I just called my insurance company and the Shrink I saw that gave me permission to have the surgery is on my approved list. I am really excited i called the office and left a message saying I wanted to come back and when could I get an appt. I hope they call today LOL too funny on the butthead comment. It made me laugh Linda - thanks so much your words help me and you are right heck everyone is right. I am allowing my circumstances get in the way of my health. Heck i am letting my disease dictate what I can do and that is wrong, but sometimes I feel trapped. Great - you are so right I do look outwards and blame other things, but I need to look inwards and get a handle on this. Thanks for the post it does hit the nail of the head for me Love the Quote You know I need to watch what I do. Sometimes I except my diesease and sometimes I hate it. I take my meds I just don't eat the best all the time my DH worries about me he said he does not want anything to happen to me

Linda - what you say makes sense. Okay so I have been hiding. I have been reading but still avoiding. I know I need to be here for my family and owe it to myself to get better ecspecially with being Diabetic and have high blood pressure and anxiety issues. I really do take to heart what everyone says to me but I feel Like I am in front of a big hill. I can get through day 1 of the pouch test but cave and eat carbs and sweets. Maybe I just need to follow the protein only as linda mentioned above. I am really sick about talking, and thinking about my weight, it runs in my family on my moms side (the weight issues) I hate it. It is like I can get so far and sabatoge myself. (My Mom does the same thing she had gastric bypass in 2000 but even though she lost the weight had a tummy tuck and abreast reduction she still complains about her weight. Which is where I get it from, I believe. I want to give up except for this board and all the friends I have here. I have a friend who is very overweight but she is a debbie downer and it gets harder and harder to talk to her (I try to motivate her hoping she will motivate me back but when she stops working out she talks me into doing the same) . Then I have a friend from childhood who has always been thin and she says i need to give all my concerns and troubles over to GOD and he will help me. Besides all of this my depression and mood swings are up do to my T.O.M. is on right now. Sorry I am just have been down a couple of days with all this hormonal stuff. My son is always there for me to go walking ,play tennis etc but sometimes I get home from work and want to sleep or our schedules conflict he comes home from school and I am going to work. I do take time for me everyday and have a bath at night so it is just me and a good book for a the least 15 mins but sometimes I get more time. I can do so much more but with my stressors at home about money and the health insurance, taxes and praying a full time position will open soon takes it tolls. Usually my meds I am on work but not during my hormally time. I need to make friends with someone who is into fitness or something so I can have that push right in front of me calling me out on my BS. (I can't afford a trainer or I would do that.) This board is great for that but I have not found anyone local. Oh on the last episode of HEAVY the woman Jill was from Gainesville, GA right next to me. She was a closet eater and hid her food litterally in the closet. I don't hid it I just am a food addict ecspecially to the wrong foods, comfort foods. I looked up what it would cost to go to that place in Hilton Head but it is way to much money. Sorry for the long downer post but that is where am am right now. I feel ashamed and defeatded. I go to the Dr and pay $90 to say the same thing and admit to not excersing I might not go. Besides even though I want a fill not sure I really need it I would mostly want it for my head anyway and we all know they do not do that yet. I know my post was all over the place so I hope you all could keep up.

Laura and Cheri Prayers for you and your families. Sorry guys fly by I have been busy I will try to post longer tomorrow Love to all

Prayers, Love, and Hugs we are all here for you

My pick for the DOB is 02/28 at 6am.

My Nephew just left. It was very tiring but fun. I just loved him up. He is only 11 weeks old, I forgot what it was like to get up every couple hours. Actually he sleeps pretty good. After you give him dinner bottle he goes to bed for about 4 hours then gets up again. But when you are used to sleeping through the night. Anyways going to bed early love U all Happy Birthday Laura

I forgot to mention I will have my 10 week old nephew for the whole weekend. I can't wait I will pick him up soon. He is just to cute he is starting to talk (meaning baby talk) he is more expressive now. So I will try to post this weekend if I can but can't promise anything. Love to all

Jimmy K is a jerk I can't believe he did a segment on the LB. I could say alot more but I don't want to throw stones in a glass house. Laura - That was such a sweet story. I hope he takes all your help and advice and runs with it. He is only 21 he has a long life ahead of him. I never asked what do you do?

Thanks Eva for the Encouragement in fact that you every one for all the advice you give me

Cheri - To answer your question. For me talking about stuff that is a craving makes me want it. Watching a weight loss show makes me hungry. I guess I am crazy but when people say no; I want to have it. I guess like Janet said I still have diet mentality. How do you get over that? It has always been no to this or no to that in regards to food. When I try moderation I think I may try to soon in my weight loss journey cause once I have a taste I go into a tail spin and want more and more and more. I actually have never been in matienance yet since I am still dealing with my junked up head in regards to old ways of thinking when it comes to food. Some where I read that even artificial sweetners are bad cause they make everything taste sweeter. But what do you do? I really only put splenda in my coffee, but there is sweetner in everything even greek yogurt, my last trip to the grocery store and I could not believe how much fake stuff their is in our food. Look at your gum, mints, dressings, crystal light, cheese I mean what the heck how do you get away from it and not cost yourself a small fortune doing so. Even though I gave up soda and also bubbly Water as of 2008 I still get the caffine from my coffee even though I have at the max 2 cups a day. Sorry for the run on post after what Cheri posted made me think.

So I got this from a friend and I thought this was so profound I would post it for all of you Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or are too rigid to depart from their routine. I got to thinking one day about all those people on the Titanic who passed up dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back. From then on, I've tried to be a little more flexible. How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest going out to dinner until after something had been thawed? Does the word 'refrigeration' mean nothing to you? How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched 'Jeopardy' on television? I cannot count the times I called my sister and said , 'How about going to lunch in a half hour?' She would gas up and stammer, 'I can't. I have clothes to fold. My hair is dirty. I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late Breakfast, It looks like rain' And my personal favourite: 'It's Monday.' She died a few years ago. We never did have lunch together. Because we cram so much into our lives, we tend to schedule our headaches.. We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all the conditions are perfect! We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Steve toilet-trained. We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet. We'll go on a second honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college. Life has a way of accelerating as we get older. The days get shorter, and the list of promises to ourselves gets longer. One morning, we awaken, and all we have to show for our lives is a litany of 'I'm going to,' 'I plan on,' and 'Someday, when things are settled down a bit.' When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and available for trips. She keeps an open mind on new ideas. Her enthusiasm for life is contagious. You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee cord. My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years. I love ice cream. It's just that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and eliminate the digestive process. The other day, I stopped the car and bought a triple-decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died happy. Now...go on and have a nice day. Do something you WANT to...not something on your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting? Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain lapping on the ground? Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at the sun into the fading night? Do you run through each day on the fly? When you ask 'How are you?' Do you hear the reply? When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores running through your head? Ever told your child, 'We'll do it tomorrow.' And in your haste, not see his sorrow? Ever lost touch? Let a good friendship die? Just call to say 'Hi'? When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown away.... Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over. 'Life may not be the party we hoped for... but while we are here we might as well dance!'

You are so right Janet 35 years of doing that, I guess it is just stuck in my head.

I worked until 9 tonight so I came home to flowers, chocolate and pizza. I love flowers they are my favorite to get. I actually got a mixed flowers bouquet I love this more than getting roses. (My Opinion) I think roses are just too commerical. I mean 50 dollars for something that is going to die, really you could get so much more. My husband knows me by now so he knows what I like. Day 3 of the 5 day pouch test and I caved well actually I caved yesterday at the movies with the pocorn. So Day 1 tomorrow. The chocolate is not even my fave so I think I will take it to work tomorrow or throw it out. Like flowers I like simple chocolate. Anyways I had a good day.

Sorry about your fall. I hope you feel better soon. Sandy Happy Birthday to you.