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being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

There are two things that helped me tremendously:
1.) At my initial surgical consultation, the surgeon told me that after you gain 50 or more pounds, your body won't let you successfully lose weight without resetting your hormones. So all those times I lost weight, I was guaranteed to gain it all back and then some. Years of yo-yo dieting since I was in 7th grade added up and it wasn't because I didn't have any willpower or I needed to exercise more (I was constantly walking to train for the SGK 3 Day 60 mile events). When I heard this, I began to sob with relief from the weight being lifted off my shoulders.
2.) When I went my therapist and told her about my Mom and the constant diets I was on since middle school (even though I was the smallest girl on my volleyball team), she made me look at things differently. She said that my Mom had horrible diet advice but I needed to remember that the advice was coming from a place of love. My Mom had seen how hard it was for my Aunt growing up and she didn't want me going through that. While it was difficult to hear this, it allowed me to forgive my Mom & myself and move forward. It has allowed me to quiet that inner voice and stop beating myself up for every little thing that I perceive that isn't perfect.
Losing the weight is easy, I have done it at least 10 times. Keeping it off was the hard part. By doing the "head work" I am able to identify my triggers for comfort food and do something different like walk the dog, knit to keep my hands occupied while watching a movie with the hubby and chose healthier versions like cukes when I want something crunchy. Also I allow myself to eat a craving if I really want it. 4 Doves milk chocolate squares have a certain melt in your mouth texture that I love. Other brands of chocolate aren't the same. Every day, every meal, every bite is a choice you make. They all won't be the healthiest but I make sure if I am going to waste valuable stomach space on a food, that it is worth it. My husband laughs when I spit something into a napkin because to me it isn't flavorful enough or it doesn't have the right mouthfeel - this was when I was craving vanilla bean ice cream and nothing was right. When I talk to my surgeon, he told me to have the real stuff - just limit how much. Sure enough it only took one small scoop and then I didn't touch it again.
Sorry for the rambling but I hope this helps

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes

being able to fit on a roller coaster seat with my kids
More energy
Fitting into cute clothes and shopping at regular online stores, not having to worry if they carry plus size clothes