EmilyNoLimits

Hi,
I just wanted to introduce myself. I had my lap-band done in 2015 but I wasn’t really motivated and wasn’t consistent with eating well and filling it. I started at 354, didn’t lose for the first two years and then went down to 275, but now I am back where I started. I have gone through trauma and only recently when I did EMDR did I feel connected with my body like never before.
I now feel like I have hit rock bottom. I don’t even know how much I weigh (my home scale goes up to 330), and recently I have begun to feel like I am losing mobility. It’s getting harder to walk (or am I only now aware since I stopped dissociating?) and I hate going to work because I feel like I am pooping out of my clothes.
I cried tonight about my weight for the first time. I want my kids to have a mother. I am going to make an appointment first thing tomorrow and fill my band again.