StrangeDz

Depression can feel like a curse sometimes. I'm having my meds tweaked after they started making me sick to my stomach after passing through the pouch. I am tight to a point where anything in a gel cap or bigger than an m & m gets struck. Finding something that works for me and wont make me puke is becoming a challenge. What totally sucks is that my meds were adjusted PERFECT; but then they all of a sudden started making me sick. Go figure. I'm now on Lexapro (same family as Celexa), small dose of Elavil (what was making sick at a higher dose) and Trazidone at night. I feel better than without anything, but am still not 100%. Sigh....

I haven't received any updates from any of the threads I post in for about a week! What's up with that?? Well, I gained 1.5 pounds since Thanksgiving.... Not too bad considering, I guess. LOL I drank a considerable amount of wine Thanksgiving day... I wonder if that had anything to do with it because I really didn't eat very much....

I'm interested, but wasnt aware that there were any support groups in Albuquerque. Nice to meet you!

This is my first time back since the infamous Cheeto post, and it sure has changed! Not sure if I like it yet, but I guess I'll find out either way! Is everyone ready for Thanksgiving? What is everyone doing? As for myself and my girls, we go to grandmas every year... have been since the beginning of time! I'm in charge of the rolls.. I know, SO important! Ha! I think gma felt sorry for me and wanted me to feel included. I cant even eat rolls! I guess that is a good thing, right??? My youngest daughter Mel, the cheerleader, hurt her wrist in practice Saturday, so I had to take her to the urgent care last night. Fortunately, it isnt broken, just a sprain. They gave her a brace. The girls on the team gave her a hard time tho. Makes me mad. They can be so mean to each other. See, they have a competition coming up on December 4th and they need her for one of the stunt groups. They told her that if someone needs to see a dr for an injury, they should do it a month before a competition, not 2 weeks before. WTH??? How can you see the doc if you arent hurt yet??? Dumb kids. LOL

You and me both! They have chocolate at work in the candy dish and once I have one, I cant stop! It's sickening how obsessed I become with it. I hate it....

I went from being over full (only able to eat 1/8th cup) and having some taken out to now being able to eat over 1 cup and being hungry in a few hours... ugh. So hard to find that perfect place! My doc only does fills on Wednesdays too and I have a 8 hour drive to see him. I lost 13 lbs in 2 weeks being over full and have gained 4 lbs back since my unfill two weeks ago! ACK!

I have one thing to say and that is: CHEETOS ARE EVIL! If I'm not careful, I'll end up like this! :thumbup:

I've been on amitriptyline for my depression for about 5 years now and I never had any problems until after a fill this last April. About 15 minutes after taking them, I start to puke violently! Now my band is so tight, it is physically impossible to puke so I dry heave! Its so painful and it makes me cry! My surgeon swears its not the band because its not getting 'stuck' and my primary doc has been trying all sorts of anti nausea pills to stop the dry heaving. None have helped at all, so after much discussion with my surgeon and doc, we think I may be taking too high a dose now that I've lost 90 pounds and may be overdosing! I'm slowly decreasing my dosage, but have to use anti nausea suppositories until we can figure this out. I hate suppositories! ...but then who likes 'em, huh?? Sometimes I have to take 2 or 3 to keep myself from getting violently sick. Lowering the dosage of course, brings on withdrawal from the amiltriptyline and is so hard on me. The withdrawal causes dizziness, drowsiness and lethargy. I am so tired I dont want to do anything! Getting my big butt up every morning just to get to work is an ordeal! Granted, I'm not sad, so it doesnt feel like depression, i'm just so sleepy! They say its my neural transmitters that dont know how to work on their own and it will pass. In the mean time, I dont want exercise. I find it hard to even do simple chores when I get home from work. ugh! I dread taking my pills at night, but they have been the only med that has actually helped with my depression. I'm just hoping this is the answer and I can get back to my life and this nightmare will be over soon! ~~~~ I've recently found that 50 mg of the amiltriptylene doesn't make me sick, but I definitely need something in addition to it. This just isn't cutting it. My doc tried Zoloft, but it also made me puke. Go figure! So now I've been on Lexapro for about a week. I dont feel any better emotionally, but at least i'm not dry heaving and have stopped the suppositories! :blushing:

I was taking the generic for Elavil (Amitriptyline) at 150 mgs at bedtime and about 15 minutes after I would feel like I was gonna die! They weren't getting stuck (I cut them and mashed them and took them with food... nothing helped). I finally decided to cut the dose slowly and am now able to keep down 50 mgs without feeling sick to my stomach. It's not enough help tho. I definitely need something else to help with the blues. My surgeon and primary docs are at a loss. I've been taking trazadone at bedtime now to help sleep. We cant understand why after all these years, my pills are making me sick to my stomach. There is no medical reason for it, other than my chemistry must have changed... who knows...

Sure. I'm 42 and had my surgery in April of 2008. I live with my two teenage daughters; who keep me on my toes! My oldest is 17 and plays volleyball, is in chorus, and is the school mascot, Herbie the Hornet. My 15 year old is a varsity cheerleader. I'm an active member in the cheer booster club and spend most of my time supporting the above activities. Now about my band life... I fight it every day. I've got 8.25ccs in a 10cc band. About a month ago, I had a fill of .50 and discovered that after losing 13 lbs in 2 weeks, I was too tight. I couldnt get much liquid in and got full after about an 1/8th cup of food. I went for an unfill and they took out .25cc. Now I am too loose! I can eat about a cup of food and have the urge to eat CONSTANTLY (a little confession... I'm eating a Reese's Buttercup as I type! :blushing:) I've gained 4 pounds since my unfill. ugh. ...but it's all on me. If I could stay away from the chocolate and cheetos, i'd be much better off, right?? :w00t: My doc will be back in town towards the end of January, so I will go back for a little fill and hope that does the trick. I suffer from chronic depression and had my meds under control for the last 5 years UNTIL... they started making me puke. Violently. and because of the restriction, I cant physically puke, so I would get the dry heaves BAD. OMG, that was horrible. We tried everything, including anti nausea pills, but nothing helped. We had to slowly wean me off of them and are now trying other anti depression meds. Zoloft made me puke too, so I have been on Lexapro for about a week. It doesnt seem to make me sick, so I'm hoping it will help with the depression... Think good thoughts for me.

I agree with the above. I'm tight in the mornings and drink a warm cup of tea. That usually does me fine until about 1:00 for lunch. As the day goes on, I too, can eat more and more. :blushing:

I hear you on that too tight thing. I had a partial unfill and went from only being able to eat a 1/8 cup of food to being able to eat a whole cup of food and being hungry 3 hours later. I've gained 4 pounds on the last few weeks since, and it's so hard to find the balance. All I want to do it eat.... now that I can!

Hi Suzie and crzytchr! Thanks for the welcome!

Amen Sister!

amen sister!!!

I hear you on that! I dont have any winter clothes that fit me! Mostly shirts... I went from a 24 to a 14 and darned if EVERYTHING is too darn big! Sounds like a complaint but its really exciting!

I went 6 months before my first fill and my doc makes me wait 4-6 weeks between fills now. He says it takes that long for the swelling of the last fill to go down and for your body to figure out the new change. Sometimes after waiting 4 weeks, you realize you may not need a fill after all. Every surgeon is different, so yours may tell you different.

Ohhhhhhhh.... I have a list of things! Oh, the little things 'normal' sized people take for granted... I can fit in a booth at any restaurant (right before my surgery, I didnt fit in a booth at Denney's. I was SO humiliated!) I can paint my own toe nails I dont need an extention on an airplane to buckle up! I hated that... so embarrassing! I can wear jeans with pockets and a zipper and button! I lived in stretchy pants with an elastic waist for so long! I fit in amusement park rides. I remember being so sad because I couldnt ride the swings because I couldnt push the bar down over my belly. I can tie my own tennis shoes! I wore sandals the year before my surgery because I couldnt tie my shoes! I can go hiking pretty much anywhere I want! 2 years ago, I wouldnt have made it! I am not anywhere near where I want to be, but I am on my way! I am in such a better place than I was 2 1/2 years ago!

I had a mini Blizzard and cheetos for dinner... WTF is wrong with me??? How do I expect to lose ANYTHING eating food like that??? I'm so disgusted with myself... ugh.

My first and I'm IN! :thumbup:

That's an interesting perspective on this whole tightness thing... Some days I can eat like there is no tomorrow and some days very very little. Maybe it is the sodium... hmmmmmmmmm... Thanks for your support, Fluff! I will keep on keeping on. :thumbup:

Yeah, I was too tight. I couldn't even keep down liquids. I could only eat a few bites and was stuffed. Sounds great, except I was sooooooo thirsty! They put .5cc in and I had them take out .25cc three weeks later. I guess that was too much to take out. I have 8.25cc in a 10cc band. I know I need a fill, but my doc wont be in town until the end of January, so I just have to hang in there. I drove 8 hours for the unfill because I had to, but cant justify driving another 8 hours a few weeks later to get some put back in.... I wish I could tho! I dont want to gain it all back!!!

As hard as it is for me to admit this, I havent been back on track. I cut out the high calorie drinks, but am still munching on cheese, chocolate bars and ice cream... ugh. I've gained 4 pounds in a week! First I had too much in my band and lost 13 pounds in two weeks and had some taken out, now I dont have enough in my band and can eat whatever the heck I want!

I eat this quite often, but I usually dont finish the mashed potatoes. The chicken is PERFECT for getting in protein with low calories. Plus it is only about $2 at Wal-Mart! :rolleyes2: Serving Size 8.88Oz Servings Per Container 1 Amount Per Serving Calories 250 Calories From Fat 90 Total Fat 10g Saturated Fat 3g Polyunsaturated Fat 2.5g Monounsaturated Fat 3g Cholesterol 60mg 20%Sodium 730mg Total Carbohydrates 20g Dietary Fiber 1g Sugars 2g Protein 20g Calcium 4% Iron 2%

I could gulp until I hit 8.5 cc in a 10 cc band. Then I could barely sip! I had .25 cc taken out last week, as I had lost 13 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks! Now, I still cant gulp, but can get a small drink down every 5 minutes...