SkyeBlu

just over a year ago I went out and bought a set of "how did I get this fat and need to get rid of it quick" work out clothes, unfortunately after my back surgery I gained some more weight and those clothes (in a size I SWORE was the biggest I was ever going to be in my life...yeah right)didn't fit quite right. Well..... Today i wore that outfit (bra and all) to go walk on the treadmill at the gym today!!!!! I actually did a little happy dance when the bra went right on with no pulling, tugging, swearing or contortionist moves. I love those silly little moments that make us smile! Skye

I have had many moments of "oh my gosh what did I do" over the past week! The worst was the other night.....I got into an argument with DH and did what I normally do grabbed the closest comfort food and stormed upstairs, fortunately my food was a chocolate protien shake. I sat down in my room and started to cry because I was so damn angry with him, in between my sobs I took 2 HUGE chugs of my shake (I was 5 days post-op) and OMG it hurt! I got so mad at myself for abusing my body....I got so mad at myself for turning again to food....I got mad at the band for not letting me inhale a bag of popcorn or a twix bar....I got mad at my husband for making me upset. And I cried! Then I realized I was the most upset about not having the same coping mechanism I have had for 20+ years EATING AND EATING AND EATING when I feel badly. I then was crying because I was mourning food, I didn't fully understand what this meant when I was pre-op...now I get it! I talked to the nurse at my docs office and she told me that not being able to eat when upset/stressed etc is almost as emotionally stressfull as losing a parent. It is something we have loved and relied on for years and years and now suddenly it is not there in the same capacity. You/we have undergone a MAJOR life altering surgery and it will take some getting used to. Find a new outlet for that stress/emotion that doesn't involve mastication, go for a walk/read a book/call a friend/come here for support but don't go back on the habits that brought us here in the first place!

My call to my mom (it was 2 hours split over 2 days) was so exhausting that I waited until after I had done the surgery before I told my brother because I knew he would take it as hard as my mom did and have as many questions. With my friends the two that have known me for 14+ years and have been with me through all the bs I have with my health and my weight think it was the best thing I could do for myself. The few that have only been around a few years gave me an enormous amount of flack. When being verbal about the people that gave me crap one good friend made what I consider a rather astute observation.....when I am telling someone I am having life altering surgery to make it so I can't eat as much I am saying to a point that I find over-eating/binge-eating/poor-eating unnaceptable and that they may take it personally that I am saying "that" lifestyle "their" lifestyle is no longer acceptable to me, when I only find it unaceptable for "ME" and that is my goal with the surgery is to take care of "ME". It is nice that you have such a good friend in you and your husbands life! Skye

My BMI at banding was 39 so I was just under the requirements for banding without co-morbidities. I had back surgury last Feb, high cholestorol (even with meds) and a minor heart attack in October so the insurance covered some of the surgery. I am one week post-op and down 10 lbs ....I know this is just the begining and there is a very tough road ahead, but I'm thinking I made the right choice, my husband who was very against my banding choice at first is even thinking it was a good decision! Skye

I know I am new here but here are my thoughts..... We are here to support each other: support comes in many different forms, it can be anything from a strong shoulder to lean on to a swift kick in the a$$ or just someone sitting back and listening to us vent. We are posting our thoughts and oppinons on an open board....if we post something we are going to get different oppinions...and if you think about it "THANK GOODNESS for different oppinions" We are very very lucky to live in a time and society where we are alowed to stand up and state what we think and how we feel in a public forum (could you imagine how sad it would be if we all had to think..feel...act the same?) If you stand in a room and say something outloud are you not going to get various comments back? Are you not going to get different oppinions? That is what happens here! Thank God for free speech! We are here to support you and get support ourselves don't let a few potentially misinterpereted (or even not so nice) comments drive you from another amazing tool that we have been given in our lives! Skye

I went today and got a tub of the orange pineapple! As you said it was a bit spendy BUT if one 12 oz portion that I can sip on for a while gets me 50 g of protien and only has 210 calories it is SOOO worth it! Thanks! Skye

Hello and welcome! I just had my band put on Friday, so, I can relate completely with the jitters! Good luck and you are going to do great! Skye

I am going to have to look at those! I am very new on my venture but almost 2 weeks into the liquids and SOOO over milky based protien shakes! Thanks for doing the research! Skye

Worked in property management for quite a few years, had a "I had kids young and don't feel like I have had any fun moment" so i went out and took classes for firefighting. Got one good season in as a wildland firefighter in 2002 and then it got interesting from there. After back surgury, some problems with my heart and a TON of weight gain (I have never been small by any means but was soooo much healthier) I find myself temporarily back as a community manager for a property manangement group. I am currently going back to school for a few different things..... 1. I am going to finish my degree in fire science (only have 12 credits to go) so I can put a "diploma" to all the hours and hours of time I spent in class. 2. I am taking classes at Clayton College for a bachelors of Holistic Nutrition (this is just for me so I can learn a better way to take care of me and my family for the long run) 3. I am going to Arizona in September to get certified in permenant cosmetic application. My goal is to find something to do with the USFS that is fun, only part-time and only in the summer, plus not as stressing on my body as fighting fire, then I can do the permenant cosmetics on the side as a creative outlet (that just happens to make really good money) so I can enjoy the last few years my boys are home (they are 12 & 15) and have flexible schedule to spend time with my wonderful DH that doesn't have a flexible schedule (he is a police officer).

I feel like i'm on an emotional rollercoaster! Did you all go through the same thing? I have ranged from neutral to elated to "what the heck am I doing" I was doing ok until tonight when DH and I went to go pick up all of my liquid meals (I am officially on the "pre-op liquid diet" as of tomorrow morning for my surgury on Friday at 2:10 pm) as we were picking out broths I got the most overwhelming feeling of dread and almost broke down right there. I'm feeling borderline overloaded with life as it is, maybe that is why I feel like I am in sensory overload? On a good note...the entire time we were in the grocery DH didn't point out a single food that I wouldn't be able to eat, he only looked at things that I/we will be able to incorporate into a healthier future. Coming from the "do you have a steak with more fat on it" king it was rather shocking. Skye

Thank you everyone! I am soooo happy I found this site! It is nice to find some like souls in life that understand where I am coming from. My husband is very supportive of me through this process but doesn't understand where I am coming from (this can be a bit tough), it is good to know I have somewhere I can go where people will be able to relate to me as I make my changes. I noticed that i'm not really missing food...but really missing the sensation of eating (is that odd?). MsJoysDh...(my disclaimer) I have at no time ever claimed to be normal :couch2: (Hehe) Again,thanks Skye

Hello all! I have been through a very long and exceedingly tedious process with my insurance and was certian they had denied me for good, but then I had a scheduled visit with my surgeon this last week. I am APPROVED...AND....my surgury is Friday February 10th! I am so excited to be starting down a new path in this adventure we call life! :dance: Wooohooo....liquid diet HERE I COME!! (never thought I would be happy to say that) I am so glad I found this site! Skye

That is so awesome! :roll: :roll: :roll: :roll:

Hello!:welcome2: It is awesome that you have such a great outlook on your adventure ahead! I lived in Twin Falls for a while and mom and dad have lived in McCall, Boise and now Salmon. Such beautiful country in ID! Good look and I look forward to hearing about your new adventures! Skye

At our visit with my doc this week he commented on that my libido may possibly increase, hubby just looked at me and rolled his eyes sarcastically. (he has issues keeping up with me now) I just read him snipits of the postings and he slumped down into his chair rubbed his belly and sighed saying "I guess I need to start running again is what you are warning me"