Fish495

@Frustr8, sorry to hear that RD isn't a more loving daughter, geez I loved my folks and would do anything for them. We even worked things out in the family and I bought the house from them so they could still enjoy the comfort of the home they knew and loved for so long. My sister helped out too when they could but were also busy with their families. Thankfully today we are all so very close to each other.
i can't the pain you live with with RD and the loss of your son at such a young age.i am so so sorry , hugs to you. Thankfully you have one heck of a sweetheart who is so loving. Sounds like he is a huge help for you.

@Frustr8, . Thanks for the warm welcome. I am single and always have been. I was a dispatcher for 36 years and retired last year. I live with Labrador Retriever who I adopted and is between 8-10 years old. I have three sisters. My oldest sister will be 66 and has been supportive of me, my other sister who is 60 just says it a personal decision and my youngest sister who will be 50 next month is strongly opposed to my decision even though she says she will be there for me. She is the one I am closest to and was hoping she be much more supportive of my decision. She has always been the thin one in the family and her idea is to just stop eating. She doesn't get it not being in my shoes.
We lost both are parents my mother at age 69 in 2003 due to diabeties, COPD, and congestive heart failure. I was the one that took care of her through most of her illness when she was diagnosed in 1995. I promised my mother I would stay with my father until he died. We lost him in Dec 2011 at the age of 79.
I have always been the heavy kid. I would lose the weight only to gain it back mo this or years later. After discoverying in 1999 I had stage IV endometriosis I have a full hysterectomy at the age of 37 and from there I blew up within a year and continued to expand. My highest weight has been 253 pounds which was last year. I felt bad at my nieces wedding after seeing some pictures of me. I took 20 pounds off and know I need to get on a different path in life. I want to live longer than my mother or father.
I am afraid of failing with this surgery as I continually have lost weight and found it again. I do enjoy food and know I eat too much and so much of the wrong things. I feel like I am so addicted to carbs. I want to break the cycle so I can lose weight get healthier, run a 5K, go hiking, camping, fly. I want to enjoy sports again without the bad things that go along with being overweight.
i too am on dexilant, my GI says it's the best thing out there, thankfully my insurance covers it too. I too sleep with a cpap, have a history of medical issues that I believe is all related to my weight.
I was all set to have the sleeve surgery but with a recent scope and bravo monitor that won't be happening, my GERD is too bad. I am afraid of the bypass as it seems there can be many complications. If a complication can happen believe me, I would be the one to get it.
I have been writing many questions down for the surgeon and home he can relieve my fears next week. I have even thought about doing the new direction liquid diet which is medically supervised instead of surgery but not sure if that is a good option either.