Karleena

I've been fighting to get it for five years and after all that? Nothing. Just false hope. I'm just tired of fighting a loosing battle at this point. I am tired of getting kicked around that tell me to loose weight. This mistake that was no part of mine should have been taken care of weeks ago by my doc, but instead they waited and let my time run out. It feels purposeful. I can't let my heart get broken again. I have to learn to love myself no matter what size I am and accept this may never happen, even if the world hates that a women of my size exists. I'll go through the motions, but won't let my heart get hurt again.