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I’ve had a curious day. I forgot to weigh in first thing this morning. So I weighed just a few mins ago. It says I weigh 327. That is after my shake and coffee. I know, logically, that this doesn’t mean I’ve necessarily gained weight but it’s messing with my head. Also, my blood sugars are not so good today but I cut down on my long acting insulin to see if it’d help with the lows. LOL. It did! Not to worried about that right now. Nerves are coming into play. It’s not a freak out nerves but I am having a bout of the doubts. I know I’m going to do this but some things are worrying me. My mom is sick and she’s my support system. I’ll likely be alone more than not in the hospital. I have pretty severe social and general anxiety. So that’s a big worry. No matter what I’ll be alone overnight due to our critters needing one of us home. I’m writing this down to let it go. I’ll do wonderfully!

Congrats! Feel better soon!

Thanks! I feel calmer right now but I know tomorrow will be hectic lol!

thank you so much for the encouragement!

Welcome! My surgery is scheduled for the 14th. I started with a referral in July of last year. Lots of up and downs, mine was postponed due to insurance stuff[emoji78] I hope your journey goes well! Read read read! There is so much information out there but I have found it more useful to read here and see what people have done right...and wrong. It’s such a learning experience.

I’m getting it done the same day! I’d say it’s normal because I feel the same!

oh I remember the headache. hope it stops soon for you!

Thank you very much for that!! I have cream(doesn't help a great deal, I use corona cream once a day and it least keeps it hydrated and less itchy) and refuse to do shots unless I have to. I also have it on my scalp so I'm freaked out about thinning hair showing that feature to everyone.

My original surgery was scheduled for December 22nd of last year. Let me tell you, after the appeals and such which were denied I was devastated. The rejection was very hard. It felt like my soul had been stomped on more than once. Then the second submittal being denied was even more soul crushing, then received a call 4 days after that that it was finally approved. Rollercoaster! I'm still convinced there was a mix up and i'll get there Wednesday and they'll say oh no, you really were denied. I also haven't had good luck with the classes I went to. I do believe there is a reason for things. I don't know why in the heck bad things happen to good people but I believe also that we are stronger and better for it. This will happen for you, I really think it will. Just keep advocating for yourself, never give up!

I had my mom take mine today. Will take more tuesday as she is a bit under the weather. It's a bit daunting to think about the changes coming but I am soooo ready!

I've talked to him a bit. He said some do so I am very hopeful! Thanks!

So the nerves are really starting to show. I've got 3 days...3 days...whoa! It's sinking in that my life is about to change, for the better. BUT...i'm also scared. Worry is something that's been passed down in my family, we're all blessed with it...lol I'm worrying about failing. I am still confident I will rock this but there is that small sliver of self doubt holding on. Growing up I was 6 feet tall in 5th grade...no joke. Sasquatch was the kids favorite name for me. I took a lot of abuse at the hands of mostly boys. Girls ignored me or just didn't give a flip. I was made fun of by them but not to the degree boys did. I still carry those scars, i'm very untrusting of men on a personal level. My grandpa was the only man I trusted wholly. Add to all of that my father denied I was his for a long time. Let me tell you, me and my brother are mistaken for twins when we are around each other. I get called sir a lot...A LOT. All my scar tissue is emotional. I have fought hard to overcome it. I started caring about my health after some complications from diabetes. I am 37 and already had so many health issues. I'm finally at a point where I am ok with putting myself first. I always took care of people, cleaning and cooking. Even being my grandparents care taker for the last 5+ year of life. I know a lot of you understand this nerves, worry and anxiety. Right now I feel so isolated. I have zero local friends because I have bad social anxiety so I suck at making friends. I know these jumbled thoughts might not make sense but it's how i'm feeling.

Thanks! I feel better about my past than I have my entire life. It's a situation that if I dwell I stew in it. So I try to keep my hands and mind busy. My mind moves at warp speed most of the time lol thank you! I appreciate you being in my corner! I know we can do this! Thanks Matt! I agree, I've worked on the inner me and I feel stronger than ever now it's time to match the inside with the out!

So the nerves are really starting to show. I've got 3 days...3 days...whoa! It's sinking in that my life is about to change, for the better. BUT...i'm also scared. Worry is something that's been passed down in my family, we're all blessed with it...lol I'm worrying about failing. I am still confident I will rock this but there is that small sliver of self doubt holding on. Growing up I was 6 feet tall in 5th grade...no joke. Sasquatch was the kids favorite name for me. I took a lot of abuse at the hands of mostly boys. Girls ignored me or just didn't give a flip. I was made fun of by them but not to the degree boys did. I still carry those scars, i'm very untrusting of men on a personal level. My grandpa was the only man I trusted wholly. Add to all of that my father denied I was his for a long time. Let me tell you, me and my brother are mistaken for twins when we are around each other. I get called sir a lot...A LOT. All my scar tissue is emotional. I have fought hard to overcome it. I started caring about my health after some complications from diabetes. I am 37 and already had so many health issues. I'm finally at a point where I am ok with putting myself first. I always took care of people, cleaning and cooking. Even being my grandparents care taker for the last 5+ year of life. I know a lot of you understand this nerves, worry and anxiety. Right now I feel so isolated. I have zero local friends because I have bad social anxiety so I suck at making friends. I know these jumbled thoughts might not make sense but it's how i'm feeling.

Hi Matt... I so relate. Food was my comfort and while dealing with depression and while figuring out I was bi-polar it became my friend. Except it really wasn't. Like you I was killing myself in another way. Indirectly committing suicide. I did not care as long as I had food. I hid it. I wouldn't eat much in front of people but man oh man did I when I was by myself. Which was a lot. I don't have any local friends. I keep a pretty high wall up most of the time. Thanks to all of that I have diabetic retinopathy that has required surgery. I've done so much damage to not only my body but my spirit. I've fought hard the past 5-6 years to better myself. I've kept my a1c at a high normal and i've sought long term help for my mental health. I feel I am ready for a new life that I deserve. You deserve happiness Matt. I hope for you and all of us on this journey a happier life with ourselves. You are worth the effort and I'm so excited for you to see what the future holds!

I have had some not so nice comments from people who've had WLS. Saying it didn't work for them so I shouldn't get it done. blah blah blah. I have only me to look to for the answer on what I need to do, I am my own keeper. I will say this, no matter how much you know that some people are going to be a-holes, it still bugs you. Try to let it go as best you can!

My main goal is to eliminate having to use insulin for type 2 diabetes. I take 5 a day. The day that happens I’ll cry like a baby with a wet diaper. i’m tall and would love to wear some of the cute tunics out there. Also a band hoodie/shirt. another big one....not having to tell my nieces and nephew that I can’t do this or that with them!

That is one of the best descriptions I've read yet! I am on the 14th and soooo excited to get started. I was super nervous yesterday and had a really not great day. Today has been good, even did some exercise. Had to stop because I had a low blood sugar but it felt good after it went back up, For those that have type 2 diabetes, how much did you have to cut down on insulin? I started at a base of 35 units with a sliding scale. For my lunch time protein shake I took 16 and then had the low. So i'll go down to 14 on the next meal. The lows are frustrating

I am guessing the answer is when your surgeon gives the ok but i'd like a general idea. We have a rather larger yard and can only use push mowers. I don't want my mom to have to do it alone. Of course we'd have to get rain for the grass to grow. LOL .01 of moisture in the last 150+ days here.