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First day of soft foods and I celebrated by going to outback with my sister and ordering the plain grilled tilapia.  I've never had a more delicious meal!!! It felt so good to feel normal again, even though I only ate about 1/4 of a thin fillet :).  It also felt good needing a large to go box and knowing that I had 3 more meals left!

I’m so worried that I am already failing at this.  My mom had gastric bypass 15 years ago and went from 330 to 240, but then never lost anymore.  She has gone between 240 and 280 every since.  Two nights ago I added baby cereal to my bedtime protein shake and I make about a cup of it.  I usually have no trouble drinking a cup of liquid.  It poured easily off a spoon but was thicker than my normal shake.  After I ate it I felt satiated and fell asleep.  At midnight, I woke up to let the dog out and made another cup of it.  I realized at that point that I was overly full (I wasn’t in pain or nauseous, just super full). ).  It made me feel like a loser because what I realized is that I should have only had 2 tablespoons of it because it counted as a pureed food instead of a shake.  I was just thinking that when my nephew was little the only way to get him to sleep through the night was to ass cereal to his bottle, so I was trying the same thing with me.  I’m such an idiot.   

10 days post op and I have lost 20 lbs.  I'm far enough along that I am no longer scared to death of blood clots or leaks and now feel like this was the best decision I made in my entire life!  I love the idea that I will forever be able to get full on a children's size meal.