brandyII

80s_chick, Good to know and I'm glad things worked out for your. We were all concerned about your physical problems as well as the treatment you received at that time and it's not always easy to switch surgeons like that and you should give yourself a pat on the back for doing it! Anyway glad to know you're OK, brandyII.

I've decided that this forum has been a crucial part of my life, maybe too much, but I'm going to ease back in. I don't think I really eased out! LOL Of course there are those of you who have supported me from the beginning and those of you who have taunted me a bit, lol and it's all good! I guess I'm in a phase where I am still trying to find some answers and it's a little more complicated, than A + B = C and down deep I knew that and I'm now finding research on some various topics that are backing me up and I'm not "crazy" for thinking this! I joined Weight Watchers at 21 years of age at 125 lbs because I felt in my head that the weight was coming back on and I couldn't for the life of me understand why or control it and it did 100 lbs+. At that time I didn't know what to do or where to turn and that wasn't an affective choice but as I said I didn't know what to do. To give you a hint it has something to do with different types of fat people, different types of fat and the physiological aspects of it. One example is that a person being fat all their life is physiologically different than a person who put that same amount of weight on and an older age. It's very interesting and kind of explains the differences in why some people bodies just have a difficult time "dieting" and eventually bouncing back up the scale etc... Anyway it's something I'm learning about now and will share some of the info as I get it. Not to preach it but if I guess I assume and we all know what that word does, but anyway I assume if information benefits me it may benefit someone else. Naturally when I find out information it may also bring out the objectors which is normal to any setting such as this forum. Anyway I'm back but I'm going to try not to be too annoying and I'm sorry for being such a "drama queen" prior but the struggle is personal and important to me! Thanks for being patient, brandyII:smile:

It's hard to leave when you keep getting emails from really great people! I appreciate it and you all are great and I just need to leave because I have issues that may not benefit others here and I need to get better myself. I'll just say I found a really good book called "Self Esteem Comes in All Sizes" by Carol A. Johnson, MA. It's a great book if you struggling, if you're not, if you've ever had self esteem issues because of your weight whether your thin, obese or somewhere in the middle. Anyway thanks again, I'm OK, and it did make me cry because I felt like you guys were my friends and still do!! So that's why it's sad to leave but I have to and I think most of you understand why. Anyway take care and :rolleyes2: to all!! brandyII

BJean, Sorry I was trying to PM you but I turned it off, I was trying to cancel my subscription to this forum but couldn't figure out how so I emailed them. I can't believe I'm crying over this it's really dumb but I just don't feel like this forum is doing me any good any longer or I it and it's time to leave and maybe I'll be able to make some positive changes in my life. Anyway I just wanted you to know I think you're a very smart and kind person on this forum and appreciate all the things you've stood for here and supported me too. Thanks again and take care, bye guys, Nancy (brandyII)

You all are right, I've over stayed my welcome, I need to come to terms with my problems it's nobodies but my own. Maybe Weight Watchers for the one billionth time, I know I'm screwed up and can't do well with the lap band and I guess it's time to bid my farewell but thanks to all that were my friends and supporters and I wish you all continued success, thanks Nancy:smile: Don't bother to come back with any responses as I'm not coming back. It's not big deal it just didn't work out. Close the thread to all the monitors out there, it's done! Thanks again.:thumbs_up:

Just being in the position of President of the United States has it's risks and that's why there is so much security around our President and their families. There have been many attempts on many presidents in the past. He has the Secret Service protecting him now from what I gather and they've only gotten better since my husband's grandfather was one of FDR's personal body guards.

BJean, I only said that I was worried about it happening because I think of him in terms being in the category of the greats like the JFK's and his brother Bobby and Martin Luther King and Abraham Lincoln, I never thought of it as a "wish" more like a worry and someone else brought it up that's why I sort of admitted that I was worried too and had been for a long time.

Thanks Fanny you're a doll!!!!! I feel like a pretty screwed up person right now and it's really hard to get motivated. I've even been thinking of going on the all liquid Medifast diet again because I did it last July and it worked and maybe that might jump start me. I thought about joining Curves too. I think I've expressed myself too much on threads as it felt good to get it out of my head for once as it's been a real torture keeping it inside and I think we all know what happens when we keep stuff inside. The only people that I thought would be understanding were the people at Lap Band because they all had weight problems initially at least and were banded but I assumed too much and only made more enemies than buds. I didn't mean to upset the apple cart or attack the band I know it's me I'm just sucking at it right now and thought this forum could get me motivated in some way. I tried the lap band group at my surgeon's office and everyone was nice but it was either full of people looking to get banded or the I've lost 75 pound groups. I'm always the red headed step child and I got more out of you all than I did an actual physical group. Anyway I won't bug anyone else on it anymore, I guess it's my own life and I have to deal with it and I wish everyone the best because I know how painful it is to be fat, thanks brandy:smile:

I guess I took your post to be pretty honest and I don't think you owe anyone any apologies. I'm sorry that you're kind of going through h*ll right now. I guess it's okay to post here but remember from now on this is the "Bash brandyII Thread" so unless you come here to say something negative about my weakness in character you should look elsewhere!!! I know I'm just too funny for my own good:lol::lol:brandyII

Thanks Denise, It's is a chore to type that many letters, I'm was raised in MD right outside of DC. My mother moved to DC from Chicago with her mother and brother where she met my father. Hence meeeeee The first few snows of the season are nice but by February everyone goes crazy!!!

OMG, too late now my milk spoiled:biggrin:

Yeah, one of mine hangs a little lower than the other:lol::cool2:

KatW, If we still had them I'd be giving you reps!!!

Now I have to check out that movie. I'm always forced to watch Quentin Tarantino flicks by my DH and DDs like Grindhouse.

I'm pretty much in a small town but I figure the Curves here is fairly new so it should be okay, I'm guessing. I just need to get over there!!!

OK, I'm wondering here, as I do from time to time. What if there were a Rants and Raves section "no holds bar" and a Rants and Raves section "you can't touch that"?

It's still a confusing kind of love though:lol:

Thanks Camel_cracker, Sounds good to me, as I don't have "mad skills". I'll try to see which of the Curves around me looks best, thanks brandyII and good luck to you!!

That's okay, I thought it was something people were doing now, and probably do!

Does that mean you're not killing the babies if they're seedless, oops, wrong thread sorry!!!!!!!!!!

Gloucester, so logical for someone who tortures watermelons!

I'll post one back at ya, why do you grill watermelon???????????? Doesn't it just dissolve on the grill??????????

Nukechick that was pretty funny!!

Erica, I know it's not easy reading negative stuff and there will always be a bit of negative stuff in there, so maybe you do need a break if it's what helps you. I didn't mean to make an assumption but I'm so used to the same ole stuff coming up that sometimes I just go into "mode", lol! brandyII:smile:

MrsFlipflops we don't agree on everything, hey we're only human, but here you're right on the money!!!!! People are so fast to judge people when they don't have an addiction or never experienced one!!!!!