keekahari

Congrats and welcome... My birthday is also 3/29, though I will be 32. Hopefully we'll both drop quite a few pounds by our B-Day!

I needed a place to vent... so why not here. I am scheduled to have my lapband surgery on 11-9. Should be excited, right? Wrong... I feel upset with myself. When I initially started researching the band, I knew it was for me because I am a BIG uncontrolled portion eater. Carbs all day every day. So I began my jouney... Well I think deep down inside, I thought I could still do this on my own. I can work out a lot, can be very enthusiastic. But after trying again.. I failed. failed cuz I just can control my mind to keep my mouth shut. No, instead I convice myself why I should have 8 slices of pizza and cinnamon rolls and biscuits.... URGHHHHH! I guess I am coming to the realization, that I have a true problem. Something I just cant seem to get control of. I know the band is what I need. I know that I will probably do well with it. But I just feel really crappy for letting myself down over and over again.... Okay, I'll quit my bitchin now:cry

I needed a place to vent... so why not here. I am scheduled to have my lapband surgery on 11-9. Should be excited, right? Wrong... I feel upset with myself. When I initially started researching the band, I knew it was for me because I am a BIG uncontrolled portion eater. Carbs all day every day. So I began my jouney... Well I think deep down inside, I thought I could still do this on my own. I can work out a lot, can be very enthusiastic. But after trying again.. I failed. failed cuz I just can control my mind to keep my mouth shut. No, instead I convice myself why I should have 8 slices of pizza and cinnamon rolls and biscuits.... URGHHHHH! I guess I am coming to the realization, that I have a true problem. Something I just cant seem to get control of. I know the band is what I need. I know that I will probably do well with it. But I just feel really crappy for letting myself down over and over again.... Okay, I'll quit my bitchin now:cry

Oppps. I guess I need to look at my journal more often... thank you kindly, MoOrLess!

10/4 B- Chicken biscuit w/ ketsup, 3 oatmeal raisin cookies S- 2 more oatmaeal raisin cookies and cinnamon melts L- bowl of fruit D- 9 meatballs and two diet sunkist

B- nothing, had to fast for a Dr. Appt Brunch- corned beef sandwich and to kinda small macadamia nut cookies L- nothing S- cinnamon hot candy D-????

Trying to start back :car: riding this pony...

Sunday 30 min on treadmill 3mph and 10-15 incline 150 cruches Monday 3mi walk at the park 60 step class this evening

Sat- B- two cinnamon melts and two glasses of milk L- half a steak and cheese sandwich D- barbqueu chicken, mac and cheese, baked Beans and two long beach teas Sun- B- nothing L- Soup, cantelope, watermelon, pineapple D- cantelope, watermelon, pineapple Mon- B- sausage patty S- bag of reese pieces L- tender grill salad S- broke down and got me a cinnamon melt from McD's D- chili and side salad or baked potato

Hey there Ladies and Gents.... This is such an awesome and motivating thread... I think I will step right on in... Todays workouts.. 3.5 mile walk 45min step class- 15 min of ab work 100 crunches ab and ad ducters... 6 sets of 10 leg press- 3 sets of 10 dont remeber what its called, but u sit and pull the handles back almost like a rowing motion...anyway, did 3 sets of 10 of those. bicep curl- 3 sets of 10 chest press 3 sets of 10 Jumpstarting my new regimne...:rolleyes

B- Cinnamon Melts and a chicken biscuit L- bowl of ravioli D- fried mac and cheese, boneless wings and a piece of quesadilla from Fridays.. and two mango berry margaritas.. Damn they were good!!:confused:

9/28/06 B- Cinnamon melts and chicken biscuit L-Indian buffet D- nothing

Happy B-Day to you!!! Hope you enjoyed your lil present!

9/27/06 B- Cinanamon melts and a chicken biscuit L- Chicken paramasian w/ pasta and two pieces of garlic toast D- CiCis buffet

9/26 B- McD's cinnamon melts- additctive S- slice of lemon pound cake 2nd S- glaze doughnut L- pork rib tips mac and cheese and baked beans S- 1/4 glaze doughnut D- plate of chili and some salad

9/25/06 B- BK egg and cheese croisannt and hash browns w/ syrup (7am) S- bag of doritos and a non diet sunkist (10 am) L- Taco bell- taco pizza and meximelt sierra mist (2pm) D- Wendys double cheese burger fries and a sprite (9pm)

I see your getting banded... Congrats to you Bettina!!!:clap2: :clap2: :clap2: I think at the rate I am going, I need to put a band around my upper and lower lip.:biggrin1: But seriously, I may need to visit the doc and start scheduling some appts...

9/22 B- Big Super Delux breakfast from McD's L- Turkey buger and onion rings from Fudruckkers-also large raspberry tea D- Beef patty, cocoa bread, curry chicken and some fried plantains, diet sunkist 9/23 B- Bowl of Lucky Charms S- grilled cheese sandwhich L- Beef patty, cocoa bread, pineapple soda D- 2 jerk wings, 2 stewed wings, 2 curry wings, fried plantains, red beans and rice. 9/24 B- Golden Corral buffet L- ha... still stuffed from Breakfast D- Bowl of Apple Jacks

I know... I think my current habits are absolutly TRIFLING... But I cant seem to shake it. Thats why I decided to start reposting my meals.. Hopefully I will get disgusted enough in what I am doing to myself and be able to snap out of it... I postsed almost every day when I did well... but was ashamed to post when I didnt... which has been like 2 months now... So its time to take my body back from the food demons and start living a healthier life!!! Though... easier said than done.:faint:

Thursday B- Two orders of cinamon melts from McD's L- CiCi's--no need to say more:paranoid D- 2 Bowls of Lucky Charms and 2% milk

Hopeworks... I havent been banded... so EVERYTHING is going down.:tape: :tape:

Congrats Stocky!!! U go gurl!!!!! :)

Okay, I am gonna try posting my meals again. Maybe that will help create some accountability for myself in seeing the bad things that I am eating and looking to change for healtier options... These posts wont be pretty, so feel free to :whip: me every now and then... 9/20/2006- Wed B- Bowl of lucky charms, 2%milk (6am) L- microwavable bowl of chef boy r dee ravioli and water (11am) 2nd L- two hot dogs and a taquito (2pm) S- can of (non-diet) sunkist and bag of doritos (4:00) D- two piece dark, cajun rice and red beans and rice mixed with 4 packs of jelly, a biscuit with jelly and a diet sunkist (8:00)

Ladies... It was wonderful seeing everyone! You all look so beautiful, I missed u gals. I was nice to catch up with what everyone is doing. We definately need to keep up the monthly meetings. Last year was great and the year to come with be filled with prosperity for all of us! Luv Ya Kee:grouphug:

K! This is wonderful!!! You are doing great!!! and your consistantly losing. That is the best way!!!!