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Thank you @Navigating the Wilderness for the book suggestions! Downloaded and ready!

2 hours ago, ReneK said:

They physical part of this battle is only one small part. A good amount of it is mental. And, as hard as it is, you have to tackle and conquer that part too to be successful. Be strong. Don't beat up on yourself. But stick with it. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.....but, more importantly, it is your health and life that you're talking about. Is McDonalds really worth dying early?

I'm sorry if that sounds harsh...I'm not trying to be mean, just realistic.

Thank you for that @ReneK Not mean at all, I appreciate the matter of fact speak. I'm not one to beat around the bush, so I appreciate the frank talk. You're right, it's not worth it. I did this for my babies, so their mom could be around to help raise them! Thank you!

@Thejeweledsleeve that killed me! How funny! I felt EXACTLY like Gollum! That's a great comparison. Thank you all for the great words of advice. You are helping so much!

Had the SIPS procedure last Friday (3/17). Everything on my Facebook feed screams "food!" We have family helping us out and they brought my boys some pizza for supper. The smell was almost too much, I wanted a piece so badly! Then I got angry thinking "What have I done with myself? I have taken away this wonderful thing called stuffing my face" I know it sounds horrid. I know I needed to change. But that monster reared it's ugly head and then I started thinking of how much I would love McDonald's, and Pork rinds, and all these things I want right now. Which I wouldn't eat. But I felt angry, and sad, and irritated that I couldn't just eat what I wanted right then. What the heck is wrong with me? Is this head hunger?

@@WLSResources/ClothingExch you are so right. I overthink everything! Thank you for the words of advice.

Thank you! I appreciate the support! I hate that I get in the way of what I know needs to be done. Good luck to you too!

Hi everyone,

I had lapband surgery in 2009, and then it was removed in 2012. I had a huge issue with my gallbladder, which caused pancreatitis. I was in the hospital for a week, and also had been having complications with my band. The doctor at the time recommended that we take my band out, and do a revision. I feel like such a baby, I didn't feel like I was ready for a revision. I wish now I had done it.

Fast forward to 2017, and I have gained all the weight back I lost with my band. I turn 41 this month and have mild hypertension. I can't seem to get the weight off, I will do really well for a bit, and then gain it all back again. I remember when I had my band, I went through a depression, because I had made food such an important part of my life. It was a friend whose relationship with me was changed drastically. I suppose that's what I fear, feeling down and depressed. Or having complications with the surgery. I've heard such horror stories. Gah!

Tell me it's worth it. I'm 5'5" and weigh 302 pounds. I have four babies, I want to live to watch them grow up. My fear is holding me back a little bit. Part of me is determined to do whatever it takes. I just need to convince the other part.