tapshoes

happy Monday everyone! I hope you all enjoyed a lovely weekend.

My eating is completely out of control.....:wink2::scared2: Last night, for example, after dinner (which I devoured) I ate a bowl of ice cream and 2 date squares - and I don't even like sweet things!!! So, I recommited this morning to eating better....let's see how I do.

Exercise - still haven't done that yet...what has happened to me??? Im seriously in a bad spot in my head!

Happy Monday everyone!

I'm hoping this week that the conversations in this thread pickup - it's been very slow, and getting slower. Although I understand why some people may be disenchanted, please come back ....I miss you! :hurt::wink2::cryin::cryin:

Yay I vote for more Fridays, This weekend will consist of some work, some study (MFT test) and some fun. (I like the fun part have to deal with the other parts).

Oh oh oh...where's the voting????

Sounds like your weekend is a little of everything; hope it is a good one!

At least I DID get out for a walk at lunchtime. Not exactly looking forward to my walk to the train station though - it's getting gray and cold / windy out...BRRRR! :crying:

I NEED to get out and walk, but I just can NOT get my rear in gear. But now that my mother has gone back home, perhaps this week will be the week I start back into exercise.....

Checking in. Still in a funk. My head feels weird. Like light-headed on the verge of a Migraine all the time, kinda thing. Makes me feel funky and not in the mood for much of anything.

I know what the problem is but trying to stop it is proving difficult. I'm snacking. Hungry or not. AND it's salty/spicey stuff. Like a Cajun Trail Mix I found at Wal Mart last week.

Anyway, I'm just trying to get myself back to ME and having a hard time. Not wanting to be a drag so that's why I haven't been posting. Don't have much to say and it's all a downer anyway. :thumbup:

Ah Heart, I know what the blue funks are like. I'm sorry you are going through them, and wish I could help. But alas, I cannot. Don't worry about being a drag....we're here to help (see my 'Psychiatrist is in" sign above my head??)

I went to the bookstore, then went and dealt with my nails, and had a manicure---they look loverly now! Then DH got off about 3:30, so he and a friend from work met me at Chili's for Happy Hour!!! From there Rick and I hit the mall! I bought 4 new shirts, and a new jacket. Then we had dinner and come home.

looking forward to a cozy comfy sleep tonight!!

Bookstore visits make any day brighter!! I'd forgo lots of other things for a trip to a bookstore with the money to spend on books!! Forget a manicure...books!!

Sounds like a lovely day Kat. Hope you got some sleep, and enjoyed the rest of the weekend.

Noticing that the room is empty, Tapshoes takes centerstage, grabs the mic and belts out show tunes, and then dressed in a killer danceoutfit, dances up a storm the likes of which haven't been since since Gene Kelly was in his prime.

Exhausted, but ecstatic, Tapshoes, wipes her brow, and leaves the stage................

I only told DH and that was only the week before because I needed someone to drive me home - he was not part of any of the discussions/consultations etc. (As a self pay, I didn't have the same appointments/consultations etc to go through).

Anyway, for people who have asked (rudely in my opinion) how I'm losing the weight, or what I'm doing, etc I reply with a smile and a soft voice, "Why would you ask such a personal question?"....belive me, they back off!!

However just because you have told some people, you are under no obligation to answer their questions or defend your choice. It's your body, your decision end of story. I THINK I would deflect their questions with, I have made a decision for my health and my body. I appreciate your concern, but I do not choose to discuss this with you.

At 50+ years of age, my skin is alot tougher than it used to be!!!

Find a hotel; find a hostel; hire a limo; stay in the hospital (but be prepared for the extra charges)....under no circumstances drive yourself!! Even if you think you can (and I would be surprised if you did) you CANNOT...it's like someone who has been drinking who thinks they can drive - tragic consequences..

As another in her fifties, I too was just sick and tired of carrying the weight around, and enduring the endless yo-yo game of lose some, gain more, lose some, gain more....

I never told anyone anticipating their negative responses, and I only told DH about a week before (I am self-pay so no long pre-op or insurance hoops). Anyway, I prefaced telling him with"I have made this decision for me and my health. I need you to support me - whether you agree or not."

Bless him, he read the material and said that although it would not be a choice for him, whatever I chose to do he would support, because he wanted me around.

I hope your husband becomes like that - non-judgemental and supportive from everything to driving to fill appointments, and making Protein smoothies for those first few weeks, to celebrating my scale victories.

Neither...mine is center just below the belly-button.

PJTP...I'm back! :closedeyes:

NSV...sitting at my desk with my legs crossed at the knee and my leg isn't going to sleep. It's actually COMFORTABLE to sit like this...

Never thought I'd be able to say that...I do my band!:w00t:

Whoo- hoo - Im not alone in the PJTP world! It is getting slower and slower in here...we need a jump start. Where is everyone? heartfire? Kat? Plain? Sick? Slim? Bristle? KC? Pool? CC? and so on and so on...................come on, guys. Are you saying (thorugh your silence) that you don't enjoy our witty repartee? Don't want to know the lives and loves of your fellow bandsters? TALK TO ME!!!

Love the NSV!!

You aren't homeless LilMiss - you have the VVs AND you could of course post in the PJTP - Again thread in R&R...

Lecture over; Tap takes the trophy from the podium and leaves.......

Tap? I always worry about you when you don't check in regularly. You really have been an inspiration. You've worked hard and are so close to your goal. In fact, I think it sounds like your body has decided that it is the right spot.

As for me, I'm trudging away. I have to go back to eating the way I was for the first 6-8 months after my band. I have to be absolutely strict about not letting the bad stuff in. I have to avoid fast food like the plague. I really, really have to start caring for myself. The doctor, nurse and nutritionist all gave me pep talks. Felt a bit like being attacked but I know it's because I was already having a bad day. They really are wonderful there. I just need to kick my own arse.

Thanks Ezma, my body may have decided, but it didn't negotiate that with my doc...who is still insistent that a big-boned 5'5" gal in her 50's should weigh between 117-124...

I can't ever see myself at 117 (at least, not alive and with all my legs and arms:laugh:) but maybe 124 is possible??? So, if I could just get my exercise mojo back and start watching what I eat, instead of being a blob and eating everything I see, I might do better and reach that goal............:closedeyes:

Melissa, I’ve always wanted to be a teacher, so forgive me for being just a little green with envy! Lol :-P

Me too, me too! Have thought that maybe in my retirement, I will try to become an ESL teacher, and then see what opportunities that provides. I though want to teach adults - not children, not teens, but adults. They are ususally more determined and focused on learning.

Tap, nice to see ya! You have to check in here! Now that I’ve finally decided to nip this in the bud all my VV’s have vanished. L It makes me very sad too, really.

Thanks LilMiss, I will try...but I really miss the whole VV crowd - RSG, Marathinner, Blessed, Lori, Crystal, Mom, and just everyone! Oh, and Gibson...where are you?

Juls, where are ya? Miss you! J

Ditto

All, please DON’T get down on yourselves.

Ladies, we can do this – but we will all do this on our own time.

To quote Lori - keep swimming!

She gave me some great ideas I can try for the next month until I see her again. I asked her if I could keep coming back monthly until I get this down.

What ideas? Share...

I will forever now stay on the looser side. I have re-married my band and I fully intend to get every little bit of help from it that I know now I can get.

Renewed band vows....:w00t:

Okay gals, as you know I’m very quiet on the weekend. You all take care, and be blessed! J

You too!

Ohhh and I forgot to mention… I weighed in at 250.6 on the doctors scale. I was 256.6 last time I was there. I was only there last Friday. I was only expecting to see maybe a 2-3 Lbs lost. I was a bit shocked!

This morning I weighed 249 on the nose. My scale at home and the one at my Dr.s office is pretty neck and neck so I trust what it tells me. .

Onederland here I come *finally* lmao! J

YAHOO!!! That's wonderful. Make sure you update your sticker!

The inventor of coffee should be given a Nobel prize (posthumously, obviously).

Why do I live where there is even the remote possibility of snow - let alone the annual deluge?

How much money will I REALLY need to retire and maintain (make that, improve) my lifestyle and afford lots of international travelling??

In the debate between lower cost or going 'green', which is the right choice? Why can't it be both 'green' AND less expensive?

I told him I wanted my E cups back again (only sitting in the right place) and to achieve that, I'm going to have to go for the 400ml implants. I "tried them on" inside my bra and OMG they looked HUGE! Not buying new bras at this point though - will wait till after the op and get refitted properly.

So are you reconsidering the size? I'd love to have 'the girls' hoisted back where they belong, but that isn't going to happen - Tummytuck is a more pressing need - and that's at least 1 year away.........

There is no way I would go back to being as big as I was before. I have suffered from some drooping, but not as bad as I had worried about---so sticking with them as they are!!! A DD is more than enough....is hard enough to buy that cup size in a smaller band size. I can find tons of 40-48 DD but try dropping below the 40 and they become scarce.

I happened to look down, as I typed, and I sure do need to do my nails!!! Scary!

I know what you mean on the bra shopping...when I find one that fits and is on sale, I buy multiple..

Nails - you mean chipped, splitting, uneven, different lengths isn't the way they should be???

Then tonight is the dinner. Long day ahead I can see me dragging tomorrow. Hope you are all doing well!

Did you enjoy the fundraiser?

I was considering doing the surgery this year, but after a consultation with a surgeon, I've decided to hold off. Mostly because of finances

My DH actually admitted he was worried about me possibly having surgery this year because he's afraid I may be changing too much too fast for my body to handle it.

Nursing a sore right hip the last two days - think I overdid it just a tad on my 5k, but I've been walking so I don't get too stiff.

Work has been quiet, which is very nice. School has started up again and is keeping me busy.

Glad to hear that work has been quiet; keep your head down and your eyes and ears open for new opportunities to get outta that toxic environment!

I hear you on the PS and delaying due to $$. How do you fell about DH's comment???

OK people, it's Friday - let's just get through it, so that we can enjoy our weekends!

Didn't lose as much as I wanted but I think I'm down a couple from my last visit. Woot!

Ezma - you are DOWN in weight - that's great!

Think positive, not negative!

Thanks, everyone. I guess you could consider it an NSV.

yes indeed - the best kind!!

It was funny about your ring falling off. Usually we're so busy about losing weight off our bellies or backsides we forget about the little places it comes off of.

Tapshoes-How is your struggle going? I've had a better time for 2 days now. I pray it lasts.

The little places - like our feet. I have a huge selection of size 8 shoes (I have a bit of an Imedla Marcos shoe love) that I have no use for - have given boxes of them to the local woman's shelter. Now I am in the process of buying their replacements in a size 7 - it will be a long time to replace them all!

food and exercise wise - not good. I am rapidly gaining weight - what the heck is wrong with me!???

I think my surgeon took out too much! This lion’s hungry and won’t let me forget it. I've also noticed I can take huge bites and eat tons! L Ah, well. I haven’t felt hunger like this in over a year so I didn’t handle it well.

I have to show my nutritionist what I've eaten and I’m sure she’ll question those last two days. Today however is going to be really good! Whatever. I’m so gonna do this you guys!!!!!! I have to!! NO way am I gonna fail this. The average bandster loss to goal is 5 years. I’ll make it 3.

that's the attitude, LilMiss. You need to give your gut a chance to relax after the stress of the last few months - this is like bandster hell again. It is pure willpower that will get you through this period.

How I wish I could convince myself of this!!

5 years?!?! Really?!?!? WOW, I didn't know that; my doc didn't say that at all.

Hey Girls! I'm having kind of a blue day today. Not sure why, nothing specific has happened. But nothing new or nothing serious, so I'm sure I'll get through it.

. I don't feel like a failure now! Sometimes I'm able to aknowlege the fact that I've lost 60 pounds, and that that is a significant amount of weight, but other times I feel like I have a long ways to go and wonder how I'll do it.

Jul - Hope you are feeling less blue - maybe feeling an energetic orange or bright green!!!

Focus on the positive - you did your exercise, and you have lost 60 pounds!!! 60! Weren't there times at the beginning of this journey that you thought you would be so happy if you lost 25 or 50 pounds? And now you are at 60 and counting!

I’m going to make this work! Sure I”ve said that before, but one of these times it’s going to be true! LOL :-P

Ditto!!!

We got official word today that the position was awarded to someone besides my husband. We are terribly disappointed.

I've started feeling nauseated which is helpful to avoid the sweet tooth. So that's a bonus.

Supposed to get many inches of snow tonight. It's already been raining all day. Wet and cold!

Sorry to hear that your husband did not get the position; I know you are disappointed.

First time I've ever heard of morning-sickness being viewed as a positive thing - :closedeyes::w00t:

Keep the snow away from me....no no no snow!

This weather is really weird, Where did fall go, it's only October. I love snow, but it is a little early!

Hey St Louis - you LOVE snow?!?! Are you for real??? The older I get the less I like it - and I'm getting old now!! I suppose snow would be ok if it: happened while the temperature was in the 70's/80's; it only snowed on the lawns -not the sidewalks and roads; it never happened with high winds....

Ok, it’s been way too quiet in here! Where is everyone?

Been busy and feeling in a bit of a funk. This thread and the PJTP threads are about the only ones I come to anymore. It seems we are fewer and fewer in all the threads I like, and I get saddened by that......

Did I tell you guys that I've been substitute teaching? It's been an adventure. I've done 4th grade, 2nd grade and 5th grade. 2nd was my favorite so far.

My appetite has been greatly reduced with this minor amount of nausea that has set in. I'm grateful for that. I need to do better about making sure my consumed calories are nutritious. Although sometimes nothing but tapioca pudding sounds good. So warm tapioca pudding it just was.

Tapioca pudding - YUCK!!! It is right up there with rice pudding as something I cannot stand - not the smell, the texture or the taste.........you can have my share Melissa!!

Happy Friday everyone. Take care of yourselves!

Morning!

Fanny - how exciting; keep us posted on the decisions and progress.

As for me, it's a good thing I buy cleaners, toilet paper, and kleenex in bulk - my mother is visiting and she and DH are both sick - nausea and headaches....I'm exhausted from cleaning up, and doing laundry. I'm taking today off to tend to the sick and maybe, just maybe, catch up on my sleep....

An interesting question - I have never had it happen with me, though. I experience a lot of cold weather (snow started last week, and will last until April) and haven't had that phenomenon. But maybe because cold temps and snow are normal here, my body didn't react to it, whereas if you are usually in a more temperate climate, the temps shocked your body.

PS...roll call: sick? KC? GoneforNow? CC? Pooly? Ktork?SMSmith

You are missed.

MOrning all!

Plain - It is still so far down on my list of movies, I doubt it will ever bubble to the top.

Ebony - Big Ideas in Science sounds like a fun course! Organizational behaviour - bleck!

Kat - thanks for the G4E update...it makes my flabby skin issues seem somewhat selfish.:cursing: Sorry your work day sucked...

Well, time to be working....although I don't wanna. I don't wanna!

Tap walks in, yells 'hello, hello'...hearing nothing but her echo, she leaves again (sad and dejected)....

Congratulations, Melissa. I am so happy for you; I know this is something you wanted.

:cursing::w00t::scared2::w00t:

Hi Ebony!!

Another great NSV for you - that's wonderful!

I've heard about Spanx, but haven't invested in any - yet. But given the serious belly overhang I have, I'm thinking maybe it is time to invest. Plastic surgery is something I have thought of, but the cost is just too much. But I'm thinking it would certainly help me drop a few more pounds - honestly, the reason I haven't reached the upper limit of my doctors goal just HAS to be the excess skin!!:thumbup: Besides, several docs have mentioned waiting for 6 months to a year after your weight loss before having any PS, so that gives me time. (Of course, just as many do not make any such recommendations...).

I did come to work - gets me out of the house and with my mother visiting it is important for both of us to have 'time outs'...

And speaking of work......gotta get some stuff off my desk!

Restriction does NOT mean mini throwups and pain etc...Get to a doctor asap for a small de-fill. Then take it easy for a day or two and eat mushies or liquids, and give your stomach a chance to relax. The more irritated it is, the more difficult it is to function propoerly and therefore you begin a vicious cycle of pain.

I did okay on my first 5k - came in second-to-last, but I finished it! I was tired by the end, but very happy. :w00t:

I'm proud of myself for finishing! :thumbup:

Ebony - that is FABULOUS!! And you rightly should feel proud of yourself for finishing - who cares whether you are first or last, you ran a 5K - CONGRATULATIONS!

When family members explain to dinner guests that "No, she's not sick; she just doesn't eat like a real person"

When having one bite of a dessert is enough sweetness to last a week or two!

When close friends who haven't seen you in 3 years walk past you not recognizing you since you lost weight. (And then when you call out to them, they do a double-take, give you a hug, and then ask in a whispered tone, 'Did you lose weight intentionally or are you sick?")

When your weekly groceries fit in the childs cart or basket.

Lil Miss - that's not a glass case...that's a mirror on your wall reflecting the trophy in MY cabinet...