One week ago , I went in to have my EGD done and to my amazement , I had a dilation. For the first time since I was banded , I had a complication. For the moment , I saw myself as that 476 lb person again , and I knew then that I had to regain control of myself . I had become comfortable with the person that I had become and almost forgot where I had been before .
After removing half of the fluid in my band , I was back on liquids and told that it was up to me to correct this problem .. How unfair is that I thought . For so o long I have been dependent on the "band" to control my addiction and this is not the right way to think or to even live ..
Even as a banded person , we still have to control ourselves. We are in control of our destiny and we are in control of the ending result .. With that being said , I have regained control , and reached another milestone . This week I stepped into 100 nder land at 197lbs in which I haven't been there since I was a kid , which gives me yet another insight to what the future holds for me .. today , tomorrow and always ..
For all of you that have taken the first steps towards the rest of your lives , I wish you all the best .. and for those of you who are where I am today .. I want to say that I have very proud of all that you have accompished and I encourage you to keep up the good work !!
~~MUAHZ ~~
Julie
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