oburawa

Hi there

Im actually experiencing alot of depression too. im 4 weeks out and im starting on normal foods. After the surgery i honestly felt so much regret. I know my diet was off and this was new but i still feel depression ever day at some point. I never had these feelings before and they are very mixed Highs and lows.

I would regret i did the surgery, my mind would linger on how i should have dieted and did it the old fashion way, only my husband knows i did this but i feel ashamed that i took this root, its feels like i cheated and im dishonest. I was a yoyo dieter and i couldn't keep my weight in check,l i did this for my future health but i wish i never did it. Im losing weight slowly, i have a lower bmi so thats bound to happen and Im ok with that.

I never once thought i would have these emotions. Every night my mind just goes over and over silly things, and the same things, regrets, my life is forever changed, permanently changed, health issues ( if any come up) eating tiny portions in public making me self conscious. Ashamed and more

I don't feel grateful at all, mostly guilt and regret. My regular doctor advised me not to do it since i had low bmi and said is a big mistake and that i should go the natural route. That comes in my head all the time.

I paid myself for this and i think i might need to see a counselor to vent but i feel like a mess.

Im praying i over come this with time, i don't want it to get worse.

Im 4 weeks out too and posted about this issue too, just remember that you thought this out when u were emotionally stable and u concluded that it is the best way to go. Trust me it gets better

Hi oburawa,

Can I ask where you are in the Middle East? I'm in Kuwait and just started the whole process.

UmmFaisal

Hi Um Faisal,

Sorry for the late reply, I did it in Jordan, please contact me if you need more details

Thank you for posting! I have concerns that losing food as a source of pleasure/entertainment instead of just nourishment will be very hard emotionally. Do you have any advice to prepare for that loss? I'm not yet scheduled for surgery.

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I don't consider myself to be successful when it comes to preparation, I tried to prepare myself mentally and I failed but whenever i felt down and depressed i kept reminding myself that when i was emotionally stable I have thought this decision (having the surgery) many times and everytime i would conclude that it is the best thing to do so no matter how depressed you feel in the first few weeks remember that it is going to disappear, probably by the first taste of solid food.

Had my op on 19/5, i never laughed and I became soo depressed after surgery, i had suicidal thoughts but they alm disappeared after just 4 weeks (when released to solid food), im so happy that i did it and no regrets.

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Im the first 2 days i was on morphin because the pain was bad even though i asked them to stop it (which is what they did but i regreted it later), after that i took panadol for 1 day and nothing else after that.

I tell you the pain and everything else is worth it!

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Hi,

Im writing this post to provide support for whoever was in my position,

Yesterday I was released to solid food.

5 years ago i was soo slim but i started gaining weight untill i reached a BMI of 36. I ended up having a resisitant hypertension which required 4 classes of drugs of high doses to control.

I looked so normal, my legs and my hands were of those who are slim but i had it all in my belly and neck, my doctor, the best in the middle east, believed that my central obesity is causing my hypertension and after studying my life style and my attempts to control my weight and my hypertension he suggested that gastric sleeve is the best way to go.

Before having the surgery i thought its going to be so easy, 3 incisions, 2 hours and then everything is alright, i did not know that the first 2 days after surgery will be sooo painful. I didnt know i would suffer that much while sipping Water, I didnt know i would be so depressed and I didnt know that i would find out that food was the main passion in my life.

After the surgery i realized that 80% of my happeness in life was caused by food. I started to feel soo depressed because i couldnt eat, i kept fighting and hurting everyone that speaks to me, i kept snapping at everyone and it seemed like nothing in life would cheer me up, I started having thoughts like the did i do to myself?!! I wasnt that fat and i couldve done it on my own...etc

Now after 4 weeks i lost 13.5 kilos, i lowered my meds from 4 to 2 and tomorrow i will see the dr. And it is very likely to lower my dose to 1 med a day.

About the depression and regret feelings they ended today, when i ate solid food i realized that even with the small quantities i could eat i still can eat whatever i like and still feel the same satisfaction i used to feel when eating the unbelievable amount of food i used to eat.

The point im trying to deliver is:

NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU FEEL IN THE FIRST FEW WEEKS, HANG IN THERE BECAUSE THEY WILL ALL DISAPPEAR AND YOU WILL FEEL GOOD AGAIN AND REALIZE THAT IT WAS THE BEST THING YOU EVER DID!

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