Luckygrl

I'm a year and 5 months out, and surpassed my doctors goal last month. Life is great

I think it's the perspective we have about this type of surgery. If you have chest pains and they find a blockage, the cardiologist tells you "You have to have surgery or you'll die". We believe that completely and without question. And after, we don't second guess that the surgery saved our lives. If the oncologist says " I have to remove the tumor or you'll die". We say of course....and cross our fingers it's in time and they got it all. And all the while, every Doc we've seen and every article we read touts all the hazards of obesity and the potential for causing death. And somehow we see the need for immediate and drastic action still as elective or a choice or simply not urgent. And as with any surgery, there is risks and discomfort and complications. More issues to make us consider the so called "decision".
Is it worth it.??? I think the more important question would be...."What is going to happen if I don't do it?" Where is the "worth" in remaining obese. With all those other life saving surgeries we never evaluate the recoveries or the discomfort or the difficulty or the worth. We just appreciate that it saved our life.
I've had two of those life threatening conditions and the surgeries that saved me.......surgeries that gave me a second and then a third chance. And for some reason I cannot explain, I still had on blinders about my obesity. I knew I should do something but the life threatening alarm just didn't go off.
Then it finally hit me. Even after I managed to beat these other unexpected killers.......I'm gonna allow obesity to kill me. Something I can prevent! Really?!
Now I feel like I'm on a time clock ticking away day by day. The surgery and the turn around benefits of losing the weight can't come fast enough. I don't worry about risks or recovery or pain or hardship. I can handle those. I just need to beat that clock. Who says you can't have a forth chance at life ?!

Hot flashes (due to obesity) have disappeared. I used to get them CONSTANTLY. Haven't had one since I lost my first 50 pounds. Hopped up on a high kitchen stool yesterday with no effort to grab a rarely-used pot.Sat cross-legged on a desk in front of my students and discussed a course topic yesterday for 45 minutes - no discomfortI can walk for miles and not have to sit down and rest my poor feet.I can run up and down stairs and not lose my breath.Knee issues have resolved. Disappeared. Happened at the 50-pounds lost markRuptured disc and associated backpain has vanished.I no longer have to lift "stuff" up to wash other "stuff" in the shower. (Seriously ladies, can I get a holla!)I sleep better than I have in years. Deeply, soundly, beautifully.Happier. I am happier.

Thank you all for your kind words and support. It really means a lot to me. I have gotten my spark and full motivation back again and looking forward to tomorrow where I go see the surgeon and get my care package, then all they have to is get approval from the insurance company and then I should have a date for the surgery! I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not going to mention the WLS to my family anymore even after I have it and only mention it when only necessary but as someone said, I look forward to laughing about it a year from now after I'll prove them all wrong. I'm so glad to have found this group and I really look forward to learning from and sharing support with you all.

So I had my surgery and it was a success! My mom did take me to my surgery (got me there a half hour late then blamed me for not rushing her enough even though I did and got yelled for it) I called my grandpa after my surgery and he was being nice to me.I'm alright, feeling good actually although my blood pressure is a little high and heart rate is kinda low but I don't feel it and have been walking around with no problem. I have so much energy as well. Once again thank you all for your support and encouragement as well as kind words with it I regained my confidence and hope. For that I love you all!!!
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